A note from Danielle

[Guest guest]

All:

For several weeks I've been rather caught up in " my stuff " . I shared with Chrism

that it has felt more-so like survival mode for me, and in-so functioning this

way, I have neglected myself in the practice of the Tibetans and meditation has

dwidled away. Oh my, and the amount of junk I've been eating is like a huge mass

in my stomach. I don't imagine that my vibration can get much heavier and

slower. I noticed that I was not able to keep up with the emails, where as

before I could read each and every one; and my brain literally could not

comprehend their messaging...I'm still having a hard time with this. When I

acknowledged just how quickly this got away from me, I began to ease back into

incorporting my day into the practice. But it has only been since yesterday when

I wrote " Bodhi " on the mirror and gazed at the little spider reflected upon

herself. It's slow going, but it is movement now. I came across 's email

about the Sunset and I thought wow I missed this message entirely. I missed

another sunset; my heart and eyes have been shut. I came to realize that I miss

my K family...and what I'm saying too is that I miss the dedication to the

Divine and the practice in addition to you the K family. I literally turned my

back during the time of Shaktipat. I turned my back to this gifting. I wasn't

aware of this until it has come and gone, and I missed the sunset. I'm surprised

at how quickly things became unpleasant, mundane, murky.

 

I wanted to welcome all the new members, and to thank you all for your sharing

(much of which feels really beyond my comprehension right now)...but I read

through the posts and sponge bathe in them and hope to soon be doing backflips

into your most beautiful ocean.

 

Enjoy the rare blue moon and/or partial eclipse.

 

Love:

Danielle

[Guest guest]

Hi Danielle!!!

 

A big HUG to you girl! You know what...you've been through a lot...it's okay to

take some time for everything. For me I went through a time where I felt very

vulnerable. Not saying that you did - just that I thought about that again when

I read some of your challenges and that tiger visiting. (: Learning to

completely trust - we live these lives and there are so many times we feel let

down by society - life - people. So its easy to see how " unlearning " this and

becoming again like a child - not in a helpless way - but in the way we were

before worry or mistrust came into our reality. So its okay to take some

time...I think sometimes our egos need that to assimilate what we've been

through. Just don't feel bad about yourself for anything (not saying you did or

are - just that I have a tendency to do that - ha I'm talking to myself again)

It's like cleaning out the closet - sometimes it gets a bit messy while we let

go of some of our old ways/stuff. But then its sparkly beautiful - just like

that radiance shining off of you. (God I'm quite sappy this morning - went out

to the lake at sunrise - will these clouds ever go away?) (: Anyway I for one

and many here think you are perfect just the way you are and we are so happy to

know you. Catch my chi balls!

 

Lots of happy days and blissful nights (:

Debs

 

, " iamwaitingmoon "

<iamwaitingmoon wrote:

>

[Guest guest]

I miss you Danielle. I hope you come back soon. When you first spoke of your

pain, I felt it. And I was unable to respond, it hit too close to home for

me. It was three years ago that such pain seared through me. But my heart is

with you, you are not alone.

Blessings,

Carla

 

2009/12/30 iamwaitingmoon <iamwaitingmoon

 

>

>

> All:

> For several weeks I've been rather caught up in " my stuff " . I shared with

> that it has felt more-so like survival mode for me, and in-so

> functioning this way, I have neglected myself in the practice of the

> Tibetans and meditation has dwidled away. Oh my, and the amount of junk I've

> been eating is like a huge mass in my stomac

>

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Danielle,

 

I know you, I love you, and I always will!!!

 

edgar

 

 

 

 

________________________________

iamwaitingmoon <iamwaitingmoon

 

Wed, December 30, 2009 6:39:51 AM

A note from Danielle

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Me too!

 

--- On Wed, 12/30/09, Edok Ananda <edok.ananda wrote:

 

Edok Ananda <edok.ananda

Re: A note from Danielle

 

Wednesday, December 30, 2009, 4:28 PM

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Danielle,

 

 

 

I know you, I love you, and I always will!!!

 

 

 

edgar

 

 

 

____________ _________ _________ __

 

iamwaitingmoon <iamwaitingmoon@ >

 

Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1

 

Wed, December 30, 2009 6:39:51 AM

 

[Kundalini-Awakenin g-Systems- 1] A note from Danielle

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Dear danielle,

I hear the loss in your post .  The  murkey place hicfh youb speak  is far

from pleasent. 

I hope it is ok to write this, if it makes any sense I am glad I worte it and if

it does not then please disregard and know I send this with love. 

