Demonstrate Your Surrender - Michelle

[Guest guest]

I have been pondering this one for the last 2 days in what I need to surrender.

It's 2 parted for me.

a) Surrender the attempts to control my path.

I think for me that it's all of my preconceived notions on what things should be

or how they should go. To no longer try to control things, just allow spirit

and the divine to show me what THEY and my higher self have intended/contracted

for me to be in this lifetime. I have what I need and I am not in fear of the

growing pains.

 

b) Surrender the fear of being found out.

I am in fear of being ridiculed for my belief system and trust me, I have been

exposed by those that do not agree with my areas of study; staked and burned in

the last 8 months by all that I trusted to the point I trust no one anymore.

What was the lesson to be learned in this? That either I stand up for what I

believe, stuff it and hide it and never truly experience it at it's fullest. I

have allowed things to cool off and am slowly re-integrating my studies, trying

to be more open about them to prevent the fear based reactions of the family.

They do not understand Shamanism or any of what we know intuitively to be true

in this group for example.

 

Michelle

[Guest guest]

Michelle I can really relate to the problems of being found out; my children

wonder why I am so protective of my computer these days. My friends know and are

supportive but my family would certainly freak out and my X husband would try to

take my son I am sure. It has been very reasuring to find some like minded

people in my community. I found them through yoga and Qigong classes,Unity

church, Unitarian church, Reiki share group etc. Hope you can find some people

around you that get it, it helps me to not feel so crazy even if they don't

understand all that I am going through.

I am totally surrendered to the whole process and open to everything. I

demonstrate that by meditating, doing the safeties and tibetans, and letting K

have free reign.

I can't wholly open to my family yet, they get bite size pieces. It is actually

nice to see them notice some positive differences in me, and I just let it be.

I am glad Iona was able to help you.

Blessings

Maryann

 

, " miaminewbies "

<mballinger wrote:

>

> I have been pondering this one for the last 2 days in what I need to

surrender.

> It's 2 parted for me.

> a) Surrender the attempts to control my path.

> I think for me that it's all of my preconceived notions on what things should

be or how they should go. To no longer try to control things, just allow spirit

and the divine to show me what THEY and my higher self have intended/contracted

for me to be in this lifetime. I have what I need and I am not in fear of the

growing pains.

>

> b) Surrender the fear of being found out.

> I am in fear of being ridiculed for my belief system and trust me, I have been

exposed by those that do not agree with my areas of study; staked and burned in

the last 8 months by all that I trusted to the point I trust no one anymore.

What was the lesson to be learned in this? That either I stand up for what I

believe, stuff it and hide it and never truly experience it at it's fullest. I

have allowed things to cool off and am slowly re-integrating my studies, trying

to be more open about them to prevent the fear based reactions of the family.

They do not understand Shamanism or any of what we know intuitively to be true

in this group for example.

>

> Michelle

>