Guest guest Posted August 29, 2009 Report Share Posted August 29, 2009 Thank you Dear Shrikant for your understanding and for the poem. That poem sure fits me right now. Hehe! I wanted to sleep and make this post tomorrow, but I could not sleep and I got back up and found this post from you. Shakti is moving strong through me right now, she would not let me sleep first. So here I am. I am surrendering to her. I have been very much on the emotional side with kundalini lately bringing up a lot of gook for me to deal with. I am glad you did not take my outburst personal, shrikant. I am so sorry I lost control. I have always been a very emotional person all my life except for a few times in my life when I mangaged to shut my emotions completely down and not feel anything. Through those times I could watch the saddest movie in the whole world and not shed a tear...not feel anything...by heart was rock hard. My life has really been on the crazy side. If I had enough brains to think coherently I could write a good informative book on emotions. I don't want to go there again in that hard place, it was a very bad state to be in. The first time, I was in the deepest, hopeless, despair to the point I wanted death more than anything. It took Jesus to come to me in very personally that night to saved me from myself and he gave me back my emotions and a life worth living. I did dead that night to the me I that I was and I became a new me in Christ Jesus. Life was fairly smooth for a few years after that with Jesus close by my side in a real way, especialy the first 6 nonths. After that time of teaching and growing he felt I was strong enough to go out be a teacher, to teach the hurting children what I had been taught and I obedied. I am so grateful for his intervention and now my life, my heart, my love belongs to him first foremost above all forever. He gave me signs I could not denied. I then reached a point where I recieved the baptism of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit was gentle with me bringing up stuff slowly, helping be deal with the emotional stuff, moving it up and clearing it out. I could only go so far and I began surpressing again... I was going back and forth surpressing and unsurpessing until somewhere in there my kundulini was activated. I don't like getting over emotional. I wanted to run to the woods real bad many time in these last few years, but I have no woods here where I live to run to..none..just a few little trees here and there. The kundalini really amplyfied my emotions tonight. I know I have to learn to deal with them and the stuff that causes them to be so strong. Can you believe a little word like " argue " could cause such a mighty damn to break forth in me. You would not believe how deep in tears I was drowning, it was a real big gusher. I could have flooded all of Victoria the way it was gushing, all of south Texas even. We could sure used the water here. It has not not stop yet but my talk with chrism did calm the waters a bit. My kundalini on the other hand is very active right now and I have tingles and hissings all over and a hug pulsation in my sacral. Daniele I don't know it your enlarged tummy is anything in comparsion to mine. That baby in me felt like it was going to burst it way right out of there when I tried to lay down and go to sleep. " No-sur-ree, you are not going to sleep " , said Shakti, loud and clear. You have a promise to keep and you are doing it right now. So here I here I am, doing it! Peoples if you have emotional junk buried down there it is coming out one way or the other and we are no longer allowed run to the woods and just cry about to make the pain go away, you have to face it and deal with it. LOL! You guys thought you were really rid of me this time for sure, didn't you? ... but no, shakti and my wonderful kundalini teacher, chrism, would not let me run. So here I am continuing my journey of sharing with you, my ups and downs. I will try to not share my ups and downs in such an out of control fashion though as I did tonight. I will try real hard to stop, take a deep, deep breath, count to 9 and focus on shakit and what she is wanting me to deal with. It is so messy to let it spill out all over you, as if you don't have enough of your own junk to deal with. God! how rude of me! I am sorry I lost control that way... I know I have been doing it a lot ever since I arrived here and you guys have been so loving and kind to me and my ego through it all. I am grateful for that. You should have been throwing gagging burf balls at me intead of loving chi balls and hugs I will face the wind and grow a forrest. Linda P.S. Can you believe it! for about 3 months now I hve had this thing in my left nostril keeping me from breathing properly. I was beinning to think I had been visited by aliens and they had, God forbid, put an implant/a chip in me against my will. I just realized it is gone, I can breathe clear again. I am going to go do the alternate breathing and go to bed now. Thanks Shakti and all. Mucho Grandi LOVE! Gratitude out the kaazoo! I can breath! , shrikant