Winter Soltice Shaktipat Journal + thanks

December 28, 2009

This is my journal for this Shaktipat week. It is long.

First day:

I woke up around time shaktipat was given with a hugh warmt in my solar plexus

area, whole abdomen actually. After a little while there was a sharpe pain on my

left side where I have experienced pain often. There was a pressure with this

then after the pain a quick release of something was felt. Then a few minutes

later the same happened on my right side around where my appendix scar is, about

a hands width lower than the left side. The warmt had a different feel to it

than when the heat moves up my back, which I have not experienced in a long

time. I am even having to use covers on these cold nights this year. The warmt

stayed in my solar plexus area for about an hour or so. I was having a hard time

getting back to sleep.

I began doing the " I am " mantra and after a while of that, tingles and fizzes

where felt across my forehead and the 3rd eye pulsed for about 30 minutes. There

was also some tingles and tickles at the crown during this time. I finally fell

back to sleep for a couple of hours. I think I had a dream or two. I got up and

helped James get off to work. I did my first set of the protocals after James

left and around 10 am. I became very sleepy again. I laid back down and decide

to listen to the " Dalia Lama " CD and had several waves of bliss sensation in

heart chakra while listening. The energy was getting strong and my legs and

arms began aching so I sent healing to those of the healing group that I could

remember and others on my healing list. I felt and sent love to all on the

group and hoped they were all having a great shatipat 1st day.

I went back to sleep and slept another 2 hours.

Upon on waking I connected to the group to read and posted of my morning. The

group postings were energetic, LOL! I posted of my morning, but it didn't go

through for some reason. I finish triming my tree and did a little this and

that. I did my second round of protocols before going for my daily walk.

I discovered a way to calm the dizziness after doing just the 1st Tibetan when

you don't get to go into the second Tibetan afterwards. Anyways, after you stop

spinning, stand with your feet about shoulder's length apart and immediately put

your hands palms together at chest level, the prayer mudra or salutation is what

that is call I think. The dizziness quickly subsided. I don't know if that is

a good or bad thing to stop the dizzes. I guess one could just lie down on the

floor and let it pass.

Around 9 pm I did my last round for the day. While meditating I fell asleep and

slept another two hours. I thought much about attachment throughout the day and

surrendered/releashed them to Shakti, all that came to mind. Now I am up late

and not sleepy. Day two is here! Hehe!

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Day two:

I did not experience very much today. I had dreams while I slept, but didn't

remember them. I woke from the last dream with some kind of music, maybe from

bells, not for sure what instuement was making the sound. After I became more

awake, I thought maybe it was the doorbell. Hehe! I am expecting a package so I

got up and took a look to make sure, but I really knew it wasn't the doorbell.

LOL!

I had a very long talk with Pamela tonight, which I enjoyed.

But it did make me a little bit late on getting my last round in for orange day,

but will do it now even though it is one hour into day #3.

Hope to have a great night.

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Day 3:

Even though I did not sleep all that many hours I feel rested today with lots of

energy. I hope I am over that sleepy stage. I feel back to myself as though

something had control over me since the first of November causing me to be so

sleepy all the time. The whole past two months have been a blur to me.

The entity that likes to remove things from my walls is paying me a visit again

this morning, just now as I wrote this. It usually comes at night, not up in the

morning like this. I am just ignoring it and will not put the object back where

it belongs.

I am not feeling anything like pulsations or fizzies again today, even less than

yesterday. But I feel lots of energy and I talked James' head off this morning.

I just kept talking and talking, couldn't shut myself up.

I am wondering if I am starting the stage where there is no phenomena at all. It

feel strange after 2 year of feeling these pulsations on a daily basis not to

feel anything this morning. It totally feels as if K has left me, which means I

was basing her presense on the pulsations and phenomena I was having each day.

The thought of her leaving makes tears come to my eyes and my heart to ache.

