Guest guest Posted September 3, 2009 Report Share Posted September 3, 2009 Hi Kundalini and Tantric Sisters, I can add my name to the spousal abuse sufferers on this site. I also blamed myself for what HE did to me, and by letting him continue doing it, I too became an abuser of myself. Please sisters, after the first cruel word, or the first cruel action - leave. You will survive, I did. I remember crying every day for 5 yrs, going to the depth of despair, praying for the courage to end it all. " But Still I Rise " Do not blame yourself for his actions, do not allow him to send you to insanity. Take help wherever you can and most of all treasure your children and show them the right path. The path of love to ourselves and others. Blessings, understanding, and much love, Skydancer x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 3, 2009 Report Share Posted September 3, 2009 Please all. I hope you understand. I don't really blame me. I am glad for some reason we are all coming together. It is nice. But I have these classes and all the gov't peeps trying to make me examine the last 10 years and they don't believe me. I had a great marriage and then on May 15, 2009, my hubby woke up as someone different. Like my husband had died in the night, and because he was an organ donor the doctors put someone elses brain in him. Now this man is trying to be my hubby. Sorry I keep hearing the hawk and he is flying by again. I believe he is a red tail. At least his breast is red from what I can see with some white in it. But these classes and the others I am meeting. They have put doubt in me. So I am looking for answers. I think I should not have to live in fear of this man who now has my husbands body. I think that someone should do something with him. How do you get the system to listen to you? Sorry. I know I shouldn't be this way, but I have to answer these people somehow when they start asking questions. I keep telling them the truth but they seem not to want that. Have any of you had this kind of experience? Especially with the system. Can anyone give me tips on what to do? They have me so confused. ________________________________ ionaskydancer <ionaskydancer Thursday, September 3, 2009 12:38:59 PM Abuse against women Hi Kundalini and Tantric Sisters, I can add my name to the spousal abuse sufferers on this site. I also blamed myself for what HE did to me, and by letting him continue doing it, I too became an abuser of myself. Please sisters, after the first cruel word, or the first cruel action - leave. You will survive, I did. I remember crying every day for 5 yrs, going to the depth of despair, praying for the courage to end it all. " But Still I Rise " Do not blame yourself for his actions, do not allow him to send you to insanity. Take help wherever you can and most of all treasure your children and show them the right path. The path of love to ourselves and others. Blessings, understanding, and much love, Skydancer x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 3, 2009 Report Share Posted September 3, 2009 I've considered leaving many times and this last year I have felt it the strongest. The K awakening sent me many messages and emotions I've never felt before. The saddest part of all was that my husband wasn't supportive or there for me, in fact it is him that labels me " crazy " Well he thought this experience had everything to do with a drug that we took during our travels to India. This is a long story, but I've always felt that it wasn't the drug that did this, I knew it was something spiritual, I know that it was Divine. Short story, I'm now on meds and I'm afraid of acting " differently " when I get off of my meds bc he's going to blame the drug again and I'll have to be back on my meds...etc. I feel like he has sent me to insanity, now I'm digging my way out. Oh and we've been in marriage counseling for almost 2yrs now...off and on. Hasn't done a bit of good! I've just really considered leaving and today I talked with a couple people about it and they are just waiting for when I say " enough is enough " I really don't know what to do, I have two small children to take care of. Sorry for rambling, hope you understand. Laura , " ionaskydancer " <ionaskydancer wrote: > > Hi Kundalini and Tantric Sisters, > > I can add my name to the spousal abuse sufferers on this site. I also blamed myself for what HE did to me, and by letting him continue doing it, I too became an abuser of myself. Please sisters, after the first cruel word, or the first cruel action - leave. > > You will survive, I did. I remember crying every day for 5 yrs, going to the depth of despair, praying for the courage to end it all. > > " But Still I Rise " > > Do not blame yourself for his actions, do not allow him to send you to insanity. Take help wherever you can and most of all treasure your children and show them the right path. The path of love to ourselves and others. > > Blessings, understanding, and much love, Skydancer x > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 3, 2009 Report Share Posted September 3, 2009 Laura: As you cast your net out into this wonderous sea(see)of truth, may you have comfort in knowing that there are plenty standing along side you to help you reel it in, so that you may sort through the catch and discern what is your subsistence and what is to be let go. Peace to you-red-caped one: -Danielle , " lo1o113 " <lo1o113 wrote: > > I've considered leaving many times and this last year I have felt it the strongest. The K awakening sent me many messages and emotions I've never felt before. The saddest part of all was that my husband wasn't supportive or there for me, in fact it is him that labels me " crazy " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 3, 2009 Report Share Posted September 3, 2009 I have heard of people's whole personality being change from something going wrong in their brain. After my husband's accident last year, the hospital ran many test thinking it had something to do with his brian. With all their test they did not find anything except a little spot where he had a cyst in his brain at sometime or other. Since this happening my hubby's personality has changed