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Hi and y'all,

Yesterday, I saw a teenager that lost a sibling to suicide. I love working with

teenagers. They are often so aware of what's going on but no one seems

interested in asking them. I feel truly honored to be someone they open up to.

There is a walk next month called Out of Darkness for survivors of a loved one

by suicide and for the prevention of suicide that I plan to volunteer for. I'm

looking for small ways I can contribute that aren't in my paying job.

 

Since scatterfield/shaktipat, I've had a sore/itchy an@l area. it comes and

goes & I am keeping clean, etc. also having a lot of lower body fluttering.

had a beautiful meditation last night. almost ceased breathing. it was so

deeply quiet and expansive. I have had lots of emotional upheaval/release going

on. Alot of it has to do with s@xuality/relationships. I'd say I'm confused

but really, my confusion is just coming to the surface as I believe I have lived

out confusion. I see my confusion reflected in my life. There is a guy who

represents my old way of relating & I have a serious s@xual attraction for which

I haven't acted on. and then there is some new male energy coming my way. Its

been a while since I've been involved with someone and feel a nudging to open to

this. I am surrendering this to Shakti to guide me here as its all new

territory.

Love and blessings to you all,

Jan

[Guest guest]

Dear and all,

I had already privately stated my declaration to to be his student. I

hereby publicly declare this as well.

 

Got back from my trip to the mountains. it was so beautiful up there. i went

with my dream group. There are eight of us, both men and women, and these are

the only people I have shared a little about the kundalini activation with and

several actually know something about it. As I was driving up, my heart felt so

full. I did a little work but felt more compelled to be a presence to the

others' work. I'm aware I have a lot of intuitive information that comes

through me but little discernment at this point of whats the most helpful info

to share so I shared very little, only when I felt a strong push. As I drove

back this morning, again my heart has felt so full, its feeling very full as I

write this. I woke up at 3 am and meditated and felt this overwhelming

appreciation for the wonderful men in my dream group. Since I've been back,

I've been having some shooting pains in my right occiput area up to my temple

area. its like shock waves.

 

Not sure if this is important to share, but.... One of the members of

the group had a dream about me a couple weeks ago she shared on retreat. dream:

several of the dream group were out having lunch and I arrived. She noticed my

right hand was missing and she but decided to overlook it. as I sat there, i

said that i thought the dream group was not very centered, that it needed to go

deeper. she said that that might be true for me but that she didn't see that

for herself. then she noticed my whole right arm was missing and I had a

sleeveless blouse on. when i stood up, I fell over because I was out of

balance. she was horrified. one of the other members lifted me up and they all

held me. then she had another dream with something else with her husband.

 

In her dream work, Her sense was that I was in the dream because of my

representation to her psyche of spirituality and independence and that she is

not in balance in her life with spirit. She also talked to me about how the

energy she felt in yoga was wonderful but very scary to her.

love and blessings to you all,

Jan

[Guest guest]

Am reading your first book and finding many thoughts and ideas I can relate

with. I love reading personal journeys so this one is right up my reading list.

Nice going - Look forward to the second book -

 

Happy for you that you are trusting and surrendering. You are so right that it

is the way to go - the only way. for some of us it takes longer yet we will get

there -

 

Blessings

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