Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 Hi my kunda friends (: Hope you are all well! I've been busy and have some challenging times with work. Oh joy. (: ha Anyway had some strangeness the other night so strangeness coming at ya! Hope you don't mind me sharing all this kunda in my lini... I was laying in bed after being up most of the night. So yes I was tired. It was dark still but getting close to dawn. I lay there in my pitch black room ... which turned out to be anything but... I was laying on my back and my room turned into all these lights flashing through. Not that this is so strange for me (yes my strange barometer is high) So first there were flashes of light...just white light and shadows moving. Then came streaking colors zipping around very beautiful with intense energy moving quickly. Okay nothing too strange yet...(yeah hit me with a club) Here is the rather new strangeness...I see first shadow and light moving moving rapidly swirling swirling ...it then becomes this hugh-a*s tornado in my room. HUGE!!!! Couldnt see the top cuz it went up over the ceiling. As it was swirling MASSIVE thing I'm laying there saying Deb...be calm you are not insane (right???) just surrender and enjoy...well at first I admit admit admit I was a bit anxious...it was very big and powerful and me...I'm just me...not so big and powerful. (: So this one is just over me a bit to the right - while surprise surprise another one appears to the left of me. Oh joy - (:(: Honestly they were so big and powerful I am still shocked that there was no wind (well except that cold air in spots blowing through me but that i wickedly admit i rather like) - I mean the entire room should have blown away but there I am .... telling myself...surrender surrender this is all good. So I manage to surrender (i mean hiding under covers like I mentioned before does not work because I've tried so many times!) So I did something sorta brave for me! Drumroll please..... I took my cover - my lovely blanket I use as support like a child ....(whatever.(:..) and I pushed it (a bit meekishly) off most of my body and said, " I surrender. " (this is brave for me - btw I do know it never matters anyway if I have my blanket or not whatever is gonna happen...happens anyway so its probably not really so brave...ha...it was more a " look i can surrender " thing - as if the gods that be can appreciate that and be gentle with me! (: As these tornados were doing their thing all these brillant little specks of light in all different colors were flying out - flying out rapidly - swirling energy major moving - so powerful freaky strange!(it is strange how i always see these little sparkling lights flying out of my tunnel thing too and other things...must have some significance i think?) Well when I pushed off the blanket I felt in my stomach this one spot begin to tighten and compress as if somebody was turning it - it became taut and it wasn't pain just sensation. I did have that dream awhile back about two blocks in my stomach (the dream was in) so I kinda think somehow in all this weirdness those tornados were helping me. I just lay there and let it do its thing. Then it moved ahem....up to the girls...(: first the right-then the left .... i guess you could say they started the engines, turned the headlights on and were off to the races... 'cuz then the energy moved to all different spots on my body - my arm - my leg - one by one these places were visited (: - just a feeling of something being turned and getting tight tighter and then nothing? Although I did feel shakti stimulating my back too... So I lay there in surrender and honestly it was quite beautiful my room with all these lights flashing and colors zipping by and said thank you and sent love along with reminding myself I'm not insane this is just a little kunda for my lini or something I don't understand. Right???? People??? Someone??? Its just that those 2 tornados were so big you know and moving so intensely with so much power it was as if being a speck of sand in a hurricane...but i was brave for me, although still have to work on questioning my sanity during those times...