phule <shrikantphule wrote: > > Dear Linda, > We had a poem when I was in school. > The woods are lovely dark and deep > But I have promises to keep > And miles to go before I sleep > And miles to go before I sleep > ( Robert Frost) > Please dont run and be silent.You have not offended me or hurt me,I welcome your views.You are good person.We debate with a person who understands us and not with a wall..............................................shrikant. > > --- On Sat, 29/8/09, danceswithcats999 <crazycats711 wrote: > > > danceswithcats999 <crazycats711 > Re: For some humor-Laugh on me > > Saturday, 29 August, 2009, 10:26 AM > > > > > > > I listened to this and laughed and went on to listen to a few other videos of his. I watch one about " poop on your knee " . Then I went to watch another, but for some reason it would not play. The screen just went totally white! except for one little tiny spot that looked like a tiny poop icon. I thought my computer had caught some virus from watching that last video and it left a poop icon on my computer. I ran my virus program to get the virus poop off, but it was still there. I worried about it all afternnon, because it was there on every page and even on my desktop. LOL! > > When James called me tonight I was telling him about it and for some reason I reached up and touch the spot where it was. hehehaha! It was something on the outside of screen and when I touched it, it fell off. > > Linda > > Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , " " <@ ...> wrote: > > > > With respect for the language being sung always!. And with respect for the attempt at understanding from an English point of view. > > > > http://www.youtube. com/watch? v=sdyC1BrQd6g > > > > > > > > > > > > > Love Cricket? Check out live scores, photos, video highlights and more. Click here http://cricket. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 29, 2009 Report Share Posted August 29, 2009 Hey Linda: You are not alone in your thinking you are always misinterpreted- it is not easy understanding or writing here - it is hard enough looking someone in the eye and knowing what they mean when speaking. I have not been following all the threads and I completely missed this one - so I had to go back and see what the hubbub was all about. emotional outbursts - oh my - i am there have been there and do i have more to look forward to? geeeeezzzzzzzzzzz luiiiiiiiiseeeeeeeeeeezzzz! like you i want to run when the going gets tough and i feel no body understands me- i have been running for two years - and know i am not finished as yet - when we were little we used to say when someone got upset and pouted- just take your marbles and go - had to do with playing marbles the old fashioned kind- and that is what i see here so often including myself - we get upset and want to gather up our marbles and go - how often i have felt that way - then recently i started to see the posts in a new light - we all are at different junctures in our K life - we all use words in unique ways - we all come from various cultures and backgrounds - the commonality is the K - so there is bound to be phrases i use that you will have no idea what it means like he is " going 240 " in Chicago there was an elevated train number 240 and when someone is moving fast or going off verbally we will say he is " going 240 " i love these phrases and we all have them and use them - put these all together and voila! incomprehension - misinterpretation- linda - please know that i am always here for you- you have been a very good friend and confidante in the past two years - seems as if lately we both have been drawing back some and that is ok - yet i always know you are there and i am here for you- i am so proud of you that you had the courage to come and say hey i got it wrong or think i did and say " sorry " and the courage to not take your marbles and go - that is the easy way the ordinary way - the this world way - we are not of this world linda - we are of other worlds and have to pave a new paradigm of living - a new way of looking at all things all ideas - all words all emotions all everything - every blink every ache every sigh every word every action every feeling every thought every moment is encapsulated with Kundalini in you and in me- we are not who we were- we are not who we will be - we are evolving and so your choice of choosing to be here and say- hey " i goofed " is your new self - you are more than you were and there is more to come... so bottom line - i know you ...i love you...and i always will... k sister you are the cats meowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!! " if you really want to go to the woods we can go north - lots of woods there how about California redwood area - beautiful trees to get lost in - wyoming- utah -minnesota-wisconsin-oregon-the dakotas- washington-colorado or head out to the east coast NC forest maine oh so much beauty we have here in the states --get the picture or you can use your imagination and visit the trees anytime - blessings dear lady ...i think the healing diamond is working on all