share some stuff

[Guest guest]

There is a lot happening here.... I would like to share some of it..

.... I apologise in advance for the lenght of this as I write at lenght once I

start... often I will deleate after writing but I will send this one.

 

I had thought that any " happenings " that might occur during the Shaktipat would

relate to the chakras of the day involved, eg 1st day 1st chakra 2nd day 2nd

chakra... but of course it is best not to have expectations..lol.

 

The very first thing that happened on Sat (just before 12 mid day in Italy) was

I got a sudden " pain " in my chest, and then a " taste " radiated up into my

throat... the " pain " went but the " taste " stayed for some time. It was familiar

to me but I have no idea how as I could not describe it, even now.

 

At different times I got small electric shocks into my throat.

 

At 3am Sunday morning ( Italian 3am) I had something stuck in my throat and I

could not cought it up...later I woke gasping for breath or choking, I am not

sure which...

 

Sunday night ( around midnight Irish time) this time during meditation, there

were lots of movements in my face.. those small little snakes... mostly the

right side, and in my nose and nostrils. Sometimes the two nostrils flared open

and expanded hugely, but mostly it was the right nostril... I became aware of

the channel going from ny nose to my throat.... but at some stage I became aware

that the channel was in a new place not familiar to me at all... I had a sence

of my skull having many channels and my right nostril was the entry point. The

right channel in particular , felt large and open and clear and connected. The

interesting thing is that while I was doing the compression prayer this morning

it was my left nostril that was clear and the breath did not flow as easily

through my right nostril.... this suprised me and seems contradictory to last

nights experience so any thoughts on that would be welcome.

 

I have been saying to k when directed about things... " as you so ask " " as you so

wish "

 

I have been directed to really let go of ALL my beliefs about God.. since the

meditation has ended I am feeling unease about this...This asking is huge for

me.... I am open to all possibilities about God, but to actually completly let

go of my own " stuff " is very difficult. I have not been able to say " as you so

wish " but I have said " I am willing " .. Ny " stuff " is mixed up and quite

confused, so you would think that I could be able to accept this invitation to

just let go of it all.... I thought it was fear that waw the thing that arose

when directed to do this but now I think it is a trust thing. I want to be

able to stop thinking so much about it and just do it....

Love Julia.

[Guest guest]

Hi Julia,

 

I think its fine that you are taking your time to let go as you feel

comfortable, sometimes we need a little space and time to ponder on Shakti's

requests so we can surrender more fully. Especially things near and dear to us.

I'm sure when you are ready to jump it will be glorious and a beautiful

expansion will be waiting for you on the other side of your letting go!

Much love elektra x x x