now that was intense!

[Guest guest]

I was reflecting and absorbing on my renewed intent on getting better at feeling

after my 3rd meditation on this wonderful heart day. I laid down to offer Shakti

un-timed time. As I'm laying there reflecting on my intent, I realized that this

is a sure way to get out of Shakti's Way and to truly embrace everything that

comes into my awareness. Then I felt intense energy, the same intense energy

that I felt during my 'anxiety attack'. And I'm feeling it as fully as possible

and it gets more and more intense and my body locks up, glued, and anytime I

checked to see if it still worked I could move my arms but once I let go, they

would snap back into place. I also had to look at my hands a couple of times

because it honestly felt like my thumb and forefinger were touching when my

fingers were glued wide apart. I start feeling a little fear after a bit when it

hadn't reached a point of resolution yet, lol, and I felt that too and realized

there's nothing to be afraid of, and I wasn't tryin to convince myself not to be

afraid. I felt this intense vibrations particularly through my legs, up my back,

through my arms, up my neck, at the tip of my ears, up my head, and my solar

plexus.

 

Chrism, is this what you meant when you said that things aren't as they appear

to be? It might be possible that I didn't have an anxiety attack, but rather

felt intense energy movement, blamed it on an outer circumstance, then thought

" how much longer do I have to endure this " , and set up a massive wall of

resistance, then labeled it an anxiety attack.

 

craig