within it - it is dredging up lots in me too- tis good tis good... and it is so good to have a guide who can calm the waters and show us the evolution taking place- we are so blessed - it is kind of like having our own " dial a guru- a wild guru " e Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 29, 2009 Report Share Posted August 29, 2009 Dear Linda, Thank you for being considerate..........................shrikant --- On Sat, 29/8/09, danceswithcats999 <crazycats711 wrote: danceswithcats999 <crazycats711 Emotional Outbursts Saturday, 29 August, 2009, 5:08 PM Thank you Dear Shrikant for your understanding and for the poem. That poem sure fits me right now. Hehe! I wanted to sleep and make this post tomorrow, but I could not sleep and I got back up and found this post from you. Shakti is moving strong through me right now, she would not let me sleep first. So here I am. I am surrendering to her. I have been very much on the emotional side with kundalini lately bringing up a lot of gook for me to deal with. I am glad you did not take my outburst personal, shrikant. I am so sorry I lost control. I have always been a very emotional person all my life except for a few times in my life when I mangaged to shut my emotions completely down and not feel anything. Through those times I could watch the saddest movie in the whole world and not shed a tear...not feel anything...by heart was rock hard. My life has really been on the crazy side. If I had enough brains to think coherently I could write a good informative book on emotions. I don't want to go there again in that hard place, it was a very bad state to be in. The first time, I was in the deepest, hopeless, despair to the point I wanted death more than anything. It took Jesus to come to me in very personally that night to saved me from myself and he gave me back my emotions and a life worth living. I did dead that night to the me I that I was and I became a new me in Christ Jesus. Life was fairly smooth for a few years after that with Jesus close by my side in a real way, especialy the first 6 nonths. After that time of teaching and growing he felt I was strong enough to go out be a teacher, to teach the hurting children what I had been taught and I obedied. I am so grateful for his intervention and now my life, my heart, my love belongs to him first foremost above all forever. He gave me signs I could not denied. I then reached a point where I recieved the baptism of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit was gentle with me bringing up stuff slowly, helping be deal with the emotional stuff, moving it up and clearing it out. I could only go so far and I began surpressing again... I was going back and forth surpressing and unsurpessing until somewhere in there my kundulini was activated. I don't like getting over emotional. I wanted to run to the woods real bad many time in these last few years, but I have no woods here where I live to run to..none..just a few little trees here and there. The kundalini really amplyfied my emotions tonight. I know I have to learn to deal with them and the stuff that causes them to be so strong. Can you believe a little word like " argue " could cause such a mighty damn to break forth in me. You would not believe how deep in tears I was drowning, it was a real big gusher. I could have flooded all of Victoria the way it was gushing, all of south Texas even. We could sure used the water here. It has not not stop yet but my talk with chrism did calm the waters a bit. My kundalini on the other hand is very active right now and I have tingles and hissings all over and a hug pulsation in my sacral. Daniele I don't know it your enlarged tummy is anything in comparsion to mine. That baby in me felt like it was going to burst it way right out of there when I tried to lay down and go to sleep. " No-sur-ree, you are not going to sleep " , said Shakti, loud and clear. You have a promise to keep and you are doing it right now. So here I here I am, doing it! Peoples if you have emotional junk buried down there it is coming out one way or the other and we are no longer allowed run to the woods and just cry about to make the pain go away, you have to face it and deal with it. LOL! You guys thought you were really rid of me this time for sure, didn't you? ... but no, shakti and my wonderful kundalini teacher, chrism, would not let me run. So here I am continuing my journey of sharing with you, my ups and downs. I will try to not share my ups and downs in such an out of control fashion though as I did tonight. I will try real hard to stop, take a deep, deep breath, count to 9 and focus on shakit and what she is wanting me to deal with. It is so messy to let it spill out all over you, as if you don't have enough of your own junk to deal with. God! how rude of me! I am sorry I lost control that way... I know I have been doing it a lot ever since I arrived here and you guys have been so loving and kind to me and my ego through it all. I am grateful for that. You should have been throwing gagging burf balls at me intead of loving chi balls and hugs I will face the wind and grow a forrest. Linda P.S. Can you believe it! for about 3 months now I hve had this thing in my left nostril keeping me from breathing properly. I was beinning to think I had been visited by aliens and they had, God forbid, put an implant/a chip in me against my will. I just realized it is gone, I can breathe clear again. I am going to go do the alternate breathing and go to bed now. Thanks Shakti and all. Mucho Grandi LOVE! Gratitude out the kaazoo! I can breath! Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , shrikant phule <shrikantphule@ ...> wrote: > > Dear Linda, > We had a poem when I was in school. > The woods are lovely dark and deep > But I have promises to keep > And miles to go before I sleep > And miles to go before I sleep > ( Robert Frost) > Please dont run and be silent.You have not offended me or hurt me,I welcome your views.You are good person.We debate with a person who understands us and not with a wall........ ......... ......... ......... ......... ...shrikant. > > --- On Sat, 29/8/09, danceswithcats999 <crazycats711@ ...> wrote: > > > danceswithcats999 <crazycats711@ ...> > [Kundalini-Awakenin g-Systems- 1] Re: For some humor-Laugh on me > Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 > Saturday, 29 August, 2009, 10:26 AM > > > > > > > I listened to this and laughed and went on to listen to a few other videos of his. I watch one about " poop on your knee " . Then I went to watch another, but for some reason it would not play. The screen just went totally white! except for one little tiny spot that looked like a tiny poop icon. I thought my computer had caught some virus from watching that last video and it left a poop icon on my computer. I ran my virus program to get the virus poop off, but it was still there. I worried about it all afternnon, because it was there on every page and even on my desktop. LOL! > > When James called me tonight I was telling him about it and for some reason I reached up and touch the spot where it was. hehehaha! It was something on the outside of screen and when I touched it, it fell off. > > Linda > > Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , " " <@ ...> wrote: > > > > With respect for the language being sung always!. And with respect for the attempt at understanding from an English point of view. > > > > http://www.youtube. com/watch? v=sdyC1BrQd6g > > > > > > > > > > > > > Love Cricket? Check out live scores, photos, video highlights and more. 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Guest guest Posted August 29, 2009 Report Share Posted August 29, 2009 Hi everyone, So nice to read you all! The emotional clearings, feelings, and goings-on...I think can be one of the most difficult parts of this. Every time it happens (I usually go off by myself-no surprise here) (: I think God there can't possibly be anything left inside me to clear...Hey God...I think you made a mistake here...this crying thing surely I am past this now....Excuse me God, but really check your records, I'm mean you must know what you're doing and all...but surely you've made a mistake...hahaha then after some words like this...and maybe an unpleasant * & #! word or two finally I'm like " fine - I surrender - I know its just a stage and I'll feel better soon enough...Hey God sooner than later, okay? (: And I know its just me allowing it to release and knowing and reminding myself (and reminding myself again) this too will pass - let it = surrender to it and it will pass - So I remind and remind and somehow I still so astonished when it passes because its so strong riding those waves that I can't believe the waters will be calm again - although I am as surprised when I'm back in it - Well things are not dull are they? (: if its all about clearing something just think how squeaky clean we all are inside!!!! (:(: I always wonder if the emotions are because of those things deep inside that when we bump up against something in our daily lives - a reminder that this feeling we have toward ourself is still with us...Why does it hurt our feelings so much these different emotions we come by? If we feel someone has hurt our feelings (although they may not have intentionally done so) why does it hurt so much or to be misunderstood or feel like we're not good enough or this or that? Is it all because we don't completely love and accept ourselves no matter what - no matter who is saying what or feeling (even misinterpreting or not) differently? Why can we not stand in our own radiance and just completely love ourselves? Are we not all one? Are we not all part of God? Is God not in us or we in God? So how can we say we completely surrender and completely love God with every part of our being but not ourselves? Are we then really not loving God/source/oneness when we do this? And how much of this is belief systems? I mean perhaps in one society if you are not working around the clock - you are not as worthy, in other society if you are not off meditating and praying you may not be worthy, in another society if you eat this or that you are considered healthy and thats good for you - well the opposite could be true if you lived in another part of the world.... What if we could just love ourselves completely .... I mean no matter what??? No matter if you sit at home and do nothing but scratch all day...are you not part of God? Part of all? What if you pick up dog poop all day - are you not part of God? What if What if...we are all these things...the person that sits home and scratches...