(:...still seem to have to talk myself up a bit. (my self-talk is quite amusing - like the little engine that could) So I was really tired and watched this for close to an hour but then decided it doesnt need me so I'm just gonna go to sleep...and I did. When I woke up my friendly neighborly tornados were gone and after only a couple hours of sleep felt incredibly good all day. Can't tell you what that was about but I'm still here and have this feeling they were helping me. (Do you call tornados " they? " ) I always wonder whats up ... I mean you read stories of people getting visited my beautiful angels....I get visited by tornados...is their meaning in this I'm missing? I mainly always see everything as energy...i still have that feeling of a screwdriver turning in my forehead - sometimes it feels like a long drill bit that goes through my head and out the back...that probably sounds like its painful but its not its just the best way i can describe it...maybe it needs a few more turns ... (: Beside that everything is the same...whenever I focus on love a girls voice sings to me over my head... Please place your votes...say YAY for not insane - (only looking for yays my friends!) Wishing you all some more kunda in your lini! (; Debs (: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 yay, debs you're back and YAY you ARE insane... in a very in- and very -sane yay way. your posts always put me in such a yay mood, yay for tornadoes, yay yay yay!! Lucia , " flowerpowers7777 " <flowerpowers7777 wrote: > Please place your votes...say YAY for not insane - > (only looking for yays my friends!) > > Wishing you all some more kunda in your lini! (; > > Debs (: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 Oh God Lucia you are like a beautiful present! I wish I could wrap you up in a big red bow and only allow the kindest people who completely adore you get anywhere near you! Hope you are imagining me right now with red ribbons wrapping you up and sending you out into the world! I just got this image of you walking around like that ... I'm cracking up because I'm thinking about what all the guys are gonna be thinking when they see you!!!!!!!!hahahahahaha (kinda like the girl jumping out of the cake!hahaha) Yes I know how to amuse myself! And you know what Lucia Lucia Lucia???? I did assualt someone that day in the forest! How proud of me are you right now? (: I was in the forest with all this energy...(I think Curly (Craig) may have been right about the energy of anxiety and enthusiasm...I was really high in anxiety and it turned into crazy enthusiasm!) Anyway I ran off some energy in the forest and came to this crossroads...these paths that lead in different directions...Do I want to go to the pond? Do I want to go where the Deer usually are? Do I want to go deep deep into the forest where its dark and kinda scary yet magical too? So I was standing there like a crazy person ready to burst with so much energy...oh and btw I looked like one too...I had these high yellow rubber boots on like a kid - and this crazy football black makeup under my eyes (i forgot i had that on - sometimes i go to the pond and look around the sun and it helps the reflection so I look like a little girl/wanna be football player?) Anyway here comes this old old man. I see him there sometimes with his great?grandchildren. He is so kind to them. God I love this man! He is soooooooo sweet!!!!! He is so sweet to his greatgrandkids! And you know what else is cute about him? (Say What Deb?) When he walks he almost tips over in this beautiful way. That probably does not sound nice - I don't wish him to topple over but he walks so slow and after each step kinda tips to one side. God he is cute! Oh and he has this really great buddha belly that sticks out - and we know how I love those ... so prepare for the assualt... He sees me and asks whats wrong dear? I'm laughing (cuz I know its stupid ... just pick a path!!!) And I tell him I don't know which way to go...and he for the longest longest time is thinking about this in deep thought - I'm wondering what there is to think about? ha He takes off his hat and starts rubbing his beautiful bald head! How cute is that? And I'm in that assualting mood and just want to kiss that head! He slowly (and I do mean slowly here) puts his hat back on and then with one hand is scratching his forehead and with the other hand is rubbing his belly!!!!! His belly!!! Rub - Rub!! Now I am just looking at that glorious belly! hahahahaha And you know what he says? (after forever mind you!) He says... " Dear, I think you should pick the path that makes you the happiest! " NO kidding!!! I almost started to cry! Isn't he lovely!?!?! So what did I do? Yes!!! You know it! I asked him if I could squeeze him and I did! And I took his hat off and kissed that beautiful bald head -of course I tried not to tip him over! And then I did the craziest thing...I asked him if I could rub his belly!!! He laughed and said ...ok. So I rubbed that beautiful buddha belly and gave it a big kiss and was starting to run off, said bye and was laughing as I picked the path of the deer. After a few steps ... he says so seriously... " Dear...if you are trying to make yourself look scary (he points to under his eyes and then my eyes which I forgot about that black makeup) I think you might need to try a little harder! " I was almost peeing in my pants laughing so hard at that! So I felt great!!! I ran by Curlys house and saw him lock up all the