Today

[Guest guest]

Today I am a little upset. I know I will be alright but I was very angry before.

I can get angry and express this and then forgive and forget. I believe this is

how I am. I was angry with my daughter. I feel very sad right now but I know

this is alright. I belive my daughter has sensory issues. She may have social

anxiety. She does not like to get up for school. She fights to go to dance. I

mean she wants to be a part of all of this but she has fear. Today was about

Catechism instruction and Church. I love my daughter very much. I am concerned

for her because there is family illness on both sides. I mean she was born in

the middle of a war zone. Alcoholism and depression on my side of the family and

a lot of depression, bi-polar.... on my wifes side of the family. Nicole has

been a big challenge for me and I have gotten alot better with her. I can

usually be calm and guide her. Today was not one of those days. I just want to

be able to lay my hands on her and heal her. Of course I want to heal everyone.

I ask that any of you or all of you, if you would, please send my daughter

Nicole some healing. Thank you in advance for all that you do.

 

Warren

[Guest guest]

Hi Warren,

 

I love the way you are able to be so honest about how you are feeling and

express it so well.

I think that when we are gifted with children they can help us to become better

and whole people.... it can be a challenge though as you point out.

If I make one or two p9oints here Wrren I hope you won't think I am lecturing or

speaking out of place... I only do so because I have had 6 children... who are

aged from 28 to 6 so I have a " bit " of experience..lol

What I have discovered about myself is that very often the feelings that arise

in me such as anger are not about my child or what she has or has not done,

those feelings are much more about myself.....

I expected x or y or z... I wanted x or y or z ot happen... I believed x or y or

z... but my child had other ideas ! I learned that my anger was really at myself

for not being able to love my child as they were at that moment in time... That

was a huge WOW moment for me(hope I am not speaking double dutch here)

Thing is my children have thought me that we are all unique and special and we

do not all conform or fit into the same model of being as one another....

My last daughter has what the world sees as a disability (down syndrome)... she

is now teaching me so much about diversity and acceptance and I am learning that

if anger arises in me... it is about " My adgenda " and not about my daughter....

 

Do not worry too much about what has gone on before her birth or what illness

is in your famioly history. Warren having a child who sees the world a bit

differently can afford you the opportunity to view the world in a new and

blessed way....

much love to you, Julia

 

 

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> Today I am a little upset. I know I will be alright but I was very angry

before. I can get angry and express this and then forgive and forget. I believe

this is how I am. I was angry with my daughter. I feel very sad right now but I

know this is alright. I belive my daughter has sensory issues. She may have

social anxiety.