to the rescue - K Test of the morning

November 6, 2009

Chrism to the rescue - Thank you

So I just had a pretty intense little experience this morning. I had a

" nightmare, " a test and basically a reminder, to keep my focus on love.

The dream began, at this small bar in the middle of this empty lobby in a hotel.

There was no real lights on in the bar, but there was a lot of natural light

coming in from the glass walls of the lobby. It was cloudy and grey outside and

the overall feeling was very dreary. I was with someone from High school helping

out. Apparently I was " working " at this bar. At some point it was shown to me

that there was a row of medium sized " shiva linghams " about 7-9 of them, all

lined up on the top shelf. I was cautioned that they were infused with this

really dark energy. For some reason it was my job to take care of them, and no

one else wanted to deal with it. I don't remember exactly what I was supposed

to do with them other than take on the responsibility of having them in my

" ownership " . No one else wanted anything to do with them. In the dream it was

implied that the shiva linghams and this dark energy was the " dark kundalini " . I

don't know what that means, like the " dark side of the kundalini " ? So I did my

work at the bar. Keeping notice of these stones. At first I thought they were

creepy but I became used to having them around. At some point I was told that

they could be used to help you progress a little faster, you just have to be

careful. Eventually over a period of time, in the dream it seemed like a week, I

became addicted to having them around me. I had to have them around, because it

was that agreement but after awhile I began incorporating them in everything I

did, like I had them in the sink as I was cleaning the dishes, all over the bar,

in my pockets, etc...

Any time I used them this really creepy music would come out of them. I don't

remember how exactly I used them, I think I just extracted " energy " from them.

Eventually at some point, the other person who I was working with came back to

the bar and found me eating chicken uncontrollably and I was not myself, like I

was being influenced by these stones. Everyone was sort of disgusted by the

situation, they didn't want those shiva linghams around. I had them all over,

they were in the bar food, and they were " contaminating " everything. Meanwhile I

was becoming really " distorted " and was completely hypnotized by the shiva

linghams. I know there was a lot more to the dream, there was this whole portion

of the dream about my Datura garden, and something else but I don't remember

now.

At some point the scenery switches and I'm in my room. I want to say it was

almost like I was experiencing a false awakening in the dream, but the first

thing I notice was the overall feeling in the room. All I could feel was

darkness, it was so, sooo, dark, demonic and evil feeling. I was terrified, and

I was getting all these thoughts like, I had done this to myself, everything

that I worked up to at this point had an " evil seed " and everything in my life

was infused with these " evil seeds " and there was no escape. Like basically

everything in my life up to this point was a lie, and there was somehow evil

intentions even behind the most loving things in my life. Even my brugmansias I

had overwintering in my room/the basement, were somehow impregnated with this

evil. This feeling wanted me to feel like its all my fault, I somehow caused

this evil, to feel guilty, and any pain I experienced from this is my own fault.

It just went on and on, and as this was going that demonic feeling progressively

continued to saturate the overall ambience of the room. My room had lights on

(this is still in the dream) but everything just was so " dark " and saturated

with a feeling of pure dread, and awfulness. Pacing back and forth, " oh crap,

what am I going to do? This is all my fault! What have I done? " I really thought

at this point that I was awake. I kept thinking, " If there was ever a time where

I needed to call for help, this would probably be it, but I shouldn't

because its all my fault and he probably doesn't want to hear about it. Its my

fault and I should deal with it on my own. " At this point my thinking was

completely irrational, I started to believe these thoughts that I was fed. I

started frantically calling in Christ Consciousness, and Arch Angel Michael to

clear the room of all negativity and to fill me and the room with Christ

Consciousness. I wasn't convinced that the room was clear. Then all of a sudden

I feel my pocket vibrate. I look down and I see that I got a picture message. I

opened it up and it was a little picture of a sunflower and a honey bee.

Underneath it asked me if I wanted to " accept " the message. It was Chrism,

calling me to remind me to focus on love. I immediately remembered, " O yea!!!

Love! " and everything instantly went back to normal and then I woke up.

I immediately opened the computer to write this down. As I am reviewing this, I

realize this closely relates to the last kundalini dream I had. At first I sort

of took this the wrong way, like maybe there was something in my subconscious

that was tempted to resist the current path that I am on and basically go the

other way, but then I realized something. This is just a test, like a review of

the things I have learned up until this point. I am thankful for this test. I

notice a lot of times with these dream tests, I am not always lucid... So I may

experience a similar test multiple times before I get it right in the dream,

then I move on to the next one. If I am lucid in the dream, its easier to pass

the test the first time around.

Afterwards I went back to sleep and I had another dream of being operated on and

having new lungs and intestines put into me. They kept injecting me with

something to knock me out but it wasn't working. I could feel them working on

me. I was giving them a hard time. They were trying to put these huge organs in

me that were like twice the size of my current ones. I wasn't lucid at all and

it never occurred to me that this was possibly the dismemberment that Chrism

mentioned in a previous post.

So I had a pretty interesting morning...

- Matt

November 6, 2009

Yes you have had a bzz bzz busy time Matt! The dark path is usually a fast path

that attracts those of us in a hurry to get enlightened or have the gifts of

enlightenment without any of the conditioning work. Or who wish to use Kundalini

as a vector for hurtful intentions. So this was a very good lesson for you and

for this community! Thank you for posting it Matt! - blessings and LOVE for you

my friend. - chrism

, " astraltraveler1984 "

<mjf84 wrote:

>

> to the rescue - Thank you

November 6, 2009

Dear Matt,

This is a very interesting and vivid experience.

Lately I've been thinking about this also, the issue of balance. There is a

counterpart for everything.

In a dream I saw a beautiful white creature come close to me, watching me and

staying in my vicinity. Near it I saw a black shape. I looked again, and I saw

that what I first thought was a shadow was a black creature in its own right;

the complete mirror image of the white creature, its twin.

Love, Sandra

, " astraltraveler1984 "

<mjf84 wrote:

>

> to the rescue - Thank you

>

> So I just had a pretty intense little experience this morning. I had a

" nightmare, " a test and basically a reminder, to keep my focus on love.

>

> The dream began, at this small bar in the middle of this empty lobby in a

hotel. There was no real lights on in the bar, but there was a lot of natural

light coming in from the glass walls of the lobby. It was cloudy and grey

outside and the overall feeling was very dreary. I was with someone from High

school helping out. Apparently I was " working " at this bar. At some point it was

shown to me that there was a row of medium sized " shiva linghams " about 7-9 of

them, all lined up on the top shelf. I was cautioned that they were infused

with this really dark energy. For some reason it was my job to take care of

them, and no one else wanted to deal with it. I don't remember exactly what I

was supposed to do with them other than take on the responsibility of having

them in my " ownership " . No one else wanted anything to do with them. In the

dream it was implied that the shiva linghams and this dark energy was the " dark

kundalini " . I don't know what that means, like the " dark side of the kundalini " ?

So I did my work at the bar. Keeping notice of these stones. At first I thought

they were creepy but I became used to having them around. At some point I was

told that they could be used to help you progress a little faster, you just have

to be careful. Eventually over a period of time, in the dream it seemed like a

week, I became addicted to having them around me. I had to have them around,

because it was that agreement but after awhile I began incorporating them in

everything I did, like I had them in the sink as I was cleaning the dishes, all

over the bar, in my pockets, etc...

>

> Any time I used them this really creepy music would come out of them. I don't