Guest guest Posted October 5, 2009 Report Share Posted October 5, 2009 Chrism, I'd like to check something in with you - not because I want to know what it means but because I want to ask if it's OK and in line with my process. Last night I got visited by something Other. I can't describe it at all, it was something outside all my other experience, it was kind of outside anything I could possibly ever experience or understand and, er.. that's it because I can't describe it! In every respect I feel pretty good, certainly compared to how I have been though there is considerable room for improvement, lol - still cycling through various fears etc but I can feel my feet all the time, I can feel my back and the clothes against my back all the time, my sacrum feels lovely! (been having some big soaking sweats). There's also a sense of something indescribably gentle and intimate beginning to wash through me, and that feeling is becoming more present. I'm ok with the occasional voices and visitations which are pretty neutral and like meeting people who just say the occasional thing to me, I'm practising forgiveness and I'm getting better at it. Still panicky fears but I figure it's my fear of revealing my true self so I'm being as gentle as possible. But I still feel I'm on a wing and a prayer right now, unsure if I'm heading in the right direction, and especially after having gone crazy I'm a bit worried by the introduction of yet another new thing into the mix! I think it might be linked to a dream I had of a mummy crocodile watching her babies hatch, I was in the nursery hatchlings set. Is Other OK? It felt OK. But so have lots of things ) Amanda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 6, 2009 Report Share Posted October 6, 2009 OTHER is ok as long as you make no contracts or agreements. So far so good Amanda! - , " amandatflood " <amandatflood wrote: > > Chrism, I'd like to check something in with you - not because I want to know what it means but because I want to ask if it's OK and in line with my process. > > Last night I got visited by something Other. I can't describe it at all, it was something outside all my other experience, it was kind of outside anything I could possibly ever experience or understand and, er.. that's it because I can't describe it! > > In every respect I feel pretty good, certainly compared to how I have been though there is considerable room for improvement, lol - still cycling through various fears etc but I can feel my feet all the time, I can feel my back and the clothes against my back all the time, my sacrum feels lovely! (been having some big soaking sweats). There's also a sense of something indescribably gentle and intimate beginning to wash through me, and that feeling is becoming more present. I'm ok with the occasional voices and visitations which are pretty neutral and like meeting people who just say the occasional thing to me, I'm practising forgiveness and I'm getting better at it. > > Still panicky fears but I figure it's my fear of revealing my true self so I'm being as gentle as possible. > > But I still feel I'm on a wing and a prayer right now, unsure if I'm heading in the right direction, and especially after having gone crazy I'm a bit worried by the introduction of yet another new thing into the mix! > > I think it might be linked to a dream I had of a mummy crocodile watching her babies hatch, I was in the nursery hatchlings set. > > Is Other OK? > > It felt OK. But so have lots of things ) > > Amanda > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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