for the better. At the time the accident happened, I was doing a healing meditation. I recieved the phone call just as I was finishing. I had the sense that it was my fault that the accident occurred because of the meditation I was doing. It was just a knowing I had and I still feel it had a connection to what all took place somehow. The way I see it, when we are changed spiritually it does not only change and effect you, but all those around you. The night I was baptized with the Holy Spirit, my hubby knew subconsciously and he fought it. He tried being abusive and controlling after that, but I let him know I would not tolarate it. I let him know he could except the new me or he had the freedom to leave. He chose to stay. We still had many problems to work out and adjustment to be made which seemed to be a continueous on going process. In your case, with him changing so drastically overnight, I would think it would have more to do with a physical thing that has happened in his brain. Has he had any test ran to see if something is wrong physically? Love & blessings, Linda , goldencougarwolf <nlring80962 wrote: So I am looking for answers. I think I should not have to live in fear of this man who now has my husbands body. I think that someone should do something with him. How do you get the system to listen to you? Sorry. I know I shouldn't be this way, > but I have to answer these people somehow when they start asking questions. I keep telling them the truth but they seem not to want that. Have any of you had this kind of experience? Especially with the system. Can anyone give me tips on what to do? They have me so confused. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 3, 2009 Report Share Posted September 3, 2009 No. I keep asking them to do it but they say they can't force him. He has the right to be crazy and want to kill people if he wants. I wonder if has any kind of energy healing work we can do to get him to go voluntarily. I am really worried. This isn't like him at all. I really don't care if the marriage is over but I want him and the girls to have a relationship. They need their dad. They did what they call a global assessment which is what they do pre psych eval. He told the professional psychologist that he has a hit list, mass murder plot and still wants to kill us. I keep asking the universe to heal him and I do intentions everyday for him. Can anyone think of anything else I can do? I have to work to pay all the bills, care for the children by myself, I have all the responsibilities right now. Anything you can think of, I appreciate. I still think he has a brain tumor, but I can't seem to get the system to listen. ________________________________ danceswithcats999 <crazycats711 Thursday, September 3, 2009 4:00:17 PM Re: Abuse against women I have heard of people's whole personality being change from something going wrong in their brain. After my husband's accident last year, the hospital ran many test thinking it had something to do with his brian. With all their test they did not find anything except a little spot where he had a cyst in his brain at sometime or other. Since this happening my hubby's personality has changed for the better. At the time the accident happened, I was doing a healing meditation. I recieved the phone call just as I was finishing. I had the sense that it was my fault that the accident occurred because of the meditation I was doing. It was just a knowing I had and I still feel it had a connection to what all took place somehow. The way I see it, when we are changed spiritually it does not only change and effect you, but all those around you. The night I was baptized with the Holy Spirit, my hubby knew subconsciously and he fought it. He tried being abusive and controlling after that, but I let him know I would not tolarate it. I let him know he could except the new me or he had the freedom to leave. He chose to stay. We still had many problems to work out and adjustment to be made which seemed to be a continueous on going process. In your case, with him changing so drastically overnight, I would think it would have more to do with a physical thing that has happened in his brain. Has he had any test ran to see if something is wrong physically? Love & blessings, Linda Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , goldencougarwolf <nlring80962@ ...> wrote: So I am looking for answers. I think I should not have to live in fear of this man who now has my husbands body. I think that someone should do something with him. How do you get the system to listen to you? Sorry. I know I shouldn't be this way, > but I have to answer these people somehow when they start asking questions. I keep telling them the truth but they seem not to want that. Have any of you had this kind of experience? Especially with the system. Can anyone give me tips on what to do? They have me so confused. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 3, 2009 Report Share Posted September 3, 2009 The relationship with the children will come when he is better......Detach for your sake and your sanity. You are doing everything anyway; he is not helping you. He is a sick man. Pray for him, send him healing energy, and hope he gets the help he so desperately needs. You are in my healing circle of light...... Julie --- On Thu, 9/3/09, goldencougarwolf <nlring80962 wrote: goldencougarwolf <nlring80962 Re: Re: Abuse against women Thursday, September 3, 2009, 7:05 PM No. I keep asking them to do it but they say they can't force him. He has the right to be crazy and want to kill people if he wants. I wonder if has any kind of energy healing work we can do to get him to go voluntarily. I am really worried. This isn't like him at all. I really don't care if the marriage is over but I want him and the girls to have a relationship. They need their dad. They did what they call a global assessment which is what they do pre psych eval. He told the professional psychologist that he has a hit list, mass murder plot and still wants to kill us. I keep asking the universe to heal him and I do intentions everyday for him. Can anyone think of anything else I can do? I have to work to pay all the bills, care