Attachments and expectations

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Your issues are perhaps your attachments and expectations.

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> The fact of your feelings and hurt being effected is as a way of showing you

where your attachment to these actions and this person can be released as they

currently serve you not.

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Dear and all,

This was helpful to me as well. I've had some subtler interactions with people

as well that have left me feeling a little hurt, bothered, etc. One was a woman

who is erratic in her interactions with me anyway. The other day, I ran into

her and she was seemingly getting sick, coughing, nasal stuff, etc. I mentioned

it and she said yea and I stepped back a little saying I didn't want to get sick

but if she needed anything...then she stepped really close to me, closer than

she ever does, and started talking in my face. I thought what the hell is that

about? Another was with a dance teacher, a guy who doesn't give much eye

contact, who asked me a question and when i was answering, jumped up and walked

away. Weird, weird, weird. What I'm understanding here is that in light of

what you said here Chrism, these interactions and more importantly, my responses

to them are elucidating areas to let go.

 

I came across a practice statement in a little meditation book I'm using on

forgiveness that says " at this point in your journey, ponder what forgiveness

means to you. " In the physical realm, it means releasing these little pockets

of tightness in my heart where I hold on to hurts, anger, disappointment, etc.

To do this, its identifying the content of these pockets. In fact, my heart

right now feels like a volcano about to errupt as the contents are coming up

closer to the surface. A long time ago I read a definition of stinginess:

guarding ones emptiness. I applied it at the time to a boyfriend but now see

how equally applicable it has been to me. Forgiveness towards myself is letting

go of past ways of behaving & perceiving myself and living forward in new open

ways.

Love and blessings,

Jan