(are you itching yet?) hahaha I say these things to myself to remind myself not to be so hard on myself when the emotional currents hit...it must be for higher reasons we cannot fully understand and yet its so hard that even as I write these words if I were to read them when I was in that emotional current I may have a few choice *@ & ! words for myself writing something from sitting on my couch here feeling just fine...ha wait girl it'll come and we'll see what your idealistic self has to say then! (: Because I guess we need to just let it flow and know that we all here go through it and its normal - normal for us so try not to be hard on ourselves when we are riding the waves... Ahhh....hey God...I am through with the waves though...very meekishly now...right? Pretty Please... haha (: The group has rode the waves to the shore right God? Hey God are you listening???? Well whether we ride the waves again or not (okay it'll probably be again) may our surfboards keep us afloat! (: Much love to you all - thinking of you - I know the emotions are so *!%# hard - but I see you all so shiny sparkling with unreal amounts of radiance...so it must be working! (: Love you guys! Debs (: , " danceswithcats999 " <crazycats711 wrote: > > Thank you Dear Shrikant for your understanding and for the poem. That poem sure fits me right now. Hehe! I wanted to sleep and make this post tomorrow, but I could not sleep and I got back up and found this post from you. > > Shakti is moving strong through me right now, she would not let me sleep first. So here I am. I am surrendering to her. > > I have been very much on the emotional side with kundalini lately bringing up a lot of gook for me to deal with. I am glad you did not take my outburst personal, shrikant. I am so sorry I lost control. > > I have always been a very emotional person all my life except for a few times in my life when I mangaged to shut my emotions completely down and not feel anything. Through those times I could watch the saddest movie in the whole world and not shed a tear...not feel anything...by heart was rock hard. My life has really been on the crazy side. If I had enough brains to think coherently I could write a good informative book on emotions. I don't want to go there again in that hard place, it was a very bad state to be in. The first time, I was in the deepest, hopeless, despair to the point I wanted death more than anything. It took Jesus to come to me in very personally that night to saved me from myself and he gave me back my emotions and a life worth living. I did dead that night to the me I that I was and I became a new me in Christ Jesus. Life was fairly smooth for a few years after that with Jesus close by my side in a real way, especialy the first 6 nonths. After that time of teaching and growing he felt I was strong enough to go out be a teacher, to teach the hurting children what I had been taught and I obedied. I am so grateful for his intervention and now my life, my heart, my love belongs to him first foremost above all forever. He gave me signs I could not denied. I then reached a point where I recieved the baptism of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit was gentle with me bringing up stuff slowly, helping be deal with the emotional stuff, moving it up and clearing it out. I could only go so far and I began surpressing again... I was going back and forth surpressing and unsurpessing until somewhere in there my kundulini was activated. I don't like getting over emotional. I wanted to run to the woods real bad many time in these last few years, but I have no woods here where I live to run to..none..just a few little trees here and there. > > The kundalini really amplyfied my emotions tonight. I know I have to learn to deal with them and the stuff that causes them to be so strong. Can you believe a little word like " argue " could cause such a mighty damn to break forth in me. You would not believe how deep in tears I was drowning, it was a real big gusher. I could have flooded all of Victoria the way it was gushing, all of south Texas even. We could sure used the water here. It has not not stop yet but my talk with chrism did calm the waters a bit. My kundalini on the other hand is very active right now and I have tingles and hissings all over and a hug pulsation in my sacral. > > Daniele I don't know it your enlarged tummy is anything in comparsion to mine. That baby in me felt like it was going to burst it way right out of there when I tried to lay down and go to sleep. " No-sur-ree, you are not going to sleep " , said Shakti, loud and clear. You have a promise to keep and you are doing it right now. So here