How do I heal this?

[Guest guest]

Good morning. I want to thank you for your kind thoughts and words of

encouragement and support. Thanks, chrism, for the reminder to wait for clarity

before acting, and Diane for your blessings of discernment, Jake and Danielle

for the reminders that we are here to love one another, and Craig for the

permission to just grieve. I also want to thank you, K-ma, and my ancestors,

helpers and spirits of this land, for your comfort, support and doctoring to

help me through this difficulty.

 

As I am preparing to go up to the hospital this afternoon to pass on the comfort

I have received, I am aware that on the inside, I am still struggling with a big

loss from another life, and I wanted to ask your insight into how to help this

part of myself heal and move on.

 

On another timeline, a different aspect of myself, with whom I have close ties,

is undergoing the process of colonization and the end of the world. He is the

leader of a small ragtag remnant of a larger group; a reluctant leader, thrust

into the position by circumstances of age, fate and gender. Outnumbered by the

invaders' troops, he negotiates a withdrawal, only to be slaughtered at sunrise

in an ambush by the reneging general's army. As he leaves his body, he sees the

crumpled forms of his women and children lying bloodied in the grass, and is

filled with anguish, remorse and self-blame. He fights to stay in his body but

cannot. He floats over to the general's tent, wanting a do-over, but is unable

to change anything.

 

I came into this life remembering, acting this out in my childhood play,

suffering recurring dreams into my adulthood of leading a group of women and

children to safety, only to be ambushed and killed. I have done various types of

work on this, and consciously forgave the friend in this life who was the

general in that life, but still feel an extraordinary sense of duty,

responsibility, anguish and grief.

 

How do I heal this? I know there are parallels between his life and mine, but

there are differences as well. How do I take the best of that experience, and

let go of what is not " mine " ? I try to reach out and link to him and help him

see that we all lived beyond that and have come back together in this life, but

the fact that we live on does not seem to be the issue so much as the sense of

responsibility and urgency to promote life and healing and unity across

differences.

 

How do I do this? How have you helped those other aspects of your selves? How do

we all come together to bridge?

 

Praying Peace for All,

Shaz

[Guest guest]

Hello Shaz,

I have helped overcome past life trauma for myself by trying to understand

the purpose of the life. Perhaps...acceptance of what you cannot control.

Just a thought.

Thank you for sharing.

Carla

 

2009/11/15 shaktiaz <shaktiaz

 

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>

> Good morning. I want to thank you for your kind thoughts and words of

> encouragement and support. Thanks, chrism, for the reminder to wait for

> clarity before acting, and Diane for your blessings of discernment

>

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hi Shaz,

One can keep everyone in white light,give your love and healing to them

including yourself.By violet light meditation one can remove all the negativity

on emotional,physical and psychological level from past present and future.This

is how I deal with.You can follow any path of your choice to overcome any sort

of stress/trauma from past..............shrikant

 

 

 

 

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Carla & Patrick <bowenhealth

 

Sun, 15 November, 2009 9:00:44 PM

Re: How do I heal this?

 

 

Hello Shaz,

I have helped overcome past life trauma for myself by trying to understand

the purpose of the life. Perhaps...acceptanc e of what you cannot control.

Just a thought.

Thank you for sharing.

Carla

 

2009/11/15 shaktiaz <shaktiaz >

 

>

>

> Good morning. I want to thank you for your kind thoughts and words of

> encouragement and support. Thanks, chrism, for the reminder to wait for

> clarity before acting, and Diane for your blessings of discernment

>

 

 

[Guest guest]

By living your life this time for the aspect of love and forgiveness. This can

bring the balancing that you are asking for. These are the keys to your movement

from being stuck in another time to releasing the emotional conflict.

 

If you forgive deeply enough you may be able to realize that all are learning

from the lives that are lived. The rapist and the raped the liar and the lied

too. The murderer and the murdered are all living to learn and some of these

learnings are very extreme. No one is innocent. No one gets out of this school

until both parts have been played and those corrections given for those parts

played and learned from.

 

You can move on from this by consciously making that choice and by c0onsciously

choosing not to emulate any of the hurtful behaviors that were the points of the

education.

 

Betrayal, lust for power, conquering others, greed, blood lust, evilness, lies,

hatred, grudges, are all part of the lesson plan. Just as all of the opposite

qualities are also part of the lesson plan.

 

So we go into our lives knowing what some of the possible probabilities are and

we (brave souls that we are) make the choice to have that life, that group of

lessons, that experience, that painful learning, that joyful learning, and all

of the in between learnings.

 

We jump into that void for the love of our spiritual evolution. For the love of

moving in a greater and greater refinement. For the opportunity to become that

which we are becoming now in THIS life.

 

THIS life is the fruit of all others. And yes in this life you are making

different choices and have balanced much of the very very difficult experiences

from others. This is good! Now focus on this life and let the other classrooms

be as they were and use these accrued learnings to propel you further and

further along your path without being attached to the atrocities of one lesson

plan but by embracing the totality of the great being you are!

 

Kundalini is a gift of this totality. You have had to have the experiences you

have had in order to be where you are and as you are in this present. This life

is the DO OVER! So know and understand that your new and wiser choices can begin

to shine forth and illuminate the continued path you are taking. Walk with and

in forgiveness. - blessings Shaktiaz - chrism

 

, " shaktiaz " <shaktiaz

wrote:

>

> Good morning. I want to thank you for your kind thoughts and words of

encouragement and support

[Guest guest]

Here is a fine

degree of clarity

that burrows

into the palm

of the hand

with energy

voiceless

imaginary

more real then lightning of mind

 

Breaking the silence

that turns around

the double edge of seeing

I have called you

into the night moon

because we have come

to learn the end of waiting.

