What is this death? - Coming home

[Guest guest]

The kundalini process will eventually bring you home to the divine within the

context of this body, and then there will be no more felt painful separation,

from society, others or nature

 

love

Bruce

 

, " ionaskydancer "

<ionaskydancer wrote:

>

> Dear Danielle,

>

> I always enjoy reading your posts and often feelings you are having resonate

with things I have experienced or given great thought to. We are all your

friends Danielle even if we are apart from you at this time. As I read this post

I did so with tears running down my cheeks. They were hot tears that seemed to

burn valleys down the sides of my face.

>

> The feelings you are having are feelings that cross my mind many times. I have

tried to follow through more than once when times had been hard, but they were

more like cries for help, for someone to lift me up from this earthly pain and

take me to a place where I could rest & never feel pain again.

>

> As I have come to realise more and more that we are all connected as part of

one whole, these feelings rear again. I see other peoples pain and unhappiness

and realise it is also my pain and your pain, but as one person this earthly

pain is overwhelming. Then like you, I see the beauty in nature and the taste of

the seasonal vegetables which are giving my body the strength to see this winter

through, and things feel a little better.

>

> Yes it is the deep yearning to meet and become part of the divine (whatever it

may be). The feeling of finally coming home after a long, arduous, cold & lonely

journey and to sit by the fire and be embraced by those who 'truly' know us. But

we must trust in this higher being because if it was our time, Danielle, we

would be told. I do hope your mind and heart can soon be rested, as I too pray

for rest and also deeper understanding.

>

> Blessings, Iona x

>

> , " iamwaitingmoon "

<iamwaitingmoon@> wrote:

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> > All~

> > This is a difficult topic, as it often leads to concern for others.

> > It's not really something I can chat about with my friends over lunch.

> > I'm wondering about death. I experience the " need " to die so often, and it

usually is a pulling that is so difficult to describe. It comes after a major

breaking, shattering away or unpeelling of a layer. My mind gets confused about

the feeling and the longing type of feeling, as i already struggle with feeling

out of place with talking up residence on this beautiful planet earth. I don't

anticipate that it is my Danielle death, but honestly I cannot tell sometimes. I

don't feel depressed or hopeless...the contrary, and have boughts of grief-but

that's of healing and release. It's puzzling trying to discern such. I would

guess it's what you have referred to as an ego death, but how frequently does

this occur? Is this repeated over and over, and a newbirth experienced as like

what has been so for me on a few occasions now? Or is this supposed to be a one

time ordeal that leads to transformation, and I happen to be stuck on repeat?

I'm at a place of disconnect from my prior dream teachers/guides and many

people; I seldom recall any dreams; I have difficulty meditating; Kriyas have

come and gone (with the exception of the whale calls few days ago); I'm

captivated by natures beauty as always, and long to crawl under her soil

blanket, or lounge upon the moon. It feels like I'm further than ever from the

Divine, and yet have that oh so strong pulling to connect. What is this

declination-this variance that leaves me this inbetween and pulling to " die " ?

> >

> > *let me reiterate that there are no concerns about me wanting to take my

life...just trying to understand the rawness and pull of such in relation to

Kundalini.

> >

> > Love and thank you.

> > ~Danielle

> >

>

[Guest guest]

I just wanted to say that I too resonate with all of the posts here to

Danielle. I have had those same feelings, like I just don't belong here (in

this world) or want to be here, many, many times. This has led to the desire to

" escape " to a better place through meditation and the study of the spiritual

world most all of my life. I also cannot bare " other people's pain " and often

feel shocked by those who treat others badly and don't seem to care or

comprehend how that effects them. It leaves me stunned and wondering, what am I

doing here, what is wrong with people? This led me to study Psychology in

college because I needed to understand why people do the things they do (to hurt

each other.)

 

I notice the common thread of compassion here in this group. I also notice

the common theme of having lived through very difficult experiences. I remember

the morning that my father died (this past August), I was sitting on the back

porch and I remembered something I had posted on a years ago. I had

said that I wondered if those who had the most difficult life experiences

developed the ability to experience the opposite in relation to the pain. Like

a ball, the harder you throw it on the ground, the higher it will go. As soon

as this thought hit me, I looked over and saw a ball that belonged to my dog in

the chair next to me, and then heard and saw a flock of geese lift from the

ground and soar high in the air.

 

My father had experienced terrible pain in his life and as soon as he died,

this incredible peace came over me. There was no doubt in my mind that day that

my father was " soaring high " with (what I eventually named) the " Powerful

Peace. " I think that intuitively, what is happening here is that we are longing

to return to this feeling. It is a challenge to feel among the experience of

the opposites. The contrast can feel so dense and so real. But I think that

there is a lighter dimension of awareness outside of the fog. I think that

somehow, we are catching " glimpses. " Those who seek are the ones who find.

 

Gregg Braden is a scientist who has studied ancient manuscripts and

compared them to contemporary science. He says that the ancients predicted this

to be a time in history where people would be " walking between two worlds, " and

experiencing the consciousness of both heaven and hell on earth. He began his

studies when he witnessed a spontaneous healing take place on a street one day.

 

I think that more and more people are longing for and gathering up these

" glimpses " and learning to incorporate and integrate them. It is my hope that

the world has begun " shifting " like the sun evaporates the fog. I think that

probably the people who feel this strong longing are bringing these glimpses

back into the fog, like rays of the sun.

 

This is a beautiful group of people who are not only longing for this, but

experiencing it.

 

Deb