Danielle-with understanding

[Guest guest]

Hi Danielle,

 

I read your post some days ago about the lies coming out in your relationship.

Like many men and women I have also experienced the same pain. My situation

involved children so it was even more painful for me and them. It seemed as if

there was only one winner in the whole sorry mess, and this was the man who had

caused it all. Many nights I would lay awake not sleeping and churning

everything over and over in my head, making myself feel worse with every

thought-bringing myself closer to suicide as each day passed.

 

Then one day someone suggested I write my thoughts down in a book, as they came

to me. Those raw painful thoughts that I found hard to share with others, and if

I did share, others could not truly understand. I remember that I cried every

day for 5yrs and I really believed that I would never have another day free of

tears.

 

So I started to write. Sometimes only a few lines, other days I wrote page after

page of tear stained emotions that I needed to rid from my brain.  I carried the

book around with me everywhere and one day I was asked why? " Because it allowed

me to nail my demons on a page " was my answer. The following is a piece I wrote

after talking to my daughter who I had not seen for 7yrs. Last time she gave me

a hug she was 11yrs old and she was now a woman at 18yrs. She had just found out

her father has been lying to her ever since I had left them.

 

" She didn't talk for long but what she said touched me very deeply. I had been

through it all myself and she bought back to me all those painful memories that

were etched deep in my soul. Carved blood-red on my being like tribal scars of

initiation. I felt over whelmed with my pain, her pain and the pain of so many

women facing the fact that their lives had been changed for ever. No longer

trusting, not able to forgive. Never to be sure of themselves again. It hurt so

much I wanted to drown in my tears, be enveloped by them so I would float away

into eternity to a place where pain would never reach me again. "

 

Remember Danielle, Keep strong, 'as this too will pass'

 

Much love & blessings to you,

 

Iona x

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Thank you Skydancer (Iona) for your soul-felt sharing. What do you know, but it

does help to sit within the silence and calm, to experience the pain and to

express as well as to listen-not with ears but with my heart, and as importantly

to let go of the branch suspended above and sink into the cool yet warm depths

below. To experience and reflect and to now know. Sometimes I think it takes the

sharing from a choir of voices all unique in personal experience in order to see

the world, it's players and stage from the perspective of love and unity.

 

Thank you and love to you.

-Danielle

 

, iona winton

<ionaskydancer wrote:

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> Hi Danielle,

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> I read your post some days ago about the lies coming out in your relationship.