Guest guest Posted November 3, 2009 Report Share Posted November 3, 2009 What you write in the paragraph belov is basically me. First I dremt of wolves attacking me at puberty. Back then I was attacked by physical dogs three times (too many to be coincidence). Nothing too nasty but I got bitten on my thigh once. Now the dreams have changed to dogs and are not quite as threatening as the wolves were. I feel like I've been betrayed by friends in the past and few times by girls too. So my issues go back to childhood as well. Now Im having difficult time as I have to hide this kundalini thing from my friends. In addition I'm changing fundamentally so many of my old friens don't " fit " anymore. Tuff times. Because of the fear of getting betrayed (and maybe rejected and judged too), I cant be vulnerable with friends or girls so I'm missing out on a lot. How did you get past your trust issues? Love, Aarni , " danceswithcats999 " <crazycats711 wrote: > > Hi Aarni, > > Your interp of your dog dreams really resonates with me. I went about 2 years having dog dreams mostly attacking me. They began at a time in my life when I felt everyone was against me, my forum friends and even my own family members were wanting to be divorced from me. I was changing and upsetting the balance of things. There rejection left me with the inability to trust anyone about anything for a long time. I did not know rather I could even trust my own feelings,thoughts, and experience that were happening. It got so bad, I was actually being attacked by dogs in the physical. I am so glad and grateful that is all over with. I am back on the road to being able to trust people and animals again. It was a hard lesson. I am learning to be me, if I am excepted that's fine and if not that is fine as well. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2009 Report Share Posted November 3, 2009 Hi Aarni, I have not gotten completely past the trust problem, but being here on the group and working with the safeties daily is helping be able to trust again. My youngest daughter is the one I am having the hardest time with. With my hubby it has gotten a little easier, but it is there always in the back ground, not really knowing if what they are outwardly pretarying is the real way they feel. I don't know if I can ever get back to the full trust as it once was. All is forgiven and our relationship is better than it's ever been, but the trust thing is still there for me. I worry with everything I say, if it is going to be taken right. Both have a way of turning your words around to meaning the opposite of what I am saying. With my hubby I do not hold back my angry anymore, I let him know my true feelings now when things arise. I have stopped being the peacemaker of the family. I just let them do their thing and get over it. With my daughter she has a leverage, when she gets angry at me she tends to use the grandkids as a tool, by keeping them away from me. I think I got the point across to her though, that if I don't drop what I am doing and do what she wants...when,where,or how, it has nothing to do with not loving her if I decide not to what she wants. With friends, it is not quite so hard, unless you have created a big " attachment " for them. I think the biggest thing is getting over the fear of some one leaving you. I came out of all those months of tormoil, with it being ok if my hubby wants to leave and not be a part of my life any longer. Also, the same with my daughter. They can love me and take me as I am or they can leave or what ever they want. When I came to the point of letting them go, they no longer wanted to. My life is not theirs and their is not mine is the way I look at things now. That may sound cold, but really it isn't. We are not each others possesions, but just a person we have agreed to share our life with. With the way things are now, proper consideration for each other are being given amongst us. blessing & love, Linda , " spiralingsnake " <aarni.kimmo wrote: > > What you write in the paragraph belov is basically me. First I dremt of wolves attacking me at puberty. Back then I was attacked by physical dogs three times (too many to be coincidence). Nothing too nasty but I got bitten on my thigh once. Now the dreams have changed to dogs and are not quite as threatening as the wolves were. > > I feel like I've been betrayed by friends in the past and few times by girls too. So my issues go back to childhood as well. Now Im having difficult time as I have to hide this kundalini thing from my friends. In addition I'm changing fundamentally so many of my old friens don't " fit " anymore. Tuff times. > > Because of the fear of getting betrayed (and maybe rejected and judged too), I cant be vulnerable with friends or girls so I'm missing out on a lot. > > How did you get past your trust issues? > > Love, > Aarni > > , " danceswithcats999 " <crazycats711@> wrote: > > > > Hi Aarni, > > > > Your interp of your dog dreams really resonates with me. I went about 2 years having dog dreams mostly attacking me. They began at a time in my life when I felt everyone was against me, my forum friends and even my own family members were wanting to be divorced from me. I was changing and upsetting the balance of things. There rejection left me with the inability to trust anyone about anything for a long time. I did not know rather I could even trust my own feelings,thoughts, and experience that were happening. It got so bad, I was actually being attacked by dogs in the physical. I am so glad and grateful that is all over with. I am back on the road to being able to trust people and animals again. It was a hard lesson. I am learning to be me, if I am excepted that's fine and if not that is fine as well. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 4, 2009 Report Share Posted November 4, 2009 When I was writing this post to Aarni yesterday, I left and went to do something and when I returned, James was at my computer reading what I wrote here. I don't know how much of it he read. Hehe! He didn't say anything, but looked a little embarrassed at being caught reading it. I didn't say anything either. I don't think I wrote anything that he didn't already know. It felt a little weird having him read it. Linda , " danceswithcats999 " <crazycats711 wrote: > > Hi Aarni, > > I have not gotten completely past the trust problem, but being here on the group and working with the safeties daily is helping be able to trust again. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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