Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 Hello dear Group, I've been away for a while and finally am in the space to write. My hubby and I went on a four day holiday and on the way back he suffered a small stroke. I didn't know it at the time...he just flipped out on me on the drive home and became very delusional thinking I was holding him hostage and wouldn't take him home. I had thought maybe the drive was just too much for him and he was overtired. The next morning he didn't know who I was and I then called 911 and had him taken to the hospital. To make a long story short he's now in rehab, I am moving to a first floor apartment before he gets out, and I have to change to the day shift so I can be home with him at night. Everything has been turned upside down! What is most meaningful to me through all of this is that I feel like I'm in the eye of the storm. I'm surrendered to the winds and the changes, and flowing with everything. I don't feel attachments and can quickly make all the adjustments that are necessary. It feels like I am being tested to the max. I feel such strong love all around me holding me close, and a deep trust that everything I need is there and will unfold according to God's will. And it has. So I'm still packing. The apartment was there when I needed it in one of my very favorite spots, a block from the water. I'm training myself to get up at 6am while I'm still off for two weeks to move, in preparation for the day shift. John is doing well and doesn't believe anything is wrong with him as he forgets to do the simple things in life. He lost some memory and behaviors which has made him simple and free, with very little baggage. wow. There is peace in the eye of the storm, in the hands of God, where I am not controlling things and the steering wheel isn't mine anymore. Living in the moment always brings the grace for what is needed, and the mind isn't driving me crazy with " what if's " and " I can't do this " and all that garbage. So I've seen that when the storms come I'm standing on solid ground in this transformation. And it holds. Everything is true, and God is attentive to every need. It is a beautiful, yet hard, experience, and I am very grateful for all the help and grace, strength and security that I've experienced through it all. I know now that no matter what happens, all is well. Thank you for listening. Always Love, dhyana Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 Dhyanna- You are amazing - a true embodiment of the gift we are being given. Thank you for sharing all of your insights and truths. They help me to see there is hope and there is grace. You are being cared for and loved by your divine - and in turn John is also being cared for and loved. No doubt in my mind you have already passed many of your tests and will do just fine with any others that present. Sending prayers to you and John that the transition to this new phase in life brings happiness and a world full of love. Blessings e Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 Blessings to you Dhyana! I am amazed at the grace and ease the way you are accepting, changing and surrendering. Thank you for your example. Would you like any healing sent? Prayers? love bradly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 Wow! Dhyana, You have been on my mind a lot lately. It sounds like you are handling all those life changes well. Sending you loving thoughts. When people are brought to my mind like that and I don't know what to pray, I just pray in tongues. It is amazing how God's grace sees us through these types of experiences. Love & hugs, Linda , " novalees " <dhyana wrote: > So I've seen that when the storms come I'm standing > on solid ground in this transformation. And it holds. > Everything is true, and God is attentive to every need. > It is a beautiful, yet hard, experience, and I am very > grateful for all the help and grace, strength and > security that I've experienced through it all. I know > now that no matter what happens, all is well. > > Thank you for listening. > Always Love, > dhyana > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 God speed and strength to you .................. Richard dhyana Sun, 25 Oct 2009 11:03:36 +0000 Checking In Hello dear Group, I've been away for a while and finally am in the space to write. My hubby and I went on a four day holiday and on the way back he suffered a small stroke. I didn't know it at the time...he just flipped out on me on the drive home and became very delusional thinking I was holding him hostage and wouldn't take him home. I had thought maybe the drive was just too much for him and he was overtired. The next morning he didn't know who I was and I then called 911 and had him taken to the hospital. To make a long story short he's now in rehab, I am moving to a first floor apartment before he gets out, and I have to change to the day shift so I can be home with him at night. Everything has been turned upside down! What is most meaningful to me through all of this is that I feel like I'm in the eye of the storm. I'm surrendered to the winds and the changes, and flowing with everything. I don't feel attachments and can quickly make all the adjustments that are necessary. It feels like I am being tested to the max. I feel such strong love all around me holding me close, and a deep trust that everything I need is there and will unfold according to God's will. And it has. So I'm still packing. The apartment was there when I needed it in one of my very favorite spots, a block from the water. I'm training myself to get up at 6am while I'm still off for two weeks to move, in preparation for the day shift. John is doing well and doesn't believe anything is wrong with him as he forgets to do the simple things in life. He lost some memory and behaviors which has made him simple and free, with very little baggage. wow. There is peace in the eye of the storm, in the hands of God, where I am not controlling things and the steering wheel isn't mine anymore. Living in the moment always brings the grace for what is needed, and the mind isn't driving me crazy with " what if's " and " I can't do this " and all that garbage. So I've seen that when the storms come I'm standing on solid ground in this transformation. And it holds. Everything is true, and God is attentive to every need. It is a beautiful, yet hard, experience, and I am very grateful for all the help and grace, strength and security that I've experienced through it all. I know now that no matter what happens, all is well. Thank you for listening. Always Love, dhyana _______________ CDN College or University student? Get Windows 7 for only $39.99 before Jan 3! Buy it now! http://go.microsoft.com/?linkid=9691636 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 good luck with the new changes, sounds like your adjusting well and going with the flow, really surrendered. craig , " novalees " <dhyana wrote: > > Hello dear Group, > > I've been away for a while and finally > am in the space to write. > > My hubby and I went on a four day holiday > and on the way back he suffered a small > stroke. I didn't know it at the time...he > just flipped out on me on the drive home > and became very delusional thinking I was > holding him hostage and wouldn't take him > home. I had thought maybe the drive was > just too much for him and he was overtired. > The next morning he didn't know who I was > and I then called 911 and had him taken to > the hospital. > > To make a long story short he's now in rehab, > I am moving to a first floor apartment before > he gets out, and I have to change to the day > shift so I can be home with him at night. > > Everything has been turned upside down! > > What is most meaningful to me through all of this > is that I feel like I'm in the eye of the > storm. I'm surrendered to the winds and the > changes, and flowing with everything. I don't > feel attachments and can quickly make all the > adjustments that are necessary. It feels like > I am being tested to the max. I feel such strong > love all around me holding me close, and a deep > trust that everything I need is there and will > unfold according to God's will. And it has. > > So I'm still packing. The apartment was there > when I needed it in one of my very favorite spots, > a block from the water. I'm training myself to get > up at 6am while I'm still off for two weeks to > move, in preparation for the day shift. John is > doing well and doesn't believe anything is wrong > with him as he forgets to do the simple things > in life. He lost some memory and behaviors which > has made him simple and free, with very little > baggage. wow. > > There is peace in the eye of the storm, in the > hands of God, where I am not controlling things > and the steering wheel isn't mine anymore. Living > in the moment always brings the grace for what > is needed, and the mind isn't driving me crazy with > " what if's " and " I can't do this " and all that > garbage. > > So I've seen that when the storms come I'm standing > on solid ground in this transformation. And it holds. > Everything is true, and God is attentive to every need. > It is a beautiful, yet hard, experience, and I am very > grateful for all the help and grace, strength and > security that I've experienced through it all. I know > now that no matter what happens, all is well. > > Thank you for listening. > Always Love, > dhyana > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 Hi Dhyana, You are an inspiration in how to surrender to lifes challenges; thank you for showing us this. You remind me of a beautiful branch on a tree that knows how to bend with the storm. Wishing the sun shines on you and yours soon! Much love to you, Debs , " danceswithcats999 " <crazycats711 wrote: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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