Guest guest Posted November 4, 2009 Report Share Posted November 4, 2009 Dear Charism and All: Thank you for the warm welcome! I know I'm going to like it here and learn from and with you. I am dealing with a problem, perhaps a " will " problem, but I'm not sure what the root cause might be. I would be grateful for any insight anyone would care to share: For 27 years I've been the financial provider for my family after my husband had an accident that left him unable to continue in his job. At the same time my Dad died, and my Mother needed my help, not financially, but in every other way. Long story short: For years I worked about 10 hours a day 6 1/2 days a week and no vacation until summer 08. By that time, I was so burned out and feeling overwhelmed by the weight of responsibility that I now can hardly even pay the bills. I start to do it and just fall asleep or stare at the checkbook. My Mom died in 94, but my husband and our younger son are still dependant on me financially. I don " t mind that anymore, but I think I pushed myself too hard for too long, and now K won't let me do it any more, or so it seems. This is a real dilemma for me! Any suggestions?I used to be so contentious, but now I feelsomething inside(K?) stopping me, not letting me take care of business. This sounds so mundane, but it has become a real problem! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 4, 2009 Report Share Posted November 4, 2009 It is always best to have a family member step up to the plate with regard to taking over some of the day to day business responsibilities. If this isnt an option then an accounting firm can do this. Check these options out and have a look at your control issues if you are reticent. Holy Fire is going to have its way with you my dear friend. It will begin to gently(as it is doing) take away your mundane tasks that have occupied you for so long. This the time for the divine expression, within you since the age of three, to have its time in the inner Sun that is being lit up within you. You may have your focus on business affairs returned to you at a later time but for now you may wish to consider the divine expression as needing to have some time for expression. How do you feel about this? How do you feel about surrendering to the Christ force within in a more complete way and less attached to the mundane way? Thee comes a time in the awakening process where these areas will need to be given room for expansion and expression. When God is calling we need to answer. - my take on your post. - blessings Diane - chrism , Diane Baugh <cdgbdronningen wrote: > > This sounds so mundane, but it has become a real problem! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 4, 2009 Report Share Posted November 4, 2009 Charism asked how I (Diane) feel about surrendering to the Christ force within in a more complete way and less attached to the mundane way? I have felt like I've been living someone else's life for a long time. I was an only child, and felt my parents had expectations as to what my life " should " be. I think if I'd been raised Catholic, I would have entered a convent. I was raised protestant, but have attended the Catholic church since 2003. I yearned to change my faith to Catholic earlier in my current 38 year marriage, but didn't for the sake of family unity. I know of each of the saints you mentioned, Charism. I first read the " Dark Night of the Soul "  when I started meditating at age 12. I didn't understand all of it on an intellectual level, but there was a deep, wordless, soul resonance and a joy beyond words. But there was also an awareness that this " Gift " separated me from those I loved, and a part of me was reluctant to allow that separation. I think that is also holding me back now; my husband and son need me, yet I long for the fulfillment of who God made me to be. I have always had a deep concern that accepting the sensory manifestations could be a temptation away from the God ,whose I am, leading to an increase of ego to self will, rather than a surrender of self will to God. I guess, I don't experience K and God as being one and the same, but rather K as being the servant of God, being used of God to bring forth His will. Respect, honor and gratitude from Diane gift  ________________________________ <> Wed, November 4, 2009 6:50:47 PM Re: Thanks and Problem  It is always best to have a family member step up to the plate with regard to taking over some of the day to day business responsibilities. If this isnt an option then an accounting firm can do this. Check these options out and have a look at your control issues if you are reticent. Holy Fire is going to have its way with you my dear friend. It will begin to gently(as it is doing) take away your mundane tasks that have occupied you for so long. This the time for the divine expression, within you since the age of three, to have its time in the inner Sun that is being lit up within you. You may have your focus on business affairs returned to you at a later time but for now you may wish to consider the divine expression as needing to have some time for expression. How do you feel about this? How do you feel about surrendering to the Christ force within in a more complete way and less attached to the mundane way? Thee comes a time in the awakening process where these areas will need to be given room for expansion and expression. When God is calling we need to answer. - my take on your post. - blessings Diane - chrism Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , Diane Baugh <cdgbdronningen@ ...