I here I am, doing it! > > Peoples if you have emotional junk buried down there it is coming out one way or the other and we are no longer allowed run to the woods and just cry about to make the pain go away, you have to face it and deal with it. > > LOL! You guys thought you were really rid of me this time for sure, didn't you? ... but no, shakti and my wonderful kundalini teacher, chrism, would not let me run. So here I am continuing my journey of sharing with you, my ups and downs. I will try to not share my ups and downs in such an out of control fashion though as I did tonight. I will try real hard to stop, take a deep, deep breath, count to 9 and focus on shakit and what she is wanting me to deal with. It is so messy to let it spill out all over you, as if you don't have enough of your own junk to deal with. God! how rude of me! I am sorry I lost control that way... I know I have been doing it a lot ever since I arrived here and you guys have been so loving and kind to me and my ego through it all. I am grateful for that. You should have been throwing gagging burf balls at me intead of loving chi balls and hugs > > I will face the wind and grow a forrest. > Linda > > P.S. Can you believe it! for about 3 months now I hve had this thing in my left nostril keeping me from breathing properly. I was beinning to think I had been visited by aliens and they had, God forbid, put an implant/a chip in me against my will. > I just realized it is gone, I can breathe clear again. I am going to go do the alternate breathing and go to bed now. Thanks Shakti and all. Mucho Grandi LOVE! Gratitude out the kaazoo! I can breath! > > > , shrikant phule <shrikantphule@> wrote: > > > > Dear Linda, > > We had a poem when I was in school. > > The woods are lovely dark and deep > > But I have promises to keep > > And miles to go before I sleep > > And miles to go before I sleep > > ( Robert Frost) > > Please dont run and be silent.You have not offended me or hurt me,I welcome your views.You are good person.We debate with a person who understands us and not with a wall..............................................shrikant. > > > > --- On Sat, 29/8/09, danceswithcats999 <crazycats711@> wrote: > > > > > > danceswithcats999 <crazycats711@> > > Re: For some humor-Laugh on me > > > > Saturday, 29 August, 2009, 10:26 AM > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened to this and laughed and went on to listen to a few other videos of his. I watch one about " poop on your knee " . Then I went to watch another, but for some reason it would not play. The screen just went totally white! except for one little tiny spot that looked like a tiny poop icon. I thought my computer had caught some virus from watching that last video and it left a poop icon on my computer. I ran my virus program to get the virus poop off, but it was still there. I worried about it all afternnon, because it was there on every page and even on my desktop. LOL! > > > > When James called me tonight I was telling him about it and for some reason I reached up and touch the spot where it was. hehehaha! It was something on the outside of screen and when I touched it, it fell off. > > > > Linda > > > > Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , " " <@ ...> wrote: > > > > > > With respect for the language being sung always!. And with respect for the attempt at understanding from an English point of view. > > > > > > http://www.youtube. com/watch? v=sdyC1BrQd6g > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Love Cricket? 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Guest guest Posted August 29, 2009 Report Share Posted August 29, 2009 this is so beautifully written, it brings tears to my eyes. thank you Deb. This post is definately a keeper craig , " flowerpowers7777 " <flowerpowers7777 wrote: > > Hi everyone, > > So nice to read you all! The emotional clearings, feelings, and goings-on...I think can be one of the most difficult parts of this. Every time it happens (I usually go off by myself-no surprise here) (: > I think God there can't possibly be anything left inside me to clear...Hey God...I think you made a mistake here...this crying thing surely I am past this now....Excuse me God, but really check your records, I'm mean you must know what you're doing and all...but surely you've made a mistake...hahaha > > then after some words like this...and maybe an unpleasant * & #! word or two finally I'm like " fine - I surrender - I know its just a stage and I'll feel better soon enough...Hey God sooner than later, okay? (: > > And I know its just me allowing it to release and knowing and reminding myself (and reminding myself again) this too will pass - let it = surrender to it and it will pass - So I remind and remind and somehow I still so astonished when it passes because its so strong riding those waves that I can't believe the waters will be calm again - although I am as surprised when I'm back in it - > > Well things are not dull are they? (: > > if its all about clearing something just think how squeaky clean we all are inside!!!! (:(: I always wonder