So far away-

[Guest guest]

Chrism/All-

I don't feel as though I am doing 'well' today. I think my nakedness is more-so

like a shedding of my skin. I feel frustration from holding " knowings " inside,

and the details are not what is to be shared, but rather like I'm to await for

their essence and awareness to be heard by those who are awaiting this...but the

feeling, it leave me with that of not quite agitation, not quite frustration,

not quite anticipation, like holding a secret. My surrending brings tears. I

feel so far from the divine source. I feel so far....and I'm so tired. I just

want to be in a space of solitude, myself and divine. (and my car has a flat

tire this morning, so solitude is not going to happen in this way anyhow.) Last

night the statement was made to me that it was thought that you are

brain-washing me. That I'm being played. That this group is like a " cult " . And I

know that those words to me were from a lack of understanding, and based out of

fear. But this bothers me, as I cannot defend or explain any further than to

state my truth in this...that this is not my feeling/belief/understanding or

meaning to me, just as I have to wait for other forms of understanding to be

heard by the person(s)who are to receive.

Not sure if this makes sense. It's so strong...the feeling of being so far, and

a " craving " just leave my car with it's flat left tire sitting in the garage,

desert my work and home responsibilities, and to sit with myself and experience

that connection between myself and the divine.

 

Love-

Danielle

[Guest guest]

Dear Danielle,

I don't have any kundalini advice for you, but.... it seems to me that if your

heart is saying to be alone, then maybe that is what you need....You probably

won't desert your home and responsibilities to their neglect, you are filling

your own bucket, which also needs attention. If you need to do it, then do it.

Trust yourself that you won't harm others getting filled up again.

As to the " cult " , I'd ask if you entered into this by your own free will- did

you choose it, or did someone entice you, preach to you, break you down and make

you feel useless without him/her or worthless if you didn't enter into this? I

think it is important to let others know that this group is full of people who

have chosen to be here, and aren't entering from places of great weakness or

need. Rather, they feel a call, a strength inside, showing them here. I'd also

tell people to look at what chrism says, his website, and his words- three is

nothing coercive or inappropriate here, he doesn't ask for anything, (something

that so often in cults is a prerequisite. sign over all your assets to the

group) I know you know this, but instead of arguing with people, I'd simply

invite them to examine for themselves......

thank you Danielle, for all your kind words to me. I hope that in some small

way, I have returned the favor.

Shaun , " iamwaitingmoon "

<iamwaitingmoon wrote:

>

> Chrism/All-

> I don't feel as though I am doing 'well' today. I think my nakedness is

more-so like a shedding of my skin. I feel frustration from holding " knowings "

inside, and the details are not what is to be shared, but rather like I'm to

await for their essence and awareness to be heard by those who are awaiting

this...but the feeling, it leave me with that of not quite agitation, not quite

frustration, not quite anticipation, like holding a secret. My surrending brings

tears. I feel so far from the divine source. I feel so far....and I'm so tired.

I just want to be in a space of solitude, myself and divine. (and my car has a

flat tire this morning, so solitude is not going to happen in this way anyhow.)

Last night the statement was made to me that it was thought that you are

brain-washing me. That I'm being played. That this group is like a " cult " . And I

know that those words to me were from a lack of understanding, and based out of

fear. But this bothers me, as I cannot defend or explain any further than to

state my truth in this...that this is not my feeling/belief/understanding or

meaning to me, just as I have to wait for other forms of understanding to be

heard by the person(s)who are to receive.

> Not sure if this makes sense. It's so strong...the feeling of being so far,

and a " craving " just leave my car with it's flat left tire sitting in the

garage, desert my work and home responsibilities, and to sit with myself and

experience that connection between myself and the divine.

>

> Love-

> Danielle

>