Any similar experiences...?

December 23, 2009

Greetings to everyone here. I hope all of you are well and I look forward to

getting to know each of you and hope to relate to your experiences. From what I

have seen and known so far, the idea that there is no one to talk to at all

about any of this is extremely daunting. But its true. I have tried to explain

some of it to some people, who want to say I need some kind of religious

intervention, or that I am being attacked by demons somehow, but how can you

explain to someone that you know what you've seen and there is no conceivable

way that a demon could encompass the kind of love and devotion you have felt? I

unfortunately mentioned some things to the wrong people, and got attacked in

this way.

My experience started with writing. I wanted to write, and even used the saying

" I want to write what I KNOW. " It was just meant to be a fiction novel, about my

own personal beliefs and various philosophies. I didn't even really get started

on a story, I was just writing notes.

Then some odd things started happening. I live in a house with my boyfriend and

our dog, and we started hearing some strange noises in the house, like there

might perhaps be some kind of ghost. What we were hearing was a pounding noise,

but no matter where you went inside the house, the noise did not get any closer

or farther away. There were no cold/hot spots in the house. I researched ghost

hunting but I could not really find anything that pertained to it. Sometimes,

the noise resembled a scratching. Other times, the noises were very clearly

footsteps approaching. Not only could you hear them, but you could feel the

vibration of something moving across the floor. This part, at least, I wasn't

the only one to experience. My boyfriend also experienced it. What he didn't

hear were the voices, which I could hear, that were never in one spot that I

could seem to reach, and he wasn't hearing anyone calling his name, or the loud

bangs that came on the edge of sleep.

Then followed two experiences, each one week apart, as I was trying to take a

nap around sunset. I was lying in bed, and felt a strange jerk. It wasn't over

any particular body part, but I remember feeling like my head was submerged in

water; I could even hear the sound of what was something like water entering my

ears. I got up and walked around my bedroom. I found some papers with text on

them but I couldn't read them. This whole experience lasted maybe five minutes.

Then I felt a " pull " and I felt myself being pulled back into my body on the

bed. That's when I could feel something touch me, like a warmth moving up from

my toes, slowly up to my hips, and it stopped. It wasn't really electric just

warm and soft, but then there was some electric type feeling on my belly,

something that tickled really bad, and I thrashed a bit, and the feeling stopped

although it still tingled. I demanded an explanation and an entity appeared from

under the blanket... male, but totally transparent, more like an outline, but

solid. I was hit immediately with the realization " I know you " . I tried to touch

him but he disappeared. I opened my eyes, and the warmth was still there, though

slowly receding.

After this experience I for some reason decided to google some of what I had

written. To make a long story short, I was shocked to find that ALL of what I

had written was essentially " true " and part of some belief system or another. I

am not a christian, but I am not an atheist, either. Since I was a teenager I

have always felt... " energy " , I suppose, is the best word for it. I felt that

God was in everything, everywhere, and that every religion had some sort of

truth, but I always knew the truth was unique to the individual. While I have

studied a great deal of occultism I have generally always been focused entirely

upon psychic development. I found most western esoterism to be lacking in

something, and decided I had to know my own truth. So I never really bothered to

do any research, because I felt the truth was already in me and that I had no

need to go searching for it.

When I saw these things in my writing, I decided to try something called

automatic writing. I thought if there was something buried in my subconscious or

if there was something trying to communicate with me, that this would be the

direction to go in. After a few failed initial attempts, I had my second OBE.

In this one, I was just walking around my house, looking at every object, and

looking for the papers I had seen in my previous OBE, but they were not there.

However, I did notice some objects out of place, which later on awaking they

were in their correct places. Anyhow, one of these objects was a door. I stood

there and looked at it, because it wasn't supposed to be there, and I knew it. I

started trying to open it, but it would not open. I decided to try and find the

other side of it by going around to the other side of the house. I did not get

very far before I suddenly felt very dizzy; SOMETHING picked me up, and

" floated " me back to my body. As I moved, I could hear voices, and as I neared

my body, I could hear myself clearly thinking " That was not a dream, there is no

way I have been in bed this whole time. " I came back into my body and opened my

eyes. I felt heavy and tingly, and I blinked a few times. Suddenly I felt like

my bed was on the ocean or some such, because it was moving like waves were

under me, and it seemed like someone was standing over me, pushing against the

side of the bed. I started hearing the sound of chimes, somewhat like wind

chimes but louder, almost like bells, and I saw my whole family and many people

I did not know standing before me, saying " hello " . And then I felt the waves

start washing over my body, up to my hips and then it was like cautiously moving

upward. I felt an orange light like the sun, which I could see shining over me.

The sensuality of it was very s*@ual and I felt very at peace. Eventually, after

a few hours of this, I made myself get up and start doing some research.

