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Hi everyone, I thought I would write a little update about what has been

happening on my Path.

 

First off all I quit doing breath of fire because it started to always

make my nose run. I took up kriya pranayama instead.

So my new practice is something like this:

 

Chanting

Kriya pranayama

Tibetans

Alternate nostril breathing

Compression breathing

Spinal breathing (sometimes)

Kundalini meditation

Yoga

Yoga meditation

 

I still am trying to get myself to do the first part of the practice in

the morning. Just cant seem to get up at 5 and do anything. So from Monday -

Friday I do the whole practice after work. On Saturday and Sunday I split

it into two parts.

 

If you can remember, I posted some stuff a little while back about

laziness and being lazy to practice. Well I realized (DUHH!! :) ) that

laziness

is karma. Doing the yoga really stills the mind and burns the karma off.

Maybe a year ago I could talk about this aspect of yoga and kinda see it a

little, but now with a constant practice of yoga i KNOW it. Yoga will

totally burn off the fluctuations of the mind, and you wont have to battle

with your karma on and on.

This brings me to another point, this is also from my experiences. When I

was just doing the kundalini practice, the energy would be always very

chaotic and when i would be under pressure or in a unwelcome situation (@

work, etc) the energy would rise and really build up all over the body. I

would be basically kind of like " glowing " . While I would start to " glow " , my

mental state would completely engulf me, with all of my worst karmic

impressions hitting me right in my face, all " screaming " at the same time.

If you have a strong mindfulness and you can catch the start of this energy

buildup you can maybe cut its grip but if you miss that first couple of

seconds the surrendering would do little good and I would be going

ballistic. :)

(This is from my own experiences by the way. I am not saying surrendering is

bad, it is not. It is very much an important part.). So after I started to

do the yoga practice 99% with the kundalini practice something changed. I

wake up in the morning and go to work and I am very calm and dont feel

the kundalini energy at all. When i get into unfriendly situations the

atomic energy buildup (a.k.a glowing! :) ) is not there anymore. For a

little while I though that somehow my yoga suppressed the kundalini. But

when i start to do the K practice thats when the energy rises up again to

the same level and calms down when I am done.

I have been thinking about this and it seems that the chaotic energy that

would be going crazy in me (physically + mentally), when I was doing just

the K and not the yoga, was actually made chaotic by my karma. So karma is

what actually causes all the blockades in the physical and mental body. Once

I brought the yoga into the practice a lot of the karma is being burned off

and kundalini is not set into a crazy rollercoaster ride. Also, I would like

to mention that during my yoga practice (ashtanga) I mainly strive for

keeping full concentration on the breath and not worry about whether I can

bend more or less.

As a piece of advise for new people coming into Kundalini without any sort

of spiritual discipline: start doing Yoga. If, as in my case, you have a lot

of karma buildup, and your energy rises so much that surrendering and

forgiving just doesnt work a lot of the times, and you start the vicious

circle of hateful thoughts, yoga will destroy that karma and you will not

get to the point of such mental tension. Maybe for some they learned how to

just let

go and forgive and the buildup never happens, but this didnt really work for

me.

 

If you are still reading this, I appreciate it :).

Everything is good in my end.

Some new development with my parents. I guess my mom says that my dad

almost hit her the other day and she had to lock herself in the bedroom from

him and that she is going to get a divorce this week, etc etc. I told her

she could move in with me if she wants. Me and my brother are going to go to

my parents house this weekend, and my mom said that my dad said he is going

to tell us goodbye. Not sure what that means, or in what state my dad said

this to my mom. I really wish he would just move back to our old country,

because he never adapted here and I know he would be better there. But he is

stuck in a hole that he himself keeps digging deeper and deeper. He feels

like he needs to stay here to help us (me and my brother) even thought we

are 36 and 26 and can stand on our own, yet he has this huge guilt because

my brother was diagnosed with diabetes a couple of years ago and I did not

grow up to be who he wanted me to be. He blames my mom for us coming over

here ( to U.S.) and has been blaming her for something like 16 years. I

really feel sorry for her, because I know my dad can bring the same thing up

over and over and over.

 

I dealt with this development surprising well and calm and even though some

negative thoughts did cross my mind a couple of times about this during my

practice today they were overwhelmed by my ARMY OF CONCENTRATION.! :)

Lesson I learned from this, do not think your kids

will grow up how you want them to grow up, just love them for the actual

growing up. Do not take life seriously, because anything can happen,

but whatever happens, good or bad, it is only the Brahman (you) playing a

game with himself (also you).

 

Much love and thank you for reading.

Mike

 

 

 

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Wishing you and your family well Mike,

Hope your Dad finds his peace , and your Mom.

As you yourself find balance, this will ripple outward and affect all your

family members.

Lots of love

elektra x x x

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Hi Mike,

 

well, thanks for the big post... :) and yep, practice is so important. For me,

practice represents a willingness to engage in life beyond my habitual

compulsions.