for the children by myself, I have all the responsibilities right now. Anything you can think of, I appreciate. I still think he has a brain tumor, but I can't seem to get the system to listen. ____________ _________ _________ __ danceswithcats999 <crazycats711@ > Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 Thursday, September 3, 2009 4:00:17 PM [Kundalini-Awakenin g-Systems- 1] Re: Abuse against women I have heard of people's whole personality being change from something going wrong in their brain. After my husband's accident last year, the hospital ran many test thinking it had something to do with his brian. With all their test they did not find anything except a little spot where he had a cyst in his brain at sometime or other. Since this happening my hubby's personality has changed for the better. At the time the accident happened, I was doing a healing meditation. I recieved the phone call just as I was finishing. I had the sense that it was my fault that the accident occurred because of the meditation I was doing. It was just a knowing I had and I still feel it had a connection to what all took place somehow. The way I see it, when we are changed spiritually it does not only change and effect you, but all those around you. The night I was baptized with the Holy Spirit, my hubby knew subconsciously and he fought it. He tried being abusive and controlling after that, but I let him know I would not tolarate it. I let him know he could except the new me or he had the freedom to leave. He chose to stay. We still had many problems to work out and adjustment to be made which seemed to be a continueous on going process. In your case, with him changing so drastically overnight, I would think it would have more to do with a physical thing that has happened in his brain. Has he had any test ran to see if something is wrong physically? Love & blessings, Linda Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , goldencougarwolf <nlring80962@ ...> wrote: So I am looking for answers. I think I should not have to live in fear of this man who now has my husbands body. I think that someone should do something with him. How do you get the system to listen to you? Sorry. I know I shouldn't be this way, > but I have to answer these people somehow when they start asking questions. I keep telling them the truth but they seem not to want that. Have any of you had this kind of experience? Especially with the system. Can anyone give me tips on what to do? They have me so confused. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 3, 2009 Report Share Posted September 3, 2009 Beautifully said Skydancer! Debs (: , " ionaskydancer " <ionaskydancer wrote: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 3, 2009 Report Share Posted September 3, 2009 What does the red tail hawk have to do with this situation? - Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 3, 2009 Report Share Posted September 3, 2009 I don't know. He keeps flying past my house, back and forth, landing and screaming. He is driving me nuts. Other than that Chrism, I don't know. LOL. ________________________________ <> Thursday, September 3, 2009 11:42:57 PM Re: Abuse against women What does the red tail hawk have to do with this situation? - Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 4, 2009 Report Share Posted September 4, 2009 Oh and I should add that he flies very close to my home, and above it as well. He makes big circles around it. I swore a few times I have heard him at night and hawks around here sleep at night. ________________________________ <> Thursday, September 3, 2009 11:42:57 PM Re: Abuse against women What does the red tail hawk have to do with this situation? - Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 4, 2009 Report Share Posted September 4, 2009 In the beginning I used to start performing meditation between 3 to 3-30 A.M.and finish it after 11/2 hours.An OWL of white colour used to come and sit on the gate of the building, which is hardly 2 meters from my door and listen silently, to Om and other mantras I used to recite, and waited till I finished my meditation.I came to know about this from an astrologer who used to wake up at 4 A.M.He resides in the same building. An owl is considered to be inauspicious by some but I did not bother.Our building is situated near a forest.Once a Tiger had taken shelter in the parking of our building I just laughed out.I have seen tigers roaming about freely nearby.They dont harm a spiritual person. Have no fear of birds and animals.We human beings are some times more dangerous than animal kingdom............................shrikant --- On Fri, 4/9/09, goldencougarwolf <nlring80962 wrote: goldencougarwolf <nlring80962 Re: Re: Abuse against women Friday, 4 September, 2009, 11:32 AM Oh and I should add that he flies very close to my home, and above it as well. He makes big circles around it. I swore a few times I have heard him at night and hawks around here sleep at night. ____________ _________ _________ __ <@ > Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 Thursday, September 3, 2009 11:42:57 PM [Kundalini-Awakenin g-Systems- 1] Re: Abuse against women What does the red tail hawk have to do with this situation? - Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 4, 2009 Report Share Posted September 4, 2009 Danielle, you always have the right thing to say, thank you! Laura , " iamwaitingmoon " <iamwaitingmoon wrote: > > Laura: > As you cast your net out into this wonderous sea(see)of truth, may you have comfort in knowing that there are plenty standing along side you to help you reel it in, so that you may sort through the catch and discern what is your subsistence and what is to be let go. > > Peace to you-red-caped one: > -Danielle > > > > , " lo1o113 " <lo1o113@> wrote: > > > > I've considered leaving many times and this last year I have felt it the strongest. The K awakening sent me many messages and emotions I've never felt before. The saddest part of all was that my husband wasn't supportive or there for me, in fact it is him that labels me " crazy " > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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