if the emotions are because of those things deep inside that when we bump up against something in our daily lives - a reminder that this feeling we have toward ourself is still with us...Why does it hurt our feelings so much these different emotions we come by? If we feel someone has hurt our feelings (although they may not have intentionally done so) why does it hurt so much or to be misunderstood or feel like we're not good enough or this or that? Is it all because we don't completely love and accept ourselves no matter what - no matter who is saying what or feeling (even misinterpreting or not) differently? Why can we not stand in our own radiance and just completely love ourselves? Are we not all one? Are we not all part of God? Is God not in us or we in God? So how can we say we completely surrender and completely love God with every part of our being but not ourselves? Are we then really not loving God/source/oneness when we do this? And how much of this is belief systems? I mean perhaps in one society if you are not working around the clock - you are not as worthy, in other society if you are not off meditating and praying you may not be worthy, in another society if you eat this or that you are considered healthy and thats good for you - well the opposite could be true if you lived in another part of the world.... > > What if we could just love ourselves completely .... I mean no matter what??? No matter if you sit at home and do nothing but scratch all day...are you not part of God? Part of all? What if you pick up dog poop all day - are you not part of God? What if What if...we are all these things...the person that sits home and scratches...(are you itching yet?) hahaha > > I say these things to myself to remind myself not to be so hard on myself when the emotional currents hit...it must be for higher reasons we cannot fully understand and yet its so hard that even as I write these words if I were to read them when I was in that emotional current I may have a few choice *@ & ! words for myself writing something from sitting on my couch here feeling just fine...ha wait girl it'll come and we'll see what your idealistic self has to say then! (: Because I guess we need to just let it flow and know that we all here go through it and its normal - normal for us so try not to be hard on ourselves when we are riding the waves... > > Ahhh....hey God...I am through with the waves though...very meekishly now...right? Pretty Please... haha (: The group has rode the waves to the shore right God? Hey God are you listening???? > > Well whether we ride the waves again or not (okay it'll probably be again) may our surfboards keep us afloat! (: > > Much love to you all - thinking of you - I know the emotions are so *!%# hard - but I see you all so shiny sparkling with unreal amounts of radiance...so it must be working! (: > > Love you guys! > Debs (: > > > > , " danceswithcats999 " <crazycats711@> wrote: > > > > Thank you Dear Shrikant for your understanding and for the poem. That poem sure fits me right now. Hehe! I wanted to sleep and make this post tomorrow, but I could not sleep and I got back up and found this post from you. > > > > Shakti is moving strong through me right now, she would not let me sleep first. So here I am. I am surrendering to her. > > > > I have been very much on the emotional side with kundalini lately bringing up a lot of gook for me to deal with. I am glad you did not take my outburst personal, shrikant. I am so sorry I lost control. > > > > I have always been a very emotional person all my life except for a few times in my life when I mangaged to shut my emotions completely down and not feel anything. Through those times I could watch the saddest movie in the whole world and not shed a tear...not feel anything...by heart was rock hard. My life has really been on the crazy side. If I had enough brains to think coherently I could write a good informative book on emotions. I don't want to go there again in that hard place, it was a very bad state to be in. The first time, I was in the deepest, hopeless, despair to the point I wanted death more than anything. It took Jesus to come to me in very personally that night to saved me from myself and he gave me back my emotions and a life worth living. I did dead that night to the me I that I was and I became a new me in Christ Jesus. Life was fairly smooth for a few years after that with Jesus close by my side in a real way, especialy the first 6 nonths. After that time of teaching and growing he felt I was strong enough to go out be a teacher, to teach the hurting children what I had been taught and I obedied. I am so grateful for his intervention and now my life, my heart, my love belongs to him first foremost above all forever. He gave me signs I could not denied. I then reached a point where I recieved the baptism of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit was gentle with me bringing up stuff slowly, helping be deal with the emotional stuff, moving it up and clearing it out. I could only go so far and I began surpressing again... I was going back