windows and doors! Hey Curly - look outside you might see a beautiful girl with a red bow wrapped on her! hahaha Lucia Lucia Lucia hope you are well - you always make me happy too! Much love!!! Thanks for the " Yay " my friend! Debs (: , " lari.lu " <lari.lu wrote: > > yay, debs you're back Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 P.S. - woops - i wrote this very fast and left and then i thought about what I wrote about sending you over by curlys in a red bow...so just to clarify here...I DIDN " T mean it like that!!! Honestly - lock me up!! hahaha I just meant to spread your sunshine around! hahaha Don't change your vote to a " Nay " okay Lucia? (:( Much love my red ribboned friend! (: Debs (: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2009 Report Share Posted October 25, 2009 wow that must have been intense, and I'll give you a YAY for not insane, lol. Good way to handle it too, pushing the blanket away, letting down the armor, and allowing yourself to be vulnerable. IT's good to hear from you, I've missed the wackiness . craig , " flowerpowers7777 " <flowerpowers7777 wrote: > > Hi my kunda friends (: > > Hope you are all well! I've been busy and have some challenging times with work. Oh joy. (: ha > > Anyway had some strangeness the other night so strangeness coming at ya! Hope you don't mind me sharing all this kunda in my lini... > > I was laying in bed after being up most of the night. So yes I was tired. It was dark still but getting close to dawn. I lay there in my pitch black room ... which turned out to be anything but... > > I was laying on my back and my room turned into all these lights flashing through. Not that this is so strange for me (yes my strange barometer is high) > > So first there were flashes of light...just white light and shadows moving. Then came streaking colors zipping around very beautiful with intense energy moving quickly. Okay nothing too strange yet...(yeah hit me with a club) > > Here is the rather new strangeness...I see first shadow and light moving moving rapidly swirling swirling ...it then becomes this hugh-a*s tornado in my room. HUGE!!!! Couldnt see the top cuz it went up over the ceiling. As it was swirling MASSIVE thing I'm laying there saying Deb...be calm you are not insane (right???) just surrender and enjoy...well at first I admit admit admit I was a bit anxious...it was very big and powerful and me...I'm just me...not so big and powerful. (: > > So this one is just over me a bit to the right - while surprise surprise another one appears to the left of me. Oh joy - (:(: > > Honestly they were so big and powerful I am still shocked that there was no wind (well except that cold air in spots blowing through me but that i wickedly admit i rather like) - I mean the entire room should have blown away but there I am ... telling myself...surrender surrender this is all good. So I manage to surrender (i mean hiding under covers like I mentioned before does not work because I've tried so many times!) > > So I did something sorta brave for me! Drumroll please..... > > I took my cover - my lovely blanket I use as support like a child ....(whatever.(:..) and I pushed it (a bit meekishly) off most of my body and said, " I surrender. " (this is brave for me - btw I do know it never matters anyway if I have my blanket or not whatever is gonna happen...happens anyway so its probably not really so brave...ha...it was more a " look i can surrender " thing - as if the gods that be can appreciate that and be gentle with me! (: > > > As these tornados were doing their thing all these brillant little specks of light in all different colors were flying out - flying out rapidly - swirling energy major moving - so powerful freaky strange!(it is strange how i always see these little sparkling lights flying out of my tunnel thing too and other things...must have some significance i think?) > > Well when I pushed off the blanket I felt in my stomach this one spot begin to tighten and compress as if somebody was turning it - it became taut and it wasn't pain just sensation. I did have that dream awhile back about two blocks in my stomach (the dream was in) so I kinda think somehow in all this weirdness those tornados were helping me. I just lay there and let it do its thing. Then it moved ahem....up to the girls...(: first the right-then the left .... i guess you could say they started the engines, turned the headlights on and were off to the races... 