Agenda / Fear - Deb

[Guest guest]

Thank you so much, Chrism. I find this and all posts tonight extremely

helpful. About fear - I am learning that it is extremely urgent to keep all

thoughts and emotions as positive as possible, and I am reading from books that

help me to seep these ideas into the subconscious and doing contemplative prayer

and protective visualizations. I am integrating these ideas of disciplining

thought and emotion to be only positive with the energy of Kundalini. This is

helping a lot, but I still have my moments, especially in public, where all I

can do is positive affirmations and hope for the best.

 

I am also doing the Tibetans and practicing the safeties daily, not because

I want to be infused with more energy, though! I have all that I can handle at

this time. I am doing them to help channel the energy that I am already

experiencing into a more positive outcome.

 

I am definitely learning to surrender, because as you say, the resistance

makes it so much worse and causes terrible anxiety attacks. I am learning

surrender is a much better choice. Today I had to walk a lot at the airport to

get my sister and when I finally sat down my legs started vibrating like crazy.

Better than the muscle spasms, though. I immediately went into positive

affirmations. Then later, I was driving my mother and sister around and this

weird change in pressure and loud buzzing started happening, like what happens

when you are on an airplane that is ascending rapidly. Again, I did urgent

affirmations where I asked Jesus to take control and within a few seconds it

stopped. That is what works best for me at times like this.

 

It means so much to me to be here where this is all " normal " because that

helps so much. Very much appreciate all of the posts here.

 

Deb