 

I have been doing stretching/yoga/meditation every morning again for the last

while :) the daily practice of surrender through sitting is fundamental life

practice ..

 

love

Bruce

 

, JiNN <jinnproduction

wrote:

>

> Hi everyone, I thought I would write a little update about what has been

> happening on my Path.

>

> First off all I quit doing breath of fire because it started to always

> make my nose run. I took up kriya pranayama instead.

> So my new practice is something like this:

>

> Chanting

> Kriya pranayama

> Tibetans

> Alternate nostril breathing

> Compression breathing

> Spinal breathing (sometimes)

> Kundalini meditation

> Yoga

> Yoga meditation

>

> I still am trying to get myself to do the first part of the practice in

> the morning. Just cant seem to get up at 5 and do anything. So from Monday -

> Friday I do the whole practice after work. On Saturday and Sunday I split

> it into two parts.

>

> If you can remember, I posted some stuff a little while back about

> laziness and being lazy to practice. Well I realized (DUHH!! :) ) that

> laziness

> is karma. Doing the yoga really stills the mind and burns the karma off.

> Maybe a year ago I could talk about this aspect of yoga and kinda see it a

> little, but now with a constant practice of yoga i KNOW it. Yoga will

> totally burn off the fluctuations of the mind, and you wont have to battle

> with your karma on and on.

> This brings me to another point, this is also from my experiences. When I

> was just doing the kundalini practice, the energy would be always very

> chaotic and when i would be under pressure or in a unwelcome situation (@

> work, etc) the energy would rise and really build up all over the body. I

> would be basically kind of like " glowing " . While I would start to " glow " , my

> mental state would completely engulf me, with all of my worst karmic

> impressions hitting me right in my face, all " screaming " at the same time.

> If you have a strong mindfulness and you can catch the start of this energy

> buildup you can maybe cut its grip but if you miss that first couple of

> seconds the surrendering would do little good and I would be going

> ballistic. :)

> (This is from my own experiences by the way. I am not saying surrendering is

> bad, it is not. It is very much an important part.). So after I started to

> do the yoga practice 99% with the kundalini practice something changed. I

> wake up in the morning and go to work and I am very calm and dont feel

> the kundalini energy at all. When i get into unfriendly situations the

> atomic energy buildup (a.k.a glowing! :) ) is not there anymore. For a

> little while I though that somehow my yoga suppressed the kundalini. But

> when i start to do the K practice thats when the energy rises up again to

> the same level and calms down when I am done.

> I have been thinking about this and it seems that the chaotic energy that

> would be going crazy in me (physically + mentally), when I was doing just

> the K and not the yoga, was actually made chaotic by my karma. So karma is

> what actually causes all the blockades in the physical and mental body. Once

> I brought the yoga into the practice a lot of the karma is being burned off

> and kundalini is not set into a crazy rollercoaster ride. Also, I would like

> to mention that during my yoga practice (ashtanga) I mainly strive for

> keeping full concentration on the breath and not worry about whether I can

> bend more or less.

> As a piece of advise for new people coming into Kundalini without any sort

> of spiritual discipline: start doing Yoga. If, as in my case, you have a lot

> of karma buildup, and your energy rises so much that surrendering and

> forgiving just doesnt work a lot of the times, and you start the vicious

> circle of hateful thoughts, yoga will destroy that karma and you will not

> get to the point of such mental tension. Maybe for some they learned how to

> just let

> go and forgive and the buildup never happens, but this didnt really work for

> me.

>

> If you are still reading this, I appreciate it :).

> Everything is good in my end.

> Some new development with my parents. I guess my mom says that my dad

> almost hit her the other day and she had to lock herself in the bedroom from

> him and that she is going to get a divorce this week, etc etc. I told her

> she could move in with me if she wants. Me and my brother are going to go to

> my parents house this weekend, and my mom said that my dad said he is going

> to tell us goodbye. Not sure what that means, or in what state my dad said

> this to my mom. I really wish he would just move back to our old country,

> because he never adapted here and I know he would be better there. But he is

> stuck in a hole that he himself keeps digging deeper and deeper. He feels

> like he needs to stay here to help us (me and my brother) even thought we

> are 36 and 26 and can stand on our own, yet he has this huge guilt because

> my brother was diagnosed with diabetes a couple of years ago and I did not

> grow up to be who he wanted me to be. He blames my mom for us coming over

> here ( to U.S.) and has been blaming her for something like 16 years. I

> really feel sorry for her, because I know my dad can bring the same thing up

> over and over and over.

>

> I dealt with this development surprising well and calm and even though some

> negative thoughts did cross my mind a couple of times about this during my

> practice today they were overwhelmed by my ARMY OF CONCENTRATION.! :)

> Lesson I learned from this, do not think your kids

> will grow up how you want them to grow up, just love them for the actual

> growing up. Do not take life seriously, because anything can happen,

> but whatever happens, good or bad, it is only the Brahman (you) playing a

> game with himself (also you).

>

> Much love and thank you for reading.

> Mike

>

>

>

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