'cuz then the energy moved to all different spots on my body - my arm - my leg - one by one these places were visited (: - just a feeling of something being turned and getting tight tighter and then nothing? Although I did feel shakti stimulating my back too... > > So I lay there in surrender and honestly it was quite beautiful my room with all these lights flashing and colors zipping by and said thank you and sent love along with reminding myself I'm not insane this is just a little kunda for my lini or something I don't understand. Right???? People??? Someone??? Its just that those 2 tornados were so big you know and moving so intensely with so much power it was as if being a speck of sand in a hurricane...but i was brave for me, although still have to work on questioning my sanity during those times...(:...still seem to have to talk myself up a bit. > (my self-talk is quite amusing - like the little engine that could) > > So I was really tired and watched this for close to an hour but then decided it doesnt need me so I'm just gonna go to sleep...and I did. > > When I woke up my friendly neighborly tornados were gone and after only a couple hours of sleep felt incredibly good all day. > > Can't tell you what that was about but I'm still here and have this feeling they were helping me. (Do you call tornados " they? " ) > > I always wonder whats up ... I mean you read stories of people getting visited my beautiful angels....I get visited by tornados...is their meaning in this I'm missing? I mainly always see everything as energy...i still have that feeling of a screwdriver turning in my forehead - sometimes it feels like a long drill bit that goes through my head and out the back...that probably sounds like its painful but its not its just the best way i can describe it...maybe it needs a few more turns ... (: > > Beside that everything is the same...whenever I focus on love a girls voice sings to me over my head... > > Please place your votes...say YAY for not insane - > (only looking for yays my friends!) > > Wishing you all some more kunda in your lini! (; > > Debs (: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 Thanks for the " Yay " and words of encouragement Curly! Was thinking awhile ago about a past post of yours...just want you to know if I had an emergency and needed an EMT I would much rather have a K awakened person at my side then someone who's strengths were in public speaking...I'm thinking that would be everyone's top choice if they understood...don't ya think? And anyway watching you curl your toes would be purely enjoyable at that...Curly! (: Hey...whats with the " wackiness " ... have I built a reputation around here? I'm going to start writing about quantum physics and throw you for a loop! (: All smiles here... Chi balls at you Curly and all my k friends! Debs (: , " phoenix.ing9 " <phoenix.ing9 wrote: > > IT's good to hear from you, I've missed the wackiness . > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 that is such a beautiful story!!! you got your budda belly in real life, what a wonderful wonderful story... choose the road that makes you happiest.. about the ribbons, hmmm, dont know if I'll yay at that one, kind of unconfortable dont you think? so please take them off soon will you? you can leave them on for a while, just because it's you, but I cant move my arms.......oh, one is tangeling my leg............. ....bis smiles Panda Debs, lucia , " flowerpowers7777 " <flowerpowers7777 wrote: > > Much love my red ribboned friend! (: > Debs (: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 HAHAHA Lucia!!!! Okay they are off! Can't have you tripping and I suppose you do need your arms free in case you feel like rubbing a belly or two along the way...Come on...you know you wanna try it... (: So you are free!!! Although now I am imagining you with ribbons floating in the air behind you ... I've added every color to brighten your day...(shhhh you know to make up for all the wrapping and all) Its a wonder I get anything done with all this imagining going on... Sweet smiles back at ya... Lucia Lucia Lucia (: Debs (:(: , " lari.lu " <lari.lu wrote: > but I cant move my arms.......oh, one is tangeling my leg............. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 Hi deb, its a Yay for not insane... haha.. I love your creativity and your flowering mind.. love Bruce , " flowerpowers7777 " <flowerpowers7777 wrote: > > Hi my kunda friends (: > > Hope you are all well! I've been busy and have some challenging times with work. Oh joy. (: ha > > Anyway had some strangeness the other night so strangeness coming at ya! Hope you don't mind me sharing all this kunda in my lini... > > I was laying in bed after being up most of the night. So yes I was tired. It was dark still but getting close to dawn. I lay there in my pitch black room ... which turned out to be anything but... > > I was laying on my back and my room turned into all these lights flashing through. Not that this is so strange for me (yes my strange barometer is high) > > So first there were flashes of light...just white light and shadows moving. Then came streaking colors zipping around very beautiful with intense energy moving quickly. Okay nothing too strange yet...