Guest guest Posted September 30, 2009 Report Share Posted September 30, 2009 Hello lovely friends, I am writing to update anyone interested in some of the revelations and learning I have been gleaning recently within my kundalini classroom.For those of you who don't know, my kundalini was " aided " in it's process of awakening through the use of psychedelic drugs as well as conventional methods like those taught here. Everything was going swimmingly until I had one experience during my fourth time participating in a ritualized consecration of ayahuasca. This 4th experience completely blew my head off so to speak in a manner similar to what I believe Chrism or Gopi Krishna have described in their tales of awakening although there were many other facets of the already confusing and terrifying event as my awakening was not catalyzed strictly through means of meditation and yoga. I had been participating at the time in rituals that were also very actively working and involved with discarnate entities, channeling, and other completely unknown elements that only became a serious concern to me after I had been completely blown open and had no idea what the hell was wrong with me or how to go about fixing it. The process of having gone through a total psychotic break and finding my way back to some semblance of balance and sanity has been a very multifaceted learning platform in terms of discovering the many aspects of my being and how their harmonious or dischordant interactions create my individual perceptions of reality. I have learned first hand exactly what the psyche is and how it operates and how it takes an infinite variety of raw data and organizes it into some compact paradigm of perception, something that we hold together and call our self or reality. Through my awakening I have known eternity and that indescribable infinite unconditional love and compassion which can be spoken of but is ultimately completely other than and beyond symbolic description, and I have also known unfathomable suffering within the unreconciled remnants of raw emotion experienced without any point of reference or functional psychological filing system. The resonance of that I now file under MYSERY OF SEPERATION/ILLUSION. The eternity part could be filed under UNSPEAKABLE BLISS OF ONENESS. I think that kundalini is a process of allowing the mind to be continually refiled until every file goes in the oneness drawer. The safeties are our willing effort and assistance in the process of cleaning up our disorganized chaotic mind house and Shakti is the loving mother and teacher who comes in to guide and direct the process. Everything is brought into alignment with unity through our surrendering in each moment of our illusions of discontent. No matter what the source of our discontent may seem to be, we learn that it could not possibly be anything outside of us. If ONENESS is, then that is all that there is and we must be contained within eternity unbroken. So, every variety of seemingly endless variations on the theme of discontent and seperation in any form are oppurtunities for healing and homecoming. Illusions upon illusions of death, guilt, conflict, attack, the need to defend ourselves, limiting belief systems, believing that we have something to lose or to gain are all being corrected at their source within one mind. It is impossible that our own dedication to this path would not also accelerate this process for all that appear to be other than ourselves and indeed it is impossible to walk it without them. We are heading toward sustained awareness of that eternal love beyond perception reserved to the realm of only knowing,a knowing in which a filing system only allows us to walk in this world and that at once. and as we walk this path, all that is collectively held together within our awareness that we refer to as reality is also transformed and healed and as it is a new world is being birthed though our joining of the two that are one. I guess that could be filed in the HEAVEN ON EARTH drawer. Love, Travis Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 30, 2009 Report Share Posted September 30, 2009 Wow Travis! Thank you for the inspirational writing. Much love Mike On Wed, Sep 30, 2009 at 9:50 PM, travisnelsonmurphy < travisnelsonmurphy wrote: > > > Hello lovely friends, > > I am writing to update anyone interested in some of the revelations and > learning I have been gleaning recently within my kundalini classroom.For > those of you who don't know, my kundalini was " aided " in it's process of > awakening through the use of psychedelic drugs as well as conventional > methods like those taught here. Everything was going swimmingly until I had > one experience during my fourth time participating in a ritualized > consecration of ayahuasca. This 4th experience completely blew my head off > so to speak in a manner similar to what I believe or Gopi Krishna > have described in their tales of awakening although there were many other > facets of the already confusing and terrifying event as my awakening was not > catalyzed strictly through means of meditation and yoga. I had been > participating at the time in rituals that were also very actively working > and involved with discarnate entities, channeling, and other completely > unknown elements that only became a serious concern to me after I had been > completely blown open and had no idea what the hell was wrong with me or how > to go about fixing it. > > The process of having gone through a total psychotic break and finding my > way back to some semblance of balance and sanity has been a very > multifaceted learning platform in terms of discovering the many aspects of > my being and how their harmonious or dischordant interactions create my > individual perceptions of reality. I have learned first hand exactly what > the psyche is and how it operates and how it takes an infinite variety of > raw data and organizes it into some compact paradigm of perception, > something that we hold together and call our self or reality. Through my > awakening I have known eternity and that indescribable infinite > unconditional love and compassion which can be spoken of but is ultimately > completely other than and beyond symbolic