fever or K symptoms?

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Hey,

yesterday I had major fever like symptoms: headache, body ache (my joints were

aching real bad especially my hip sockets and lower spine and cervical spine),

sore throat, feelings a faintness (like I could loose consciousness when I would

stand up)...

I laid outside for a bit yesterday and I noticed that my attention went straight

to where it hurt (mostly my headache and neck-ache), the pain opened up to some

extent, to where it just felt like pure energy instead of the major contraction

feeling. I laid there focusing gently on it and after a while I got up, feeling

very dizzy, went inside and everything had this bright blue shimmer to it and

anything that was blue was 10 times more blue than I had ever seen. But feeling

like crap I couldn't enjoy the show, so I went into my room to lay back down.

I went to bed 3 hours earlier than usual and even though I was extremely tired,

could not go to sleep. When I laid down, my attention went straight to where my

body hurt, mostly my head and neck. I had this sneaking suspicion all day that

this actually wasn't a fever but energy backed up due to my throat chakra

energetic block. So anyways, I could not go to sleep for the life of me. My

attention was automatically drawn to where my body hurt and the pain began

opening up into pure energy again and was seemingly energizing me from the

inside despite the fact that when I tried to open my eyes, they were almost

glued shut from my body being so tired. The more I focused on my pain, the less

I felt sleepy. So I just surrendered and felt the energy. I noticed that the

block in my throat would move up to where my jaw meets my throat but wouldn't go

any further. So I tried to sort of pretend cry to hopefully be able to really

cry so that I could release this backed up energy. The tears just won't come but

when I did go through all of the motions of crying, the pain in my head and my

sore throat vanished, but came back shortly after I gave up and just wanted to

go to sleep. Then I started having these emotions that I hadn't had since I was

a kid, mostly dark depressing emotions that my mother and therapist would tell

me to fake it until I make it (basically, cover up my real emotions with a smile

and pretend like I wasn't having these emotions).

This morning after a night of tossing and turning, I got up and sat in my chair

to meditate and almost passed out, so I laid down to meditate, and feel this

energy and allow it to open up. Then after 10 minutes I sat back up and was able

to meditate without feelings of losing consciousness. And while meditating, the

energetic block in my neck started to have this bubbling feeling. I now feel

mostly fine. I just wish I could somehow release this energy but the tears won't

come. And if I'm not in a meditative state and not focusing on the pain, it

contracts again, although the severity of the pain has diminished alot.

During this whole ordeal, it felt like my third eye was being blown wide open

(feeling wise) and now it feels like there's this funnel that closes and

expands, depending on how much I focus on it, going from my third eye to the

center of my brain.

 

When the energy gets this backed up can it give someone fever like symptoms?

Or is this increased K activity? or is it just simply a fever?

 

craig