(yeah hit me with a club) > > Here is the rather new strangeness...I see first shadow and light moving moving rapidly swirling swirling ...it then becomes this hugh-a*s tornado in my room. HUGE!!!! Couldnt see the top cuz it went up over the ceiling. As it was swirling MASSIVE thing I'm laying there saying Deb...be calm you are not insane (right???) just surrender and enjoy...well at first I admit admit admit I was a bit anxious...it was very big and powerful and me...I'm just me...not so big and powerful. (: > > So this one is just over me a bit to the right - while surprise surprise another one appears to the left of me. Oh joy - (:(: > > Honestly they were so big and powerful I am still shocked that there was no wind (well except that cold air in spots blowing through me but that i wickedly admit i rather like) - I mean the entire room should have blown away but there I am ... telling myself...surrender surrender this is all good. So I manage to surrender (i mean hiding under covers like I mentioned before does not work because I've tried so many times!) > > So I did something sorta brave for me! Drumroll please..... > > I took my cover - my lovely blanket I use as support like a child ....(whatever.(:..) and I pushed it (a bit meekishly) off most of my body and said, " I surrender. " (this is brave for me - btw I do know it never matters anyway if I have my blanket or not whatever is gonna happen...happens anyway so its probably not really so brave...ha...it was more a " look i can surrender " thing - as if the gods that be can appreciate that and be gentle with me! (: > > > As these tornados were doing their thing all these brillant little specks of light in all different colors were flying out - flying out rapidly - swirling energy major moving - so powerful freaky strange!(it is strange how i always see these little sparkling lights flying out of my tunnel thing too and other things...must have some significance i think?) > > Well when I pushed off the blanket I felt in my stomach this one spot begin to tighten and compress as if somebody was turning it - it became taut and it wasn't pain just sensation. I did have that dream awhile back about two blocks in my stomach (the dream was in) so I kinda think somehow in all this weirdness those tornados were helping me. I just lay there and let it do its thing. Then it moved ahem....up to the girls...(: first the right-then the left .... i guess you could say they started the engines, turned the headlights on and were off to the races... 'cuz then the energy moved to all different spots on my body - my arm - my leg - one by one these places were visited (: - just a feeling of something being turned and getting tight tighter and then nothing? Although I did feel shakti stimulating my back too... > > So I lay there in surrender and honestly it was quite beautiful my room with all these lights flashing and colors zipping by and said thank you and sent love along with reminding myself I'm not insane this is just a little kunda for my lini or something I don't understand. Right???? People??? Someone??? Its just that those 2 tornados were so big you know and moving so intensely with so much power it was as if being a speck of sand in a hurricane...but i was brave for me, although still have to work on questioning my sanity during those times...(:...still seem to have to talk myself up a bit. > (my self-talk is quite amusing - like the little engine that could) > > So I was really tired and watched this for close to an hour but then decided it doesnt need me so I'm just gonna go to sleep...and I did. > > When I woke up my friendly neighborly tornados were gone and after only a couple hours of sleep felt incredibly good all day. > > Can't tell you what that was about but I'm still here and have this feeling they were helping me. (Do you call tornados " they? " ) > > I always wonder whats up ... I mean you read stories of people getting visited my beautiful angels....I get visited by tornados...is their meaning in this I'm missing? I mainly always see everything as energy...i still have that feeling of a screwdriver turning in my forehead - sometimes it feels like a long drill bit that goes through my head and out the back...that probably sounds like its painful but its not its just the best way i can describe it...maybe it needs a few more turns ... (: > > Beside that everything is the same...whenever I focus on love a girls voice sings to me over my head... > > Please place your votes...say YAY for not insane - > (only looking for yays my friends!) > > Wishing you all some more kunda in your lini! (; > > Debs (: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 thanks Debs, I really appreciate your words craig , " flowerpowers7777 " <flowerpowers7777 