(and all)-am I having moon baby triplets?

[Guest guest]

Chrism and All:

I think I'm about to give birth to moon baby triplets. My abdomen is so

extended. Ordinary Sparrow-do you have any extra boxer briefs you can send

over? I found myself looking sideways in the mirror and rubbing my belly. It

has never protruded to such an extent before, and I don't think it's from the

bean burrito! But this made me think of an umbilical cord- a life line. This is

how I see the group…as my nourishment. That threw me into a tail spin of feeling

like maybe I need to cut the cord, not write so much, not turn to the group for

support so much so that I can stand on my own. I went to bed with this tossing

in my thoughts. I fell asleep with the realization of my care for you…my care

for the several handfuls who post and the 700 plus more. Have I become too

attached, too reliant on reading through the posts a few times per day? I

thought of Shrikant and his more-so direct route versus how I like the look and

feel of the words themselves. I relish their ups and downs and curves; to stop

and peek through the " o " and climb upon the " m " , but I do this regardless of the

length of their sentence journey. Aah the journey. The journey has been a

rough road for me; every aspect of my life from the ethical to physical has been

gutted, inspected and become new stuffing for me. I experienced the highly

probable loss of my life.I have feared falling into the wrong hands and having

my experience deemed " mental illness " , being misunderstood and having this

opportunity to express of my experience taken from me. Not death, but to be at

the mercy of one/others who did not understand this journey, was my greatest

fear. All it took was one person to hear me with their heart and to have an

understanding of Kundalini. And in this several year selfless dedication to me

they led me to you. So, I know that in time I too will morph from a voice to

eyes of the group, and live in Lurksville and swing by for a visit now and

then…but for now, I have " K fingers " which are grateful to have a community who

can honor their individual experience, yet validate and guide another in theirs.

My expression to you, no matter how wordy, jumbled and frequent holds so sense

of risk to me in comparison to having experienced it " all on my own " …plus it's

going to take a village to raise these moon babies and I could use some

assistance! I wonder what sound a baby moon makes? (that's a joke-I'm not

actually having moon babies, or am I, Chrism??).

 

Love to you.

Danielle

[Guest guest]

Dear Danielle,Eat good and healthy food which will be helpful to you and ur

babies.

..................shrikant

[Guest guest]

oh, danielle, youre so sweet

why cut the cord? expecially if still in need for nourishment...

I too have given this thought... I too read the posts several times a day.. and

look forward to every one of them...

but I am of the opinion that if you are drawn in a direction, then it's good to

follow.. even the paths that seem wrong or possibly unhelthy.. they are good in

the long run. and there is certanly nothing unhelthy about reading and learnin

form this group! I have learned so much in just two months here... I have

gained in emotional indipendance, in peace, in awareness..

 

I was thinking of it today.. how wonderful it is to have people to learn from,

people that I can talk to and relate to in a deep way.. this is not possible

with any of my friends.. there is only my boyfriend, and I am so grateful for

him in my life, but it's not enough... I need to grow and explore, and this

group is a rich and fertile forest in which to do so.

it's alive, as books will never be.. and it's varied and colorful...

dont cut the cord danielle, unless it comes naturally.. when a baby is born,

even if he is already breathing, the cord should be left attached to the mother,

until it is still and does not pulsate with blood anymore. and then still, for

many many years to come, the child still needs support and nourishment, love and

closeness..

 

I too like shrikant sometimes feel choppy and out of step with the group... but

I know part of it is me trying to put myself down.. and so I try to see what

moves me to speak and do

so when it flows.

 

I really like reading your little stories.. they are like paintings and have a

character all o their own.. it's beautiful how each here has their own unique

way of expressing and writing.. often I dont even need to get to the name to

know who is writing

 

love....lucia

 

, " iamwaitingmoon "

<iamwaitingmoon wrote:

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>This is how I see the group…as my nourishment. That threw me into a tail spin

of feeling like maybe I need to cut the cord, not write so much, not turn to the

group for support so much so that I can stand on my own. I went to bed with this

tossing in my thoughts. I fell asleep with the realization of my care for

you…my care for the several handfuls who post and the 700 plus more. Have I

become too attached, too reliant on reading through the posts a few times per

day? I thought of Shrikant and his more-so direct route versus how I like the

look and feel of the words themselves. I relish their ups and downs and curves;

to stop and peek through the " o " and climb upon the " m " , but I do this

regardless of the length of their sentence journey. Aah the journey.

[Guest guest]

You ARE having them. And THEY are having you. We are blessed by yours and their

birth. - This village awaits you and yours with love and bated breath! - chrism

 

 

, " iamwaitingmoon "

<iamwaitingmoon wrote:

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> and All:

> I think I'm about to give birth to moon baby triplets.