After talking with this afternoon, I did round 2 of the protcocals. While

I was meditating I recieved one hugh kick from the inside, right at my solar

plexus area. It was so hard it startled me and I jumb up. Hehe! Off to the

store, for some last minute shopping to buy christmas food.

I talk with Pamela again for a while tonight and then I had to go and get some

things done and I need to do round three for the day.

A bad storm came through, I had to shut off my computer and I unplugged it. I am

glad I did because while I was meditating there was this loud pop at the head of

my bed. I though the lightening had blown out my alarm clock, but everthing I

had plugged in there was OK.

After thinking about it, there was no smell showing that the lightening had

struck anything.

I don't know what the pop was....it was only about 3 or 4 feet from me and it

was very, very loud.

All afternoon I had strong energy, pressure in up my back and that fluttery

blissy feeling inside.

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Day four:

I feel great again today with lots of energy and still the fluttery feeling

inside.

It was a busy day with getting all the cooking done. I managed to do all that

and do my three rounds of practice for the day. I love day 4 of the shaktipats.

I like wearing green... it gives me a good feeling.

Even though I was very busy, I enjoyed the day, but I am so sore all over from

all the work. The wind blew hard all day, but settled down some when it came

time for my walk. I was grateful for that.

Still having some back pressure and fluttery blissy feeling tonight.

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Day five:

When I first woke up, my K was still being very inactive (as it has been these

last three day) except for this blissy feeling that I don't know how to explain.

I have been experiencing this feeling ever since the big kick that happened in

my solar plexus on the third day (the only sign that anything was happening with

me since the first day of shaktipat).

By the time the kids all arrived my K became very active and stayed that way all

day. With that feeling getting stronger plus I had strong pulsations all over

and kicks from the inside, not just when I sat down for a break, but constantly

moving, pulsatings/tinglings/fizzies non-stop all day!

When everyone left and I am alone tonight, the K settled down with just a few

little pulsations here and there, but still with 'that feeling' ongoing.

We all had a wonderful Christmas this year. I have a smile on the inside,

bigger than the one on the outside. My inner joy is hugh tonight. I feel very,

very blessed and I am grateful to Shakti/HolySpirit and have been very thankful

all day for everything. For family, chrism, and of course all K family, too.

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Day Six:

I only slept about 5 hrs this morning, but woke often during that time from

dreaming. It was mostly teaching type dreaming, but once I woke up I could not

remember them. I think I need to do a mantra before going to sleep at night, one

for remembering my dreams. I will try that tonight.

During meditation today I had lots of visions. I realized I had not been having

them much lately, maybe since early November when the heaviness and sleep kept

me from even having a good meditation. I am so glad that is all over.

I am still being very talkative. In the store today I just began talking to this

man and what looked like his granddaughter. The guy probably thought I was

nutso. LOL! I ending up being right behind him while checking out and I was just

talking up a storm to him again, so much so the check out girl thought we were

together. Hehe! She told us if we combined our purchase we could get even more

off. LOL! He was buying the same thing I was. I was a little embarrased at that

point since I had my 16 year old grandson joined me in the store just a little

bit prior. He wasn't there when I had the long conversation with the guy. He

gave me a strange look. Hehe!

I had a nice meditation before going to bed, but my energy was strong and it

took a long while to fall asleep. I forgot to do a mantra to help with

remembering my dreams, but did the " I am " mantra for a long while.

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Day 7:

What little sleep I had, it was deep and dreamless. I woke up feeling rested and

have been in a meditative like state all day. So has James. My talkativeness

that I have been experiencing all week as left, for the day anyways.

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This morning around the time for Shaktipat to end, it ended the same way as it

began for me, with a warm sensation in my solar plexus area.

Thank you for a wonderful Shaktipat week!

Linda

December 28, 2009

Linda,

Thank you for posting your Shaktipat diary, I did enjoy reading it.

Ananda, Pamela

, " danceswithcats999 "

<crazycats711 wrote:

>

> This is my journal for this Shaktipat week. It is long.

>

> First day:

> I woke up around time shaktipat was given with a hugh warmt in my solar plexus