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My kriyas have taken an interesting turn in the last 12 hours. It started when I

was finally falling asleep last night. I felt this painful stabbing pain on my

left side solar plexus area. As if an gigantic needle went right in my back. I

jumped in pain in shock and started falling asleep after a few minutes. Then

pooof there it was again. I jumped again in more pain.

 

I was starting to fall asleep again when I suddenly had a painful realization

that made my eyes open wide. I am a very selfish person. I always have been. I

only think of myself and have been this way since I was a kid. I realized how I

truly hurt people. Suddenly I felt this great release. I was overjoyed.

 

I never knew I was selfish. In fact I always felt I was the opposite. Nope. Not

the case. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I was thankful that I finally knew.

The hole in my heart went away. I realized my fear of being hurt was guilt. That

my fear of someone getting me was because I knew I deserved it. Ding!

 

When I had that realization my kriyas changed.

 

Suddenly I was literally being massaged. They changed from that quick muscle

spasm sensation to something else entirely. My muscles were being rolled and my

ears were penetrated by an invisible tendril. At first I was in shock and it

became more and more pleasurable. I grew used to the sensation. My spine was

rolling. My head had this internal battle drum. My entire bed was moving

underneath me with the rolling physical energy surrounding me.

 

The spot where I was stabbed initally was popping and rumbling with energy. The

block was passed through.

 

All night I had dreams of bright orange. Fire. Inmates being released.

 

I kept waking up to another muscle group being rolled over.

 

I have zero doubt now about the energy. I cant ever doubt it again. I am so glad

I have this realization now.

 

I always wondered why everyone said, why dont you ever call me? You seem so

distant....

 

Because I was. I was selfish and cold.

 

And now... I am going to buy flowers for everyone I know. I am going to make it

right. I now know the nagging in your heart is for a reason. That feeling of

dread is for a reason. And perhaps, just maybe... it's my own doing.

 

Just an update =)

 

Tiffany S