Relationships... confused

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I have been happily married to my husband for a few years. He is my best friend,

my lover, my everything. Something is different in me now and I feel so guilty.

 

Ever since the Kundalini has opened in me, I have been feeling trapped in my

relationship. I by no means never want to divorce him, but I feel like I want

emotional and loving connections with other people as well. Not just s3xual...

but emotional. Like kissing, cuddling, males and females.

 

I find myself dreaming that I have multiple lovers every night. I feel I want to

experience everyone.

 

I feel I am losing my attachments to the people around me. Not that I want to

let them go, but that I want to be a butterfly and expand my horizons.

 

Has this happened to anyone else? I will never cheat on him or divorce him... I

feel no need to hurt him. I am faithful and yet my heart is not. I honestly dont

know what to make of it because I have never been this way before.

 

I know that this life is just passing and I am not really tied to anyone in the

bigger picture... but it feels like I am playing by reality's rules instead of

what I truly want. To be free and love whomever I choose. To accept that I want

this connection and not feel bad about it (even though I would never act on it

for my husbands sake)

 

Perhaps this is just a new channel opening up in me. Something that will be

accepted as time passes. Perhaps someone can shed some light per their own

experiences.

 

Can anyone relate?

 

-Tiffany S