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[Guest guest]

Hi everyone,

 

hope everyone is doing well.. and great to see so many new names on the list.

And thanks for the positive feedback for my writing.. its much appreciated and

blessings on your journeys..

 

I havent been writing much or reading many posts. I tried out my new surfboard

today, and it was great to finally be surfing in reality and not in the dreams,

yet funny it was like a dream. The waves were about 4-5 foot, so loads of fun..

 

I have been spending most of my time going to church. I travelled all arouund

the world to seek enlightenment and have come home to find a whole bunch of

seemingly enlightened and amazing folks in my home town. I cant always tell if

its Spirit or the coffee (which is durbans drug of choice now.. haha). The

church is rated by many visiting people and preachers as 'the most free in the

world', so its just wonderful to be part of what (IMHO) is a very healthy

christianity grounded in a living enmediated relationship to Spirit.

 

I have stopped looking for a job as my heart just isnt in it, and am living a

life of trust and not knowing, yet it seems ok. I am being tested on dropping

fear and staying in the authentic self, and that seems to be my learning..

The animals and birds have been giving me signs, and I have a rather advanced K.

friend who slips in the occasional word if needed...

 

And having a load of fun Mostly I feel radiant and this week blissfull. The K

is increasing and if I shift into fear or contraction its very painful and

intense so gets dropped fast. I am getting burnt again by the sun in the dream

states and some deeper fear is being healed, yet mostly I am in a great space...

 

Surrender really is the way. wrestle with God in prayer for what you want, and

then realize either way it doesnt matter and leave the outcoes in Gods hands..

haha.. they really are the safest hands there are.. lol..

 

kind of sleepy now...

love and freedom

Bruce

[Guest guest]

Sounds heavenly Bruce, lovely to hear that the Sacred energy surrounds you and

you are connecting to the Ocean again, I need that so much and would love to

teleport myself in your direction, with bikini and sun hat in tow.

 

Have fun and enjoy life, much love elektra x x x

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Haha.. always room for bikini girls in Durban ..

 

, Elektra Fire

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> Sounds heavenly Bruce, lovely to hear that the Sacred energy surrounds you and

you are connecting to the Ocean again, I need that so much and would love to

teleport myself in your direction, with bikini and sun hat in tow.

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> Have fun and enjoy life, much love elektra x x x

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[Guest guest]

hi all,

Its been dreary and rainy here the last few days. Yesterday I felt in a real

funk. I decided, nonetheless, to go to my salsa lesson. I'm convinced it is

impossible to stay down & dance especially latin dance. Had a lot of fun and

got some stagnant energy moving. I felt rather intoxicated, far better than in

my drinking days. Who needs alcohol when you have Shakti! I woke up this am &

did my practices and I feel a lot of fullness in my heart. And reading Danielle

and E's messages about complete surrender moved me, I really felt it in my heart

as I read their posts. Have had a lot of fluttering going on inside. Last

night I felt a lot of soreness in my mouth and had some mouth sores but this am

its better.

 

I was struck by something that said on our phone call a few days ago. As

I work with lots of people as a psychotherapist, he said that when people come

to see me I won't have to really say anything. When I was at my hospital job

today, i really thought about that & just went to see people and just be with

them. I have really been calling on Shakti to guide me in my work and life. And

about this surrender thing. I am one of those people referred to on the

conference that has control issues, better but still in process. I am

surrendering as best I can at this point. Part of it is surrendering my heart.

I have been doing the heart chakra breathing per Chrism's direction and feel

stuff stirring there. This is the seat of my surrender at this time.

Love and blessings,

Jan

[Guest guest]

Hi everyone,

I, too, have had trouble downloading & listening to the new music.

 

I have been doing the chakra breathing on my heart for about five days now.

Feels as though I'm breathing through a thick wall but am trusting on some level

that its moving things. There is a mild ache there these days. As I was in

meditation last night, an image of a patient I saw earlier that day came to me.

He and his partner of 25+ years got married in the hospital recently. He has

been an ornery guy when I first met him almost a year ago. I'm known around the

hospital for getting along with ornery men. He is from a holocaust background,

both parents killed. Underneath his stiff veneer was this beautiful soul. I

feel a deep love for him. In my meditation I started crying. Not sure why but

I think on some level I can relate to this man. I drew claws to protect myself

after a certain point in my childhood life so that people couldn't see how soft

my underbelly was. I really want others to see my soft underbelly now and to

let go of the wall. I had several males early in my life that I connected to on

a deep heart level, a friend of my brothers that died of leukemia when I was a

teenager, a black janitor at my church that left after inflammatory graffiti,

and a child friend who we moved away from. I give all this to you Shakti. let

the tears come, the heart open, my underbelly to show to the world. I marvel at

my two cats that lay belly up with all the trust in the world. I want to show

my underbelly to the divine.

Love and blessings to you all,

the sun is shining (after days of hard rain) so plan to go frolick in woods.

Jan