wrote: > > > Thanks for the " Yay " and words of encouragement Curly! > > Was thinking awhile ago about a past post of yours...just want you to know if I had an emergency and needed an EMT I would much rather have a K awakened person at my side then someone who's strengths were in public speaking...I'm thinking that would be everyone's top choice if they understood...don't ya think? And anyway watching you curl your toes would be purely enjoyable at that...Curly! (: > > Hey...whats with the " wackiness " ... have I built a reputation around here? I'm going to start writing about quantum physics and throw you for a loop! (: All smiles here... > > Chi balls at you Curly and all my k friends! > Debs (: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 Deb, you are so delightful! Reading your posts is always such a treat! I often debate about posting my experiences here because I come from a different (external) tradition (although inside it is all the same, I think, regardless of language or cultural frameworks). Your questions make me think perhaps I should just write about what I experience. The flashes of lights and ribbons and floating globules and wavy sheets are common, in my experience. In my (Native) cultural frame of reference, we refer to them as spirit lights. A few weeks ago we finished building a new community sweatlodge. It was done in the traditional way, with a lot of prayerful preparation and communication with the spirits of the land. We made sure we had the permission of the willows and took only those who willingly and joyfully offered themselves. Everything was done in a good way, and the folks I was working with were conscientious, attentive, meticulous and dedicated to bringing the best of themselves to the moment. The next day I covered the lodge and went in to check for leaks. It was pitch black. Just right. I sat in the dark and played a game I like to do sometimes, which is just to hold my hands out and flip them palm up, palm down, palm up, palm down, and to look down at my body and see the glow. I was just sitting there playing, feeling relaxed and happy that all the hard work was done, and now the lodge was ready for the dedication ceremony. Suddenly the darkness gave way to a crowd of sparkling lights and wavy sheets of light and dancing ribbons of light. It filled me with joy, for I knew the spirits were crowding in to enjoy the space just as I was, and that we all were happy together to have the new lodge up. The new circle was beginning; we could start the work that needs to be done for the healing of one another and the planet. I usually go in the lodge after I get home from work, to sit and talk with my helping spirits and debrief the day. My nightly personal therapy session. The K energy usually surges through me pretty strong at those times, pushing and pulling my body in the ways that it needs to, and I get some good doctoring done on me. One night last week as I sat in the darkness, the lights appeared, and one large purple light hovered up in front of my face. It started to rotate clockwise and shined its purple beam into my right eye, boring into it and turning in circles as if it were drilling it out. It doctored me for a few minutes, then faded away. I thanked them and left. At night I pray and sing my songs, either before or after I do my Tibetans and compression breathing. Sometimes as I finish up singing, the gourd will keep moving, or start up again, and a new song will come through me. It'll sing itself, and give me the understanding of what it is to be used for. Many are doctoring songs. Some are healing dances for the land. I'll see bits and pieces, flashes, of the dance and how it is to be used. I get a little at a time, probably because they know I need time to digest it all. Right now I have a backlog of songs I need to get good on. Some I'm using already in ceremony, and the others I still have to keep singing so I can learn them well enough to use them in the right way. So, all this might sound weird or wacky to a mainstream person, but from a Native ceremonial perspective, this is how things are done. This is how tribes who have lost their languages and traditions through colonization get their songs and dances and languages back. And now, I am experiencing it in an accelerated way. I'm used to receiving songs, but now it's dances and doctoring songs, and a lot of them. I don't know why, but I am grateful, and I am willing to follow through on what I am shown. I believe it is for the healing of Mother Earth and all who live on her, and that is important to me. So, Deb, when you go through these big doctorings, and the spirits are crowding into your room and blessing you, I suspect it is because they are clearing a way to bring big healing through you to the land and those around you. When they