Guest guest Posted October 4, 2009 Report Share Posted October 4, 2009 This is just where I am and I have thought about not writing this but think its important to just put it out there so it can be transformed. I'm having trouble with the compression breathe and prayers due to certain terminology. I am doing them but am struggling with the words. God, Christ, etc. have baggage for me it seems to me as its not complete in my mind as to a balance between the sacred masculine & feminine. I know this reflects the lack of balance in me and my own inner struggle. I know they are only words and yet they have some meaning that I react to. I feel an inner tightness when i use these words so am trying out others... Amma, Divine Spirit, etc. Any thoughts here would be helpful. Its only since this Shaktipat that I've been aware of this. Love and blessings, Jan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2009 Report Share Posted October 4, 2009 Hi Jan, I also have baggage using God/Christ/etc in my practice. I sometimes use " For the love of the absolute " , or " SA TA NA MA " Here is the definition: SA TA NA MA is the *Panj Shabad* expressing the five primal sounds of the universe. " S " is Infinity, " T " is life, " N " means death and " M " is rebirth. (The 5th sound is " A " .) This is one of the most frequently used mantras in Kundalini Yoga. Much love, Mike On Sun, Oct 4, 2009 at 1:15 PM, yogijan <drjandean wrote: > > > This is just where I am and I have thought about not writing this but think > its important to just put it out there so it can be transformed. I'm having > trouble with the compression breathe and prayers due to certain terminology. > I am doing them but am struggling with the words. God, Christ, etc. have > baggage for me it seems to me as its not complete in my mind as to a balance > between the sacred masculine & feminine. I know this reflects the lack of > balance in me and my own inner struggle. I know they are only words and yet > they have some meaning that I react to. I feel an inner tightness when i use > these words so am trying out others... Amma, Divine Spirit, etc. Any > thoughts here would be helpful. Its only since this Shaktipat that I've been > aware of this. > Love and blessings, > Jan > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2009 Report Share Posted October 4, 2009 " Divine " " Shakti " or find something that is comfortable for you. These two words can be worked into the compression prayer easily. Even the word " Kundalini " can be used in this way. - blessings Jan. - chrism Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 5, 2009 Report Share Posted October 5, 2009 I've had the same problem and a couple of weeks ago I realised that God is married! and that if Jesus had so many miraculous capabilities then he would naturally have understood that marriage of the feminine and masculine too. so looking beyond the myth and the societal distortions we've absorbed to what must lie beneath changed my mind. Helped by too, actually - I had a bit of a problem with him too along the same lines because I really want to feel safe by seeing male and female in balance at the moment - but I realised that that marriage comes inside no matter what the external gender or situation may be. so that was 2 weeks ago. Yesterday we had the harvest festival in our church (I'm on the church committee but must say I've been really snotty about the religious side of it, it was more of a community service decision and also I love the building). It was such a lovely service that spoke really deeply of nature and the connection to nature, with the 'lilies of the field' quote from Matthew - our vicar talked about monks who can hear what trees say and about how spiritual truths are actually really obvious but we make them complicated.. and I realised that it's genuinely OK, that at source all religions have one truth and it's about getting simple enough to hear them. Unexpectedly, I'm kind of OK with Christ and the church now for the first time in my life! (it was only yesterday so I think it'll take a while to settle down ) I don't know if that helps at all - but in any case I wanted to let you know that I deeply understand where you're coming from because I went through exactly the same processing. It's not a lack of balance in you, it's a lack of balance in the portrayal of the masculine and feminine in our society, a fear-created shadow, and I know for me I was struggling because I was right to sense that as uncomfortable. With love, Amanda , " yogijan " <drjandean wrote: > > This is just where I am and I have thought about not writing this but think its important to just put it out there so it can be transformed. I'm having trouble with the compression breathe and prayers due to certain terminology. I am doing them but am struggling with the words. God, Christ, etc. have baggage for me it seems to me as its not complete in my mind as to a balance between the sacred masculine & feminine. I know this reflects the lack of balance in me and my own inner struggle. I know they are only words and yet they have some meaning that I react to. I feel an inner tightness when i use these words so am trying out others... Amma, Divine Spirit, etc. Any thoughts here would be helpful. Its only since this Shaktipat that I've been aware of this. > Love and blessings, > Jan > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 5, 2009 Report Share Posted October 5, 2009 Thanks Mike, Amanda, for your thoughts on this. I do know this is a process as I used to feel the same way about Jesus but that dissolved by acknowledging it and understanding the roots of my ill feelings. Amanda, sounds like you have a great church. love and blessings. jan , " amandatflood " <amandatflood wrote: > > I've had the same problem and a couple of weeks ago I realised that God is married! and that if Jesus had so many miraculous capabilities then he would naturally have understood that marriage of the feminine and masculine too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 5, 2009 Report Share Posted October 5, 2009 Jan, Like Ukemike, I use Sat Nam, which I was taught means " True Identity. " It puts me back in touch with the larger Me which encompasses everything and which is far greater than this small fraction of an energy packet, embodied and acting on a tiny stage or movie-set in Universal Studios. It renews my energy, smoothes it out, and puts me back in alignment, puts things back in perspective. It seems for you, Jan, that your focus and healing right now is on balancing the male and female energies. Sometimes I think of purple or lavender light, which comes from blending blue and red. Maybe you could find a word which represents that blending for you, and use that as your mantra. Hope this helps. Peace, Shaz Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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