Welcome to Weirdness

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Those are the words Deb wrote after i said i would participate in the Shaktipat

of last Autumn. Once again she was so right.

 

(this is just me wanting to share some of what has happened lately within and

without, nothing important, so if in a hurry feel free to skip this post)

 

 

I have been having buzzes in my hands, legs and nuts, sometimes it feels like

i'm standing on a glass of soda (the bubbles you know). Strong buzzes on and

sometimes around my head. Very strong shakes.

 

Few days back my left big toe got painfull, soon after i got so tired i had to

lay down. The pain got less prominent and strange warmth begun to move up the

left leg rising half way to thigh. On a coulple of days I've had to get to bed

around 1 pm. then i've layed there hovering somewhere between sleep and

meditative state. It's been like someking of a forced trance.

 

The lights have been flickering sometimes when i travel on the subway. They

almost vibrate and the rate of vibration is in sync with the vibration i feel

within at those times and they have never (in 10 years) done this so i can only

think of one culprit Sometimes having computer problems and my digital

receiver for TV has begun malfunctioning in a strange way. Luckily theres

warranty still left on it.

 

Today i got really sad in the evening. That sadness led to crying as usual. But

after that catharsis i had the strangest kriya: from standing i was guided to

bend over and bend my knees. Then to put my hands down almost on the ground and

spread the writs in opposite directions. So i was almost on all fours. Then I

felt a need to moo bit like a cow ....i could take this for some time but

then i begun laughing because it was so ridiculous :D Well, I did want to

experience an animal kriya when i read about them I wasn't forced into the

position, but there was more like a need to do it.

 

I only want to eat very little meat now and my ego is deminishing without me

really having to work for it to happen.

 

There are a few drawbacks to this though like some of my friends being a little

startled because i'm changing and don't fit nicely in the old " box " anymore and

the high prices for anything fresh here since the winter is beginning. Also my

personal life is somewaht difficult, but that has been the case for about two

years now.

 

To sum it up: I love all the weird sensations!

 

Love and Blessings,

Aarni