description, and I have also known > unfathomable suffering within the unreconciled remnants of raw emotion > experienced without any point of reference or functional psychological > filing system. The resonance of that I now file under MYSERY OF > SEPERATION/ILLUSION. The eternity part could be filed under UNSPEAKABLE > BLISS OF ONENESS. > > I think that kundalini is a process of allowing the mind to be continually > refiled until every file goes in the oneness drawer. The safeties are our > willing effort and assistance in the process of cleaning up our disorganized > chaotic mind house and Shakti is the loving mother and teacher who comes in > to guide and direct the process. Everything is brought into alignment with > unity through our surrendering in each moment of our illusions of > discontent. No matter what the source of our discontent may seem to be, we > learn that it could not possibly be anything outside of us. If ONENESS is, > then that is all that there is and we must be contained within eternity > unbroken. So, every variety of seemingly endless variations on the theme of > discontent and seperation in any form are oppurtunities for healing and > homecoming. Illusions upon illusions of death, guilt, conflict, attack, the > need to defend ourselves, limiting belief systems, believing that we have > something to lose or to gain are all being corrected at their source within > one mind. It is impossible that our own dedication to this path would not > also accelerate this process for all that appear to be other than ourselves > and indeed it is impossible to walk it without them. We are heading toward > sustained awareness of that eternal love beyond perception reserved to the > realm of only knowing,a knowing in which a filing system only allows us to > walk in this world and that at once. and as we walk this path, all that is > collectively held together within our awareness that we refer to as reality > is also transformed and healed and as it is a new world is being birthed > though our joining of the two that are one. I guess that could be filed in > the HEAVEN ON EARTH drawer. > Love, > Travis > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 1, 2009 Report Share Posted October 1, 2009 Thanks Travis, I had a psychotic break too and it's amazing how just eating well, juicing and getting back into my physical practice has diminished these demons. For me the greatest value is that I now know I am the observer of these things, they are not me, they are the unhealed parts of me living in separation, and you're right they're raw! They affect my reactions to the outside world and keep me from seeing reality as it truly is. I know not to take my separation beliefs as true, I can question them all now and hopefully with time will learn to welcome them into me with love. My mindhouse is still chaotic - wow the things my attention gets drawn to! - but I'm starting to tune it out as my natural self comes in like a soft wave - and learning that the light that comes (not 'against' the outside world but 'for what my stuff needs') each time relaxes and soothes and integrates a little more. Thanks for posting that, Amanda , " travisnelsonmurphy " <travisnelsonmurphy wrote: > > Hello lovely friends, > > I am writing to update anyone interested in some of the revelations and learning I have been gleaning recently within my kundalini classroom.For those of you who don't know, my kundalini was " aided " in it's process of awakening through the use of psychedelic drugs as well as conventional methods like those taught here. Everything was going swimmingly until I had one experience during my fourth time participating in a ritualized consecration of ayahuasca. This 4th experience completely blew my head off so to speak in a manner similar to what I believe or Gopi Krishna have described in their tales of awakening although there were many other facets of the already confusing and terrifying event as my awakening was not catalyzed strictly through means of meditation and yoga. I had been participating at the time in rituals that were also very actively working and involved with discarnate entities, channeling, and other completely unknown elements that only became a serious concern to me after I had been completely blown open and had no idea what the hell was wrong with me or how to go about fixing it. > > The process of having gone through a total psychotic break and finding my way back to some semblance of balance and sanity has been a very multifaceted learning platform in terms of discovering the many aspects of my being and how their harmonious or dischordant interactions create my individual perceptions of reality. I have learned first hand exactly what the psyche is and how it operates and how it takes an infinite variety of raw data and organizes it into some compact paradigm of perception, something that we hold together and call our self or reality. Through my awakening I have known eternity and that indescribable infinite unconditional love and compassion which can be spoken of but is ultimately completely other than and beyond symbolic description, and I have also known unfathomable suffering within the unreconciled remnants of raw emotion experienced without any point of reference or functional psychological filing system. The resonance of that I now file under MYSERY OF SEPERATION/ILLUSION. The eternity part could be filed under UNSPEAKABLE BLISS OF ONENESS. > > I think that kundalini is a process of allowing the mind to be continually refiled until every file goes in the oneness drawer. The safeties are our willing effort and assistance in the process of cleaning up our disorganized chaotic mind house and Shakti is the loving mother and teacher who comes in to guide and direct the process. Everything is brought into alignment with unity through our surrendering in each moment of our illusions of discontent. No matter what the source of our discontent may seem to be, we learn that it could not possibly be anything outside of us. If ONENESS is, then that is all that there is and we must be contained within eternity unbroken. So, every variety of seemingly endless variations on the theme of discontent and seperation in any form are oppurtunities for healing