 

when you went through your break up with your partner you were broken and in

pieces and in much much pain.  I saw Shakti carry you Danielle, very gently and

with great love and care.  I saw you tremble and shake in her arms, your arms

around her neck as she carried you, your eyes  closed eyes and full of

tears.  Your anguish and pain and confusion massaged by her deep love for

you.  Although you screamed with pain she carried you and was very present

through the darkest part of that phase.  Then came the time to place you down

on the ground, to stand on your own again.  I think this happened around the

time of the seminar or soon afterwards.  Danielle I think this murkey time of

loss and turning away is just you becoming a bit disorientated by the change in

altitude as  she placed you on your feet!!!    Shakti is watching and

waiting for her  beloved child to become orientated again and  it is

happening. You feel the loss and you

begin the practice and Shakti is smiling.  

As you so know waiting moon, there  are phases to the moon  as there

are cycles in  everything, isn't that really wonderful. cycles to everything

is probably the best gift we are given, the continuity of changing cycles, a

conundrum that makes perfect sense!!

~This phase had to be, before the next phase could begin as from each comes the

next, there is no skipping. a wise person once said happiness is not getting

what you want but wanting what you get and being grateful for it. Is it possible

to feel gratitude fo the murkey and mundane phase as the new moon rises in the

east.

Disregard all this if it makes no sense and know that you are very much loved.

Love Julia

 

________________________________

iamwaitingmoon <iamwaitingmoon

 

Wed, December 30, 2009 2:39:51 PM

A note from Danielle

 

 

All:

For several weeks I've been rather caught up in " my stuff " . I shared with Chrism

that it has felt more-so like survival mode for me, and in-so functioning this

way, I have neglected myself in the practice of the Tibetans and meditation has

dwidled away. Oh my, and the amount of junk I've been eating is like a huge mass

in my stomach. I don't imagine that my vibration can get much heavier and

slower. I noticed that I was not able to keep up with the emails, where as

before I could read each and every one; and my brain literally could not

comprehend their messaging... I'm still having a hard time with this. When I

acknowledged just how quickly this got away from me, I began to ease back into

incorporting my day into the practice. But it has only been since yesterday when

I wrote " Bodhi " on the mirror and gazed at the little spider reflected upon

herself. It's slow going, but it is movement now. I came across 's email

about the Sunset and I thought

wow I missed this message entirely. I missed another sunset; my heart and eyes

have been shut. I came to realize that I miss my K family...and what I'm saying

too is that I miss the dedication to the Divine and the practice in addition to

you the K family. I literally turned my back during the time of Shaktipat. I

turned my back to this gifting. I wasn't aware of this until it has come and

gone, and I missed the sunset. I'm surprised at how quickly things became

unpleasant, mundane, murky.

 

I wanted to welcome all the new members, and to thank you all for your sharing

(much of which feels really beyond my comprehension right now)...but I read

through the posts and sponge bathe in them and hope to soon be doing backflips

into your most beautiful ocean.

 

Enjoy the rare blue moon and/or partial eclipse.

 

Love:

Danielle

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hehe!Danielle, talk about comprehending the messages, yesterday it took me all

day to realize what your were talking about, a spider with 16 legs. I was

thinking, is she seeing double or what? LOL!

 

It is sort of neat that the full moon is on New Years Eve. I didn't know it was

to be a blue moon, too. I am not going to be doing any naked cartwheels that

night for sure, so there is no need of any of you doing google earth to see what

you can see. There are no leaves on my tree to hide me and bsides it is too

cold out.

 

Linda

 

, " iamwaitingmoon "

<iamwaitingmoon wrote:

 

your sharing (much of which feels really beyond my comprehension right

now)...but I read through the posts and sponge bathe in them and hope to soon be

doing backflips into your most beautiful ocean.

>

> Enjoy the rare blue moon and/or partial eclipse.

>

> Love:

> Danielle

>

[Guest guest]

Danielle,

 

Blessings to you, Blessed One!

 

You may feel you turned your back on the shaktipat, but Shakti did not turn her

back on you.

 

Interestingly, I too went through what felt like a period of stagnation in my

practice during the shaktipat. I am just now getting back into my practice

anew. Shakti continues to work on us whether we see it or not. She does not

abandon her children (though sometimes we need lessons...).

 

This type of thing has happened to me many times in the past, though never for

so short a time period. Each time I resume my " spiritual " practice anew, I feel

reborn. After a short time back in practice, I am a transformed human being.

Who I was 10 days ago no longer exists and old viewpoints/mental states seem to

have occured aeons ago to another person....

 

Love,

 

David