> wrote: > > This sounds so mundane, but it has become a real problem! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 4, 2009 Report Share Posted November 4, 2009 Kundalini or the force of the divine doesnt " need " to separate anyone from any part of the family. Through the divine expansiveness a greater range of interaction and compassionate understanding can be achieved. When we walk in forgiveness as a major expressive reality getting bothered by family issues is a distant choice. - my take - blessings Diane. - chrism Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 5, 2009 Report Share Posted November 5, 2009 Dear diane..this does not sound mundane at all...I did n9t want to pass your post with out acknowledging it... I will leave it to othes to offer insight...I am not getting any insight that would be helpful to you. I guess haveing just said that..lol I am now going to say that you are listening to K allready so maybe it is about trusting that process? How to do that and to manage your finances though I have no clue.. I know others will have suggestions for you. Love Julia , Diane Baugh <cdgbdronningen wrote: > > > > Dear Charism and All: Thank you for the warm welcome! I know I'm going to like it here and learn from and with you. I am dealing with a problem, perhaps a " will " problem, but I'm not sure what the root cause might be. I would be grateful for any insight anyone would care to share: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 5, 2009 Report Share Posted November 5, 2009 Dear Diane... I do understand the struggle and concern with the sensory manifestations.... even now when some sensory manifestations are given I wonder what on earth they have to do with God. But that has been ok to wonder... what I am finding is that when I surrender to them without condition then something else unfolds and I am amazed at what if given. I do not fear any more.. escept momentarily..that these sensory manifistations are a temptation away form God ..my experience is that they are not and they move me more towards him and his merciful love and I think that K is His Divine " will be done " ... I have stopped trying to figure out if K is actually God or not or if it is Holy Spirtit... I do know that it is Holy Fire and that it is from God... and then I am reminded of the fish...the fish is in the ocean and the ocean is in the fish....I am in K and K is in me... I am in God and God is in me.... Now I am swimming in the ocean of divine K and loving it.. even the whirlpools...lol Love Julia , Diane Baugh <cdgbdronningen wrote: > ...... I have always had a deep concern that accepting the sensory manifestations could be a temptation away from the God ,whose I am, leading to an increase of ego to self will, rather than a surrender of self will to God. I guess, I don't experience K and God as being one and the same, but rather K as being the servant of God, being used of God to bring forth His will. Respect, honor and gratitude from Diane > gift > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 5, 2009 Report Share Posted November 5, 2009 ....even the whirlpools. Love: Danielle , " Julia " <jajahern wrote: > > Dear Diane... >> Now I am swimming in the ocean of divine K and loving it.. even the whirlpools...lol > > Love Julia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 5, 2009 Report Share Posted November 5, 2009 Dear Danielle... yes even the whirlpools.. but lol maybe sometimes in retrospect! ..... maybe whirlpool is not quite the right image to have in the imagery of the ocean of divine K... but a big breakwater would possibly be.. and maybe getting stuck on the breakwater before going into a calm shore.... ( until the tide brings me back again !) I am very grateful for the recent " whirlpool " I could not now feel this gratitude for my past expeeriences if I had not got stuck on the breakwater...I needed that time to process I needed time to see and be shown ...my coming to this point of my existance... I don't understand the process really..all I know is that after a while of being on the breakwater after i looked at past happenings and emotions and went over them again and again and then... I began to forgive and accept and really know that all my experiences were there bringing me to be where I am now... I always knew that in my head but to know that in my body and spirit is a very different thing... I am going on too much so I am stopping now...lol! LOve Julia. , " iamwaitingmoon " <iamwaitingmoon wrote: > > ...even the whirlpools. > > Love: > Danielle > > , " Julia " <jajahern@> wrote: > > > > Dear Diane... > >> Now I am swimming in the ocean of divine K and loving it.. even the whirlpools...lol > > > > Love Julia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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