and homecoming. Illusions upon illusions of death, guilt, conflict, attack, the need to defend ourselves, limiting belief systems, believing that we have something to lose or to gain are all being corrected at their source within one mind. It is impossible that our own dedication to this path would not also accelerate this process for all that appear to be other than ourselves and indeed it is impossible to walk it without them. We are heading toward sustained awareness of that eternal love beyond perception reserved to the realm of only knowing,a knowing in which a filing system only allows us to walk in this world and that at once. and as we walk this path, all that is collectively held together within our awareness that we refer to as reality is also transformed and healed and as it is a new world is being birthed though our joining of the two that are one. I guess that could be filed in the HEAVEN ON EARTH drawer. > Love, > Travis > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 1, 2009 Report Share Posted October 1, 2009 Transforming. It's beyond my ability to express to you in words the impact of your writing/sharing. Thank you, Travis. -Danielle , " travisnelsonmurphy " <travisnelsonmurphy wrote: > > Hello lovely friends, > > I am writing to update anyone interested in some of the revelations and learning I have been gleaning recently within my kundalini classroom... > Love, > Travis > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 1, 2009 Report Share Posted October 1, 2009 Hi Travis, Thank you for sharing! This was a wonderful read. Mostly I soaked up such wonderful energy reading it and the other posts (I get digest version now and it's jampacked with all the energy in one burst). It's been a blissful day, though busy, still blissful and reading your post and others have always been appreciated!! Keep on sharing those epiphanies and learnings. Love it! Bliss, Maggie , " travisnelsonmurphy " <travisnelsonmurphy wrote: > > Hello lovely friends, > > I am writing to update anyone interested in some of the revelations and learning I have been gleaning recently within my kundalini classroom.For those of you who don't know, my kundalini was " aided " in it's process of awakening through the use of psychedelic drugs as well as conventional methods like those taught here. Everything was going swimmingly until I had one experience during my fourth time participating in a ritualized consecration of ayahuasca. This 4th experience completely blew my head off so to speak in a manner similar to what I believe or Gopi Krishna have described in their tales of awakening although there were many other facets of the already confusing and terrifying event as my awakening was not catalyzed strictly through means of meditation and yoga. I had been participating at the time in rituals that were also very actively working and involved with discarnate entities, channeling, and other completely unknown elements that only became a serious concern to me after I had been completely blown open and had no idea what the hell was wrong with me or how to go about fixing it. > > The process of having gone through a total psychotic break and finding my way back to some semblance of balance and sanity has been a very multifaceted learning platform in terms of discovering the many aspects of my being and how their harmonious or dischordant interactions create my individual perceptions of reality. I have learned first hand exactly what the psyche is and how it operates and how it takes an infinite variety of raw data and organizes it into some compact paradigm of perception, something that we hold together and call our self or reality. Through my awakening I have known eternity and that indescribable infinite unconditional love and compassion which can be spoken of but is ultimately completely other than and beyond symbolic description, and I have also known unfathomable suffering within the unreconciled remnants of raw emotion experienced without any point of reference or functional psychological filing system. The resonance of that I now file under MYSERY OF SEPERATION/ILLUSION. The eternity part could be filed under UNSPEAKABLE BLISS OF ONENESS. > > I think that kundalini is a process of allowing the mind to be continually refiled until every file goes in the oneness drawer. The safeties are our willing effort and assistance in the process of cleaning up our disorganized chaotic mind house and Shakti is the loving mother and teacher who comes in to guide and direct the process. Everything is brought into alignment with unity through our surrendering in each moment of our illusions of discontent. No matter what the source of our discontent may seem to be, we learn that it could not possibly be anything outside of us. If ONENESS is, then that is all that there is and we must be contained within eternity unbroken. So, every variety of seemingly endless variations on the theme of discontent and seperation in any form are oppurtunities for healing and homecoming. Illusions upon illusions of death, guilt, conflict, attack, the need to defend ourselves, limiting belief systems, believing that we have something to lose or to gain are all being corrected at their source within one mind. It is impossible that our own dedication to this path would not also accelerate this process for all that appear to be other than ourselves and indeed it is impossible to walk it without them. We are heading toward sustained awareness of that eternal love beyond perception reserved to the realm of only knowing,a knowing in which a filing system only allows us to walk in this world and that at once. and as we walk this path, all that is collectively held together within our awareness that we refer to as reality is also transformed and healed and as it is a new world is being birthed though our joining of the two that are one. I guess that could be filed in the HEAVEN ON EARTH drawer. > Love, > Travis > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 1, 2009 Report Share Posted October 1, 2009 Excellent post Travis! I like your filing system! - blessings and brilliance dear friend. - chrism Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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