and forth surpressing and unsurpessing until somewhere in there my kundulini was activated. I don't like getting over emotional. I wanted to run to the woods real bad many time in these last few years, but I have no woods here where I live to run to..none..just a few little trees here and there. > > > > The kundalini really amplyfied my emotions tonight. I know I have to learn to deal with them and the stuff that causes them to be so strong. Can you believe a little word like " argue " could cause such a mighty damn to break forth in me. You would not believe how deep in tears I was drowning, it was a real big gusher. I could have flooded all of Victoria the way it was gushing, all of south Texas even. We could sure used the water here. It has not not stop yet but my talk with chrism did calm the waters a bit. My kundalini on the other hand is very active right now and I have tingles and hissings all over and a hug pulsation in my sacral. > > > > Daniele I don't know it your enlarged tummy is anything in comparsion to mine. That baby in me felt like it was going to burst it way right out of there when I tried to lay down and go to sleep. " No-sur-ree, you are not going to sleep " , said Shakti, loud and clear. You have a promise to keep and you are doing it right now. So here I here I am, doing it! > > > > Peoples if you have emotional junk buried down there it is coming out one way or the other and we are no longer allowed run to the woods and just cry about to make the pain go away, you have to face it and deal with it. > > > > LOL! You guys thought you were really rid of me this time for sure, didn't you? ... but no, shakti and my wonderful kundalini teacher, chrism, would not let me run. So here I am continuing my journey of sharing with you, my ups and downs. I will try to not share my ups and downs in such an out of control fashion though as I did tonight. I will try real hard to stop, take a deep, deep breath, count to 9 and focus on shakit and what she is wanting me to deal with. It is so messy to let it spill out all over you, as if you don't have enough of your own junk to deal with. God! how rude of me! I am sorry I lost control that way... I know I have been doing it a lot ever since I arrived here and you guys have been so loving and kind to me and my ego through it all. I am grateful for that. You should have been throwing gagging burf balls at me intead of loving chi balls and hugs > > > > I will face the wind and grow a forrest. > > Linda > > > > P.S. Can you believe it! for about 3 months now I hve had this thing in my left nostril keeping me from breathing properly. I was beinning to think I had been visited by aliens and they had, God forbid, put an implant/a chip in me against my will. > > I just realized it is gone, I can breathe clear again. I am going to go do the alternate breathing and go to bed now. Thanks Shakti and all. Mucho Grandi LOVE! Gratitude out the kaazoo! I can breath! > > > > > > , shrikant phule <shrikantphule@> wrote: > > > > > > Dear Linda, > > > We had a poem when I was in school. > > > The woods are lovely dark and deep > > > But I have promises to keep > > > And miles to go before I sleep > > > And miles to go before I sleep > > > ( Robert Frost) > > > Please dont run and be silent.You have not offended me or hurt me,I welcome your views.You are good person.We debate with a person who understands us and not with a wall..............................................shrikant. > > > > > > --- On Sat, 29/8/09, danceswithcats999 <crazycats711@> wrote: > > > > > > > > > danceswithcats999 <crazycats711@> > > > Re: For some humor-Laugh on me > > > > > > Saturday, 29 August, 2009, 10:26 AM > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I listened to this and laughed and went on to listen to a few other videos of his. I watch one about " poop on your knee " . Then I went to watch another, but for some reason it would not play. The screen just went totally white! except for one little tiny spot that looked like a tiny poop icon. I thought my computer had caught some virus from watching that last video and it left a poop icon on my computer. I ran my virus program to get the virus poop off, but it was still there. I worried about it all afternnon, because it was there on every page and even on my desktop. LOL! > > > > > > When James called me tonight I was telling him about it and for some reason I reached up and touch the spot where it was. hehehaha! It was something on the outside of screen and when I touched it, it fell off. > > > > > > Linda > > > > > > Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , " " <@ ...> wrote: > > > > > > > > With respect for the language being sung always!. And with respect for the attempt at understanding from an English point of view. > > > > > > > > http://www.youtube. com/watch? v=sdyC1BrQd6g > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Love Cricket? Check out live scores, photos, video highlights and more. Click here http://cricket. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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