Guest guest Posted September 13, 2009 Report Share Posted September 13, 2009 After my Tibetans and breathing this morning I suddenly became over come by sadness, a deep and lasting sadness, it followed me for hours and hours, I had to take the plane and I was crying every few minutes behind my sunglasses. I'm sure Shakti must be doing something but it was a very odd moment to chose. Within the sadness was grief, loss and acceptance and love. First I grieved the loss of my dear childhood friend and grandma, Dorothy Daniels, the only true love i received as a child was from her. I felt so sad about the loss of that love today, even though its been years. Then , I feel broken and yet I have to accept that I'm not perfect and stop trying to fix myself, it leads me only to disappointment as I never get any better, in fact , I seem to get worse. My allergies are spreading, all my friends are having babies, me still nothing. And this makes me very sad inside . That's how I'm feeling right now. I just have to accept the way I am in my imperfection, surrender to the imperfection of myself. elektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2009 Report Share Posted September 13, 2009 Elektra your post sent sadness to my heart. I feel you sadness. My grand mother was my child hood friend too and the only one I felt true love from. I can understand how you feel and am feeling it along with you. I went through a time when I did not think I would ever get to be a mother and that desire to be a mother was so very strong in me at the the time. It was very hard to deal with so I feel I can identify with your pain there as well. I am going to go now and pray for you. Love you, Linda , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > After my Tibetans and breathing this morning I suddenly became over come by sadness, a deep and lasting sadness, it followed me for hours and hours, I had to take the plane and I was crying every few minutes behind my sunglasses. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2009 Report Share Posted September 13, 2009 I open my arms and heart to you dearest little star...bright and shiney divine one. -Danielle I just have to accept the way I am in my imperfection, surrender to the imperfection of myself. > elektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2009 Report Share Posted September 13, 2009 Electra... I feel for your sadness, but necessary to release and receive the many blessings and gifts of K. I see you not as imperfect, but I see you as a divine emamanation of God or whatever you refer to...I see you as whole, perfect and complete. Self-forgiveness and releasing the past--past expectations of self, society, friends and family and surrendering to my divinity is what released me from my invisible chains. Now when things come up (fear, lack, anxiety), they pass more quickly and are less intense, as when my K awakened, I new the Truth of my real Self and that of others...we are doing the best we can in every moment, every breath we take is a new begining, and we are all one...perfect, whole and complete just as we are. With many blessings and love, Lorree , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > After my Tibetans and breathing this morning I suddenly became over come by sadness, a deep and lasting sadness, it followed me for hours and hours, I had to take the plane and I was crying every few minutes behind my sunglasses. > I'm sure Shakti must be doing something but it was a very odd moment to chose. > > Within the sadness was grief, loss and acceptance and love. > First I grieved the loss of my dear childhood friend and grandma, Dorothy Daniels, the only true love i received as a child was from her. I felt so sad about the loss of that love today, even though its been years. > Then , I feel broken and yet I have to accept that I'm not perfect and stop trying to fix myself, it leads me only to disappointment as I never get any better, in fact , I seem to get worse. My allergies are spreading, all my friends are having babies, me still nothing. > And this makes me very sad inside . That's how I'm feeling right now. I just have to accept the way I am in my imperfection, surrender to the imperfection of myself. > elektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 13, 2009 Report Share Posted September 13, 2009 My Dear Kundalini Sister, When I got to your message, I read it and felt so sad for you. I shed tears for you. But as those tears flowed, a bright light came to my third eye. I saw you with a child, your own child, a very special baby. I wont say I predict you will give birth to children but remember that children can come to you in so many ways. My foster mother does not love me any the less by not being born of her womb. I also looked after two foster children whom I love as much as my own. Your time will come, and while you wait I know you will shed love to all other children who cross your path. You are such a beautiful open and loving woman and a lot of that is due to your Grandma, Dorothy Daniels. Her name runs swwetly off the tongue. You are an indivisual and do not need 'fixing'. We all as humans can do with a bit of 'tweeking' every now and again, but we are all unique and need not be fixed to fit the norm. I will send love to you in my nightly meditations this week and I wish you all the best in your travels. Blessings, Skydancer x , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > After my Tibetans and breathing this morning I suddenly became over come by sadness, a deep and lasting sadness, it followed me for hours and hours, I had to take the plane and I was crying every few minutes behind my sunglasses. > I'm sure Shakti must be doing something but it was a very odd moment to chose. > > Within the sadness was grief, loss and acceptance and love. > First I grieved the loss of my dear childhood friend and grandma, Dorothy Daniels, the only true love i received as a child was from her. I felt so sad about the loss of that love today, even though its been years. > Then , I feel broken and yet I have to accept that I'm not perfect and stop trying to fix myself, it leads me only to disappointment as I never get any better, in fact , I seem to get worse. My allergies are spreading, all my friends are having babies, me still nothing. > And this makes me very sad inside . That's how I'm feeling right now. I just have to accept the way I am in my imperfection, surrender to the imperfection of myself. > elektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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