Dedication, Practice, Service to Others?

[Guest guest]

To all who may have/do experience this:

I'm feeling such a strong pull to be in solitude; to be in longer and deeper

meditation, and of complete dedication and being of service to others. It's such

a deep pulling. And although much time is being carved out of my schedule for

this, the barking dogs and beeping cars feels like an " interuption " . It's

difficult to express. It's foremost of everything. It's so beyond anything I

have before experienced, so it's difficult to find the words to ask the

questions or make the statement. The closest I can get to it in the form of

words is that of complete dedication, practice, and service. I've been joking

about my eye not working, but I what experience is so amazing...to literally

have one eye shut and one open...to sit in a meditative state like this is like

having an eyeball on the outside of my eyelid...to look in and look out at the

same time. (If it's a blockage, what an amazing teaching and learning it holds.)

It's kindof parallel to this pull...to look inward yet to be of service to

others. It's so hard to articulate...but it's of the utmost importance and of

highest priority. Perhaps it's another version or degree of " surrending " . If

anyone can find the words to articulate this better, mucho gracias!

 

Love to you.

-Danielle