 

Lie back into the arms of the

Great Mother, and let her guide

your path. It is now to let

your will rest, Little Wolf.

 

-Danielle

 

, " shaktiaz " <shaktiaz

wrote:

>

 

>

> How do I do this? How have you helped those other aspects of your selves? How

do we all come together to bridge?

>

> Praying Peace for All,

> Shaz

>

[Guest guest]

It's not about forgiving others. It's about forgiving myself for missing

something and making mistakes which cost the lives of others. Learning to trust

my judgment. Learning to identify the boundaries of responsibility, awareness

and control.

 

It's about showing up with heart, all of my heart and all of my soul, giving it

all and risking it all and letting it be broken to smithereens.

 

It's about accepting that I make terrible mistakes even when I am doing my best

and trying my hardest, and that others do, too, and learning to forgive myself

and risk it all again anyway, over and over and over.

 

And it's about being grateful that others are willing to do the same.

 

That's what it's about. For me. And I hope to find my peace with it someday.

Shaz

 

<> wrote:

>

> By living your life this time for the aspect of love and forgiveness. This can

bring the balancing that you are asking for. These are the keys to your movement

from being stuck in another time to releasing the emotional conflict.

>

> If you forgive deeply enough you may be able to realize that all are learning

from the lives that are lived. The rapist and the raped the liar and the lied

too. The murderer and the murdered are all living to learn and some of these

learnings are very extreme. No one is innocent.

[Guest guest]

Shaz,

 

I feel a little out of my element here, but I will say what came to me upon

reading....

 

I feel that you need to forgive yourself. It was another lifetime. You acted

dharmically. What happened after that was due to karma, not personal failure.

Allow yourself to let go of the feelings of duty, responsibility, anguish and

grief.

 

The group of women and children you led in that lifetime have moved on to new

forms of expression, incarnate or not. You do not need to lead them to safety

in this lifetime. Pray to the Divine that they each may be healed from the

traumas of the past and that they may be led to whatever experiences now serve

their ultimate highest good. Ask that Shakti's love flow through you to them,

and then release them into the hands of the Divine. Let them go.

 

If you currently have relationships with any of them in this lifetime, act

dharmically and lovingly. Be in the present. Let present circumstances, love,

and Shakti's guidance instruct your interactions with them in this lifetime,

rather than leftover samskaras from past experiences.

 

Love and blessings,

 

David

[Guest guest]

Thank you, David, for your kindness and guidance. You are indeed in your

element.

 

Yes, self-forgiveness is what it's about for me. Also trusting my judgment,

making the best decision I can with the information I have available to me, and

letting go of the outcome. That is the crux of it, the overlap between his last

experience in life and my continuation of the Journey.

 

Recent events are forcing this issue and bringing it to a head for me, literally

- ow!

 

I went to the hospital yesterday afternoon to visit the person I care for who

tried to kill themselves. I left feeling awful. Questioning myself, doubting

myself. I awoke several times in the night feeling slimed, and I have had a

headache, neck ache and jaw ache all day. I normally feel rather robust, so this

is getting my attention!

 

They say self-conflict is at the root of all other conflict. I've been

struggling with the question of whether to remain engaged with this person.

Earlier today I was thinking it was too soon to decide, and maybe it still is,

so I was focussing on exploring my own intentions, motivations, courage, faith,

and willingness to be led.

 

I am willing to be led. I am willing to change course if need be, if that is

what I am being guided to do. And I am willing to wait for clarity before I act.

 

More things happened today which make me think this person is being actively

manipulative and deceitful, and I have to decide what I am going to do. Usually

I am forgiving and willing to re-engage when someone owns up to a mistake and

shows that they are willing to set things right. I'm not so sure that is what's

happening here, so I am seriously considering saying enough is enough.

 

I guess that is what I am wrestling with. Am I willing to say my trust has been

broken too many times, too much is at stake, I can't live like this, and I am

not willing to walk with you any longer?

 

I have to trust that in saying no to their self-destructive behavior, that I am

allying myself with their healing. I have to trust that I have done my best to

help them on their path, and leave it at that. I have to trust in the unfolding

of things, and know that they have their own help and guidance beyond anything I

could ever provide. I have to trust, and let go, and believe in the goodness

which is coming their way once I step out of the way.

 

This is so hard. I don't want to go through another night wrestling with this. I

need to be centered so I can do what I am here to do. I need to turn this over

to Creator, go outside and get some doctoring, and get some rest.

 

Thank you, David, and everyone, for sharing your words of guidance and support.

This is a huge challenge and lesson for me. I am leaning on you now, and I may

need to keep leaning on you again and again, to help me get through it.

 

Praying peace and awaiting clarity,

Shaz

 

--- dgottlieb wrote:

> Shaz, I feel a little out of my element here, but I will say what came to me

upon reading.... I feel that you need to forgive yourself.

[Guest guest]

>

> Thank you, David, and everyone, for sharing your words of guidance and

support. This is a huge challenge and lesson for me. I am leaning on you now,

and I may need to keep leaning on you again and again, to help me get through

it.

>

 

You are welcome. It is a gift from Shakti that we are here. I open my heart

and send love. Namaste!

 

Blessings,

 

David