That's when the automatic writing started working. This " entity " (me?) makes it

very clear it is there for love, and to " heal " . It has used a lot of words not

in this language that I know I did not know before, like " aureola " (halo), or

" monad " (soul). However, I don't know if this is me or something else entirely.

Of course, now I can't stop researching various things that I see in these

visions or write down; curiously the very first book I was led to had its main

topic as " divine surrender " . It's been a few months now, and I still stumble

upon topics it seems to want me to " learn " .

Other things have happened; not long after the second OBE my boyfriend and I

returned from grocery shopping and I sat lazily on the couch, in a trance-like

state. I was thinking about going into the bedroom and taking off my shoes. As I

was thinking this, my boyfriend came out of the bathroom and into the living

room and looked at me strangely. He went back into the hallway, and came back

into the living room, pale. He told me he had " just seen me in the bedroom " . I

started a little, because I had been thinking about going into the bedroom, but

had not gone in there.

He does hear the noises but he does not hear what I hear. He does not feel when

it seems like something jumps on the bed or it suddenly gets too hot or cold.

When I hear voices, he hears scratching, or something along those lines. When I

was convinced the problem was an entity, I tried " recording " the sounds. I did

catch a couple of interesting things; at one point, I could hear an actual

heartbeat, and another time, there was clearly a voice on the tape. However,

this was not what my boyfriend heard, and when I played the tape for others,

this was not what they heard either. Another night, about 3 am, I woke up

because I felt I had been " shaken " awake. I could almost feel someone breathing

on my face, like blowing on it. One of my arms was straight up in the air. All

of a sudden, the entire cover on the flourescent light in my kitchen fell and

shattered. We cannot figure out why it fell; it was not broken or loose. A very

small piece of it, which was plastic not even 1/4 of an inch thick, got lodged

in the tile and created a large rift in the tile. We still can't get the piece

out.

I do have feelings beyond the " golden helmet " (mine is a feeling along my

hairline, like something is gently brushing my hair); I can feel something at

the base of my spine but also something around my neck and shoulders, as if I

have hands resting there. Would that maybe be some kind of energy block? All I

know is, I can constantly feel energy vibrating through me, or something

touching me, sometimes its prickly or like an insect crawling on me, but usually

is very gentle though sometimes can be painful. I have odd spasms in varying

places in my body, sometimes, it is a whole body spasm.

There was a time period prior to this when I was very... sick. I couldn't figure

out what was wrong, and I spent hundreds of dollars at doctors offices. I was in

pain, usually localized in the back or knees, and often felt like I had the flu.

After numerous negative blood tests I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia in October

2008. I was 27 years old. I accepted the diagnosis and took the medication I was

prescribed, but I always felt like something had been " muted " and some part of

me was missing. I was, I suppose, " depressed " . But I resolved to get over it,

and when I first started writing, before all this started, I quit taking all my

medication because I just didn't feel like I needed it anymore, and it seemed I

was starting to have allergic reactions to it. My doctor denied this because it

had been so long since I started taking it. Basically, the medication causing it

was Amitriptylin, which is an SSRI used to treat fibromyalgia. I don't know how

but I " knew " this was the medication doing it. I broke out in a bad rash over

both my arms. I quit taking the medicine, and after two days, the rash

disappeared. I tried taking it again for a few days, but the rash came back, so

I quit taking it again and haven't taken it since.

Somewhere along the line I was led to the kundalini awakening website, and what

I read, I knew to be true. The experiences I had felt and have been feeling I

knew were related to it. I don't believe in coincidence. I think we've all been

through too much for that. Reading all of the website and all your stories was

like letting out a deep breath I'd been holding since this started.

December 23, 2009

Hello Rachel, much of what you write is similar to some of my experiences. My

first visit with Shakti was with a loud crash (glass door breaking) and a

RrrrooooaaaRRRRR and it went on for months. Pouncings on my bed, pulling my

covers off and sending electric shocks up my back. I thought it was an entity,

but it was shakti tiger gifting me with Kundalini. LOL! I was messed up

basketcase for several years before arriving here. My activation began with a

lot of sleep paralysis experiences and leaving my body, too. I was lead to read

about kundalini on the net and some of what I was going through resonated, but I

was scared and didn't want anything to do with it. Hehe!

But here I am, thanks to Chrism. He showed me a different side of kundalini than

what was written in other places on the net. I feel very grateful and fortunate

to be here where I can talk with others who are going through the same things.

Anyways, welcome to our loving Kundalini family.

BTW, after many doctor bills and nothing was found wrong, I was diagnosed with

fibromyalgia, too. I didn't except it nor did I take any drugs for it, but did

tried a lot of vitamins, minerals, herbs for years...some things helped and some

did nothing.

The safties has done alot in helping my health issues, but I still have my days.

Blessings,

Linda

, " rachel_rounsavall "

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> Greetings to everyone here. I hope all of you are well and I look forward to