Curly - giving you a shout out

[Guest guest]

Hi Curly,

 

How are you feeling? - just making sure you didn't fall off the diamond! I know

the energy around the full moon is intense too so how are ya???

Wonder how your heat/sweats are doing? I know Aarni posted about the same stuff.

Maybe will talk about that when he can - there are quite a few posts

though I know...(woops) Hope you are well...give us a shout out!

Much love to you and your toes!

Debs

[Guest guest]

Hey there Deba-daba-doo, gotta work on a nick name for ya

 

I don't really know how to explain whats happening to me. Every time I think I

understand, I loose that knowing, you know that knowing that knows in the exact

right time that one's supposed to know?

The only thing I know is that I've been so confused and it's because I'm coming

face to face with my inauthenticity. It's painful on all fronts, I think mainly

because I'm entering into no-man's land, where I can't mentally grasp anything,

I've unconsciously tried to grasp something but it only ends up more painful

with more resistance.

 

I think I had my first kriya the other day after an emotional release. My spine

became extremely charged but didn't feel hot although my back was really

sweating. This thick, high charged energy went up my spine, up my neck, and

around my head in a weird pattern: like a helmet with the top chopped off, like

the energy deliberately missed my crown chakra, or maybe my crown chakra became

an empty funnel...don't know. But anyways, the energy went and filled my arms

and hands as well. They began to lock up into what I call the flailing position

that I see my 2 year old niece do all the time when she's upset (so cute, lol)

and my arms were filled with so much energy they began to go numb. Took about 15

minutes before the energy calmed down, and I was left with a " wow, I'm really

hungry, I think I'll make a sandwhich " lol. Plus I became really tired, then had

to go to class and I felt so anxious I was shaky. I can't have that intense

anxiousness again, well I can if it happens again but..., so I need to go deeper

into my process, I've got to reach down deep, I have to weed the garden until I

can see my authenticity again (I honestly don't think I've seen it since I was 4

years old...). But I can't live with this fear any longer. So I've got to figure

things out. The main thing I've learned is that most of my resistance is not

trusting the process, not trusting that God is trying to wake me up as gently as

possible, I've been so afraid that the Infinite is going to give me the worst

imaginable scenarios to learn from but the opposite is the case. This whole

time, the messengers sent to help me awaken have been gently, it's been my fear

that has made this process quite unpleasant.

 

But anyways, still holding up the east yo!

 

Haven't been able to read much lately, how's everything with ya?

 

craig

 

 

, " flowerpowers7777 "

<flowerpowers7777 wrote:

>

> Hi Curly,

>

> How are you feeling? - just making sure you didn't fall off the diamond! I

know the energy around the full moon is intense too so how are ya???

> Wonder how your heat/sweats are doing? I know Aarni posted about the same

stuff. Maybe will talk about that when he can - there are quite a few

posts though I know...(woops) Hope you are well...give us a shout out!

> Much love to you and your toes!

> Debs

>

[Guest guest]

Hi ya Curly,

 

Yeah think you are really getting electrified and body buzzed.

I felt alot of energy too maybe because of the incursion we were doing...I don't

know. I havent had that sweating though...I mean only the one time the first few

months when it started but I was fighting it then because I didn't know what was

happening. I know someone else who has this sweating...maybe will talk

about it - of course we know its the kundalini doing its thang (thing) (:

The helmet you described is what I feel - although I feel my head getting

squeezed hahaha - but I've always had this feeling theres a hole in the top of

my head too - (yes so many jokes - so little time) so in kundalini world Curly

I'm thinking you are good to go - better than good to go - going (: electrifying

(: buzzing (: all good things...Although there is this secret wish I'm sure many

here share; to see you flailing your arms about with your niece next to you - as

you both do your thangs...imagine we are all throwing a sandwich at you!

Whats your favorite sandwich Curly - 800 members - 800 sandwiches - seems that

should cover quite a bit of flailing...my brother use to put little bugs in my

sandwich when we were kids - and watch me...I always knew he was up to something

though so let them free (perhaps it was because of the ketchup I put in his

shoes?...nahhh couldn't be)

anyway...promise to only put bugs on TOP of the sandwich - only alive black

spiders - you know shakti style - we'll let them crawl all over your sandwich

and put some good earth energy in there - and when they crawl off - go ahead -

enjoy - I hear bugs crawling on you are great for grounding...(:

 

I don't know what you mean by feeling inauthentic - unless you are talking about

that feeling of balancing our selves - the us here and the us that walks about

in society where no one knows whats really going on inside and wouldn't

understand probably - so there is that feeling because you can't really share

all this - I mean you can't exactly run over to your neighbors house telling

them you have a helmet on your head and can you check the top and see if theres

a hole there? (:(: But thats okay - they wouldn't understand and we really

don't want you locked up...(: I mean those white coats look all snug and

everything - but could get kinda unpleasant I'm thinking! hahaha

 

We feel your authenticity Curly - and obviously the divine does also or

wouldn't be racing through you as beautifully as it does - and it seems you are

so far energetically speaking - Well we all think that you are doing great -

(yeah we took a vote-is my nose growing?) Well I know we all appreciate you

Curly - and all this sweating and arms flailing is all for good (really biting

my tongue on the sweating and arm flailing thing...its not easy but I really

want to put my name down at the bottom this time)

 

I still have a hard time with the emotional clearing (the bi-polar swing or

swang) (: although I am good to go with it moving through my body now - like

REALLY GOOD TO GO WITH THAT (Shhhhhhhh It feels pretty great - can this be

addicting..will I need to watch that?) (please say no...someone?...anyone?....)

 

Well I may be gone for a bit now - have lots of work to do this month - so hope

you are feeling better - I bet things settle down now a bit- although the

shaktipat is coming up (:(:

If you keep that flailing up...you be sure to put your sandwich orders in

here...ok? (mine will be the ones with crawling bugs..yeah I'm such a nice

person...hahaha) We think you're doing great...can you hear everyone

cheering...Linda (wheels) just did a cartwheel for ya, you know! (:

 

Much love to you...flailing Curly...(:

Deb