Doing-Not Doing Students Respond 2

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Dear Chrism:  Maybe because my journey has been one of decades, I have not tried

to recapture " the first time " , except just after it occurred on 10/14/93.  But

that " first time " experience was in a sense a second time for me, the first time

being the OBE at age three, which was a deeper more expansive experience than

the 10/93 experience, even though the OBE was not accompanied by the ecstasy of

the 10/93 experience.  When I had the 10/93 kundalini fulfillment, it was the

closest experience to the OBE , but it differed in that ecstasy had not been a

part of the OBE.  All my life I have been longing for a return to that wordless

unity, without labels or identity.  I have known since the 10/93

kundalini  fulfillment that Kundalini was the key to a RETURN to Unity for me,

and so the phenomena have not been a temptation for me.  I accept them, but do

not try for them or covet them.  What I long for is BEYOND bliss, and so even

bliss, though

wonderful is NOT " IT " .  Therefore , I do not " miss " the bliss when it ebbs, I

welcome it's absence as less of a distraction.  I have waited for a teacher for

years, and when I saw your picture, I recognized what I saw in your eyes and

knew that you did in fact KNOW.  I have never had a verbal conversation with you

and have never heard your voice except on the tibetan videos, yet I have a sense

that on a very deep level, beneath the conscious mind I am " hearing " teaching in

your voice and would recognize your voice among many because I already knew it. 

Yes, I realize that is just a man: it is the kundalini acting within you

to which I am directing my words.  So I guess in summation I would say:  I am

not seeking the peak kundalini experience; I am longing for a RETURN to the

wordless UNITY I experienced during the OBE at age 3, and there are no words

adequate to describe that experience.  

Respect, Honor, Gratitude and Love  from Diane