letting myself be loved

[Guest guest]

Hi guys,

 

first off excuse me because I'm still very much in the Love 101 class )

 

just wanted to share what I'm realising which is that there are two strands of

work in me at the moment - one is learning to let go and be love, and the other

is learning to let go and allow myself to be loved, and they have to go

together.

 

I admit I've always thought I wss better at 'loving' than 'being loved' but

actually that hasn't been true at all - there's been a false peace that's come

from coping with what I've subconsciously created, but it's ego-related and dare

I say it terribly co-dependent .

 

Letting myself really be loved - wow, another ballpark!

 

the other thing I'm learning is that love is big and round and peaceful and

extends all the way out, and that my reactions to things (like crystals, say)

have actually been adrenal resistances coming up - sensing them as 'exciting' -

so I never really got to sense the big round peacefulness and gentleness that I

was truly reacting to.

 

so I think I might get what chrism says when he says the kundalini hits the

adrenals - it's that the kundalini comes in peace and all my prickly defences go

up because at some deep level I don't believe I'm lovable. I say I do, but

actually I just don't! it's those resistances that activate my adrenals, not the

kundalini.

 

what I want to know is why? and how fastest to cut in and pull out those prickly

fields of thorns so I can heal myself? because I LOVE it when I get there!

 

Useful tip I've discovered is that pressing hard on the adrenal gland points on

the inside top of my big toes (gosh it hurts) really pulls it all together

again. No watermelon in the shops here any more )

 

Amanda

[Guest guest]

Amanda, you are so on my wave length right now.

I too have been having this awareness of needing to be open to receive love,

also thinking i was not good at allowing myself to receive. I am inspired by

your break through as it helps me with my own :-))

Love elektra x x x

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

I second that!

Love,

Linda

 

, Elektra Fire

<elektra.fire wrote:

>

> Amanda, you are so on my wave length right now.

> I too have been having this awareness of needing to be open to receive love,

also thinking i was not good at allowing myself to receive. I am inspired by

your break through as it helps me with my own :-))

> Love elektra x x x

[Guest guest]

That is so true. I can see that, too.

 

Hehe! Next time I am feeling way too emotional and depressed, I am going to

check my big toe and see if there is pain.

 

I bought a watermelon the other day even thought I could not get a good feel for

any of them. I bought one anyways for $7 and it was mostly mush! I gave most of

it to the birds to eat. I am glad I bought a cantaloupe that day, too. It was

yummy! May not of help the adrenals any, though. My taste buds enjoyed it.

 

I will have to wait until they get some of those little foreign made one's from

South America in the stores. They are really good, but a little on the expensive

side. The rind is very thin, though, so you really get more melon than what it

looks like on the outside.

 

Love & blessings,

Linda

 

, " amandatflood "

<amandatflood wrote:

 

> so I think I might get what chrism says when he says the kundalini hits the

adrenals - it's that the kundalini comes in peace and all my prickly defences go

up because at some deep level I don't believe I'm lovable. I say I do, but

actually I just don't! it's those resistances that activate my adrenals, not the

kundalini.