come in and do this work on any of us, I think it is because that is what we're here for - to help with the healing, with the transition. Mother Earth needs us. When we open ourselves up to be cleaned out and we let the energy move through us, I think it helps her to breathe. And I think it helps lift the vibrational speed of those around us so the healing can go a little more smoothly. So, I'm glad you relaxed into it and let them do their work. All right, I've yakked my own head off. I hope this helps. Peace, Shaz Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 Hi Bruce!!! So good to hear from you and thank you for the beautiful words! Your life is so interesting to me...I know you've been busy traveling and getting settled and happy to hear your fast is over. I look forward to hear more about your time there and hope everything magically and beautifully falls in place for you! Much love! Debs (: , " BruceO " <bruce_oom wrote: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 this is beautiful Shaz, I appreciate you sharing. I don't think it's weird or wacky, what's wacky is that humanity has become so alienated from it's heart that most humans can go on and treat Mother Earth the way it does and not feel any of the consequences, directly. It opens my heart that you are helping with restoring the songs and dances and languages, I honestly wish there was someway I could help, but I don't know of any way...Well anyways, thanks Shaz for your sharing and may the songs and dances being given to you help Mother Earth and all who live on Her. love craig , " shaktiaz " <shaktiaz wrote: > > > > Deb, you are so delightful! Reading your posts is always such a treat! > > I often debate about posting my experiences here because I come from a different (external) tradition (although inside it is all the same, I think, regardless of language or cultural frameworks). Your questions make me think perhaps I should just write about what I experience. > > The flashes of lights and ribbons and floating globules and wavy sheets are common, in my experience. In my (Native) cultural frame of reference, we refer to them as spirit lights. > > A few weeks ago we finished building a new community sweatlodge. It was done in the traditional way, with a lot of prayerful preparation and communication with the spirits of the land. We made sure we had the permission of the willows and took only those who willingly and joyfully offered themselves. Everything was done in a good way, and the folks I was working with were conscientious, attentive, meticulous and dedicated to bringing the best of themselves to the moment. > > The next day I covered the lodge and went in to check for leaks. It was pitch black. Just right. I sat in the dark and played a game I like to do sometimes, which is just to hold my hands out and flip them palm up, palm down, palm up, palm down, and to look down at my body and see the glow. I was just sitting there playing, feeling relaxed and happy that all the hard work was done, and now the lodge was ready for the dedication ceremony. Suddenly the darkness gave way to a crowd of sparkling lights and wavy sheets of light and dancing ribbons of light. It filled me with joy, for I knew the spirits were crowding in to enjoy the space just as I was, and that we all were happy together to have the new lodge up. The new circle was beginning; we could start the work that needs to be done for the healing of one another and the planet. > > I usually go in the lodge after I get home from work, to sit and talk with my helping spirits and debrief the day. My nightly personal therapy session. The K energy usually surges through me pretty strong at those times, pushing and pulling my body in the ways that it needs to, and I get some good doctoring done on me. One night last week as I sat in the darkness, the lights appeared, and one large purple light hovered up in front of my face. It started to rotate clockwise and shined its purple beam into my right eye, boring into it and turning in circles as if it were drilling it out. It doctored me for a few minutes, then faded away. I thanked them and left. > > At night I pray and sing my songs, either before or after I do my Tibetans and compression breathing. Sometimes as I finish up singing, the gourd will keep moving, or start up again, and a new song will come through me. It'll sing itself, and give me the understanding of what it is to be used for. Many are doctoring songs. Some are healing dances for the land. I'll see bits and pieces, flashes, of the dance and how it is to be used. I get a little at a time, probably because they know I need time to digest it all. Right now I have a backlog of songs I need to get good on. Some I'm using already in ceremony, and the others I still have to keep singing so I can learn