Too Much E-MAIL? / Surrender

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Chrism - I just wanted to say that on any other forum I would not be able

to make it through this much email because it would have been too much.

However, this forum is different. On this forum, I am captivated by every

single email and am learning so much from everyone's experiences and even more

so from your responses to everyone's individual situations. I look forward to

them all.

 

I just meant that as much as I would like to let everyone know how much

they are helping me and how much I appreciate their contributions, I feel that

to try to express my thanks on an individual basis would not be adding to the

depth of this forum, yet I would still like for everyone to know how much their

posts mean to me. Like the beautiful description on the sunset from the

airplane, for just one example.

 

About surrender: I wish that I could say that I was evolved enough to be

100% ready to completely surrender all ego attachments, but that would not be

honest of me. Mostly because I cannot figure out how to do that yet and still

fit in and be able to function in my every day life around the people that I am

around. Believe me, they would never understand. I am from a very traditional,

very western, very behind-the-times, very addictive part of the world. It is my

need to feel accepted and fit in under these circumstances that holds me back.

Yet, I am humbled even in this atmosphere, because I have made my own share of

mistakes and don't look down on them and in fact, I feel that I really do

understand them. I'm just not so sure that they understand me!

 

Because of this background, I have witnessed them go through some extremely

challenging trials and in fact, very much admire their strength and their

ability to rise above their own disadvantages. I actually think very highly of

them, even those (and sometimes especially those) who have coped with terrible

addictions who, because of this, have been stripped of all self righteousness.

In my opinion, they are more evolved than people who have never made any

so-called mistakes, who cannot envision what it is like to be able to see the

world from that perspective. So, they are evolving in their own way, and

rapidly so. They just cannot wrap their minds around eastern thinking or

healthy living!

 

I am willing to surrender to the Kundalini symptoms as long as I don't

freak out in public and can still function in my daily life. And I am willing

to do my best with all of the rest of it, one day at a time, until I can figure

out how to integrate it all into my daily life, which I am working on. Just

don't have it perfected yet. But I think about it all the time, and I think I

am making adjustments as I go along.

 

I very much appreciate you and all of your insights and generous service to

all of us. And I study your emails very carefully! So yes, please, keep them

coming.

 

Deb

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Yes I so so remember finding one of the early Kundalini forums when I first came

online back in 2002. There could have been a thousand posts a day and I would

have read them all.

 

There is nothing like having an unknown condition that can so powerfully impact

a persons life and the person knowing virtually nothing about it to galvanize an

interest from that person. When I found a forum that even mentioned the word

Kundalini I would drink of it as a man dying

of thirst. So I do understand and I am blessed to be part of your path Gulf

Coast Deb! Lets see whats around the next bend on this mountain shall we? -

chrism

[Guest guest]

Deb,

 

This moved me so I had to tell you so. I believe we incarnate, in part, for

educational and evolutionary purposes. To varying degrees, we know what we're

signing up for, and we sign up for it anyway. Some people sign up for the

accelerated course. Sure, for some this means K activation in this lifetime.

But for others, it may mean experiencing a bunch of " suffering " , addictions,

heartbreak, adversity, etc., etc. in order to be forged and transformed by it

and be ready to move on to the next set of experiences. So I think it is very

wise of you to note that " they are evolving in their own way, and

rapidly so " about those around you. And I think it's no accident that you chose

to incarnate in their midst.

 

Love,

 

David

 

 

> Because of this background, I have witnessed them go through some

extremely challenging trials and in fact, very much admire their strength and

their ability to rise above their own disadvantages. I actually think very

highly of them, even those (and sometimes especially those) who have coped with

terrible addictions who, because of this, have been stripped of all self

righteousness. In my opinion, they are more evolved than people who have never

made any so-called mistakes, who cannot envision what it is like to be able to

see the world from that perspective. So, they are evolving in their own way,

and rapidly so.