Bruce Fighting your body

[Guest guest]

hi Bruce,

 

Thanks for replying to my post. I never looked at it as surrender as I always

believed that to surrender was to give up something you wanted to keep. Like

surrendering your land to enemies or surrendering your car to thieves. But you

are correct as it is an act of giving up control of your body to

something/someone else. Its a wonderful feeling though, as it is an act of

surrender for my own good.

 

Blessings, Iona x

[Guest guest]

Hi Iona

 

good to hear from you. I cant remember what I wrote (haha...) yet I am glad it

was useful to you.

 

This raised more thoughts on surrender for me and its such a profound concept I

feel I would like to ramble on a bit, and this is not directed at you, rather

its my process that is unfolding.

 

First is a book I read by Catherine Marshall, a Christian writer from the 50's

and 60's on prayer, and one of the prayers is the prayer of relinquishemnt. She

had been bedridden for a couple of years with tuberculosis, and had been praying

for healing, people and prayed for her, her husband had had a powerful ministry,

yet nothing had happened. Finally one day she said 'Lord, if you mean for me to

be sick and die, then so be it'. She said she felt a real shift after that

moment of surrender, and that afternoon she started to get better.

 

I have been spending a lot of time in my apartment the last month, focused on

identifying what I next need to do. Looking for a job was stressing me out, and

even though I have little money, I decided not to look any more and surrender

the process to God. I stopped, and was hit by some deep survival fears, yet I

stayed committed to stopping, and I have tapped into a deeper source of joy on

the other side of the fears, and what has emerged is a very clear life purpose

which I am committed to fulfill. (I got no idea how to do it... The Holy Spirit

and Shakti will have to teach me.. haha). The point is that I had to surrender

to the possibility of any fate happening to me, including living in a park if

that was to be my destiny, and being ok with that. Self-regard became a

non-issue in the light of pursuing my purpose, and so surrender also means an

opening and willigness to accept the worse case scenario.

 

I found that if I dont surrender to that deep worst case scenario (and it could

be death, poverty, aloneness or whatever), then at some deep level my mind is

still focused on avoiding that scenario, and I am always taking unconscious or

conscious actions to avoid that situation coming true, and that seems to bring

into manifestation what I am trying to avoid.

 

 

I also found my mind has a tendancy to hijack the concept of surrender, as in

'if I surrender then I will get what I want'. That is still the ego mind being

tricky, and surrender will not be authentic. In essence surrender seems to be

the radical giving up of any resistance to any fate.

 

I am experimenting with a type of manifestation prayer at present, where I say

prayers with intensity and my whole being, then meditate where I drop any

attachment to the prayer.. letting God know what I want, then releasing the way

to Him. This way I keep my peace, my sanity (haha) and dont get in the way of

God... (and Goddess)

 

love and peace

Bruce

 

 

 

, " ionaskydancer "

<ionaskydancer wrote:

>

> hi Bruce,

>

> Thanks for replying to my post. I never looked at it as surrender as I always

believed that to surrender was to give up something you wanted to keep. Like

surrendering your land to enemies or surrendering your car to thieves. But you

are correct as it is an act of giving up control of your body to

something/someone else. Its a wonderful feeling though, as it is an act of

surrender for my own good.

>

> Blessings, Iona x

>