them well enough to use them in the right way. > > So, all this might sound weird or wacky to a mainstream person, but from a Native ceremonial perspective, this is how things are done. This is how tribes who have lost their languages and traditions through colonization get their songs and dances and languages back. And now, I am experiencing it in an accelerated way. I'm used to receiving songs, but now it's dances and doctoring songs, and a lot of them. I don't know why, but I am grateful, and I am willing to follow through on what I am shown. I believe it is for the healing of Mother Earth and all who live on her, and that is important to me. > > So, Deb, when you go through these big doctorings, and the spirits are crowding into your room and blessing you, I suspect it is because they are clearing a way to bring big healing through you to the land and those around you. When they come in and do this work on any of us, I think it is because that is what we're here for - to help with the healing, with the transition. Mother Earth needs us. When we open ourselves up to be cleaned out and we let the energy move through us, I think it helps her to breathe. And I think it helps lift the vibrational speed of those around us so the healing can go a little more smoothly. > > So, I'm glad you relaxed into it and let them do their work. > > All right, I've yakked my own head off. I hope this helps. > > Peace, > Shaz > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 and I don't mean wacky in a good way like Debs wackiness craig , " phoenix.ing9 " <phoenix.ing9 wrote: > > this is beautiful Shaz, I appreciate you sharing. I don't think it's weird or wacky, what's wacky is that humanity Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 Wow, Shaz, thank you so much for sharing that with us. It is most welcome here. Please never be shy about sharing it. We welcome it and learn from the teachings. New to me, maybe many of us here as well. I am very open to learning what you have knowledge of. Funny you mentioning the spirit lights. I seem to be reading and seeing photos more and more of them. Still haven't experienced them myself though i am open to it and invite them. At some point I will have the privilege of seeing them. Please don't feel we will look on your sharings with anything other than the joy in which they are offered! I know I don't just speak for myself! Love, Valarie , " shaktiaz " <shaktiaz wrote:> > Deb, you are so delightful! Reading your posts is always such a treat! > > I often debate about posting my experiences here because I come from a different (external) tradition (although inside it is all the same, I think, regardless of language or cultural frameworks). Your questions make me think perhaps I should just write about what I experience. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2009 Report Share Posted October 26, 2009 I second that Valarie, all sharing of experiences are good and very much welcomed. Love & blessigs all, Linda , " Valarie " <vjvousden wrote: > Please don't feel we will look on your sharings with anything other than the joy in which they are offered! I know I don't just speak for myself! > > Love, > Valarie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 27, 2009 Report Share Posted October 27, 2009 Thanks Curly...(; back at ya! Debs (: , " phoenix.ing9 " <phoenix.ing9 wrote: > > and I don't mean wacky in a good way like Debs wackiness > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 27, 2009 Report Share Posted October 27, 2009 Hi Matt...I think my last post was eaten...many thanks for the " Yay! " No I don't know what those were but I think it was all good the way they were spitting out beautiful prana-like lights at me...much better actually without the spit! (: Much love! Debs (: , " astraltraveler1984 " <mjf84 wrote: > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 27, 2009 Report Share Posted October 27, 2009 Thanks, you guys, for your support and encouragement. Deb, I'm glad my words helped you feel more comfortable and connected with those spirit lights. I think of them sometimes as a circle of Grandmas helping us birth, changing our diapers, holding our hands as we take our first toddling steps. So much Love! Lari and Craig, thank you for your kind words. I'm glad you feel the heart connection to Mother Earth, too. She is calling and singing to us, calling us home to help with the healing. Thank you everybody on this list for being part of the Change. Peace, Shaz Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 27, 2009 Report Share Posted October 27, 2009 Thanks for sharing that Shaz. If you can ever share some of those songs with us, I'd love to have a listen! be well, bradly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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