childish feelings

[Guest guest]

I have become aware of an issue that keeps cropping up

where i am getting very childish feelings about food.

I am quite generous with money and food and we share

things in our household but when i seem to look for somthing

that i bought and find that its been eaten i get a really

childish feeling of anger and a " THATS MINE " type of feeling.

 

Also at work one night someone took an order for takeaway.

After waiting for a long time he came back but my order

was wrong with the main dish missing. I said dont worry

thats ok but inside i had a huge feeling of anger and

dissapointment where i had been expecting it.

 

I am shocked at these feelings as i would consider myself

to be fairly mature...

 

I have stopped all the vices i had before like

alchol/tobacco/nicotine/chocolate/videogames

and i suppose food pleasure and sexual pleasure are the 2 i have left to work

on. the latter being not so hard to deal with.

 

Yesterday i was walking through town and i saw a guy with his girl

walking past. As he walked past he stared at me for longer than normal

and so i didnt look away from him. As we got close he broke eye contact and as

soon as he did a feeling of somthing raw shot up from my lowers into my chest,

and then dropped down again leaving my heart beating out of my chest.

 

both scenarios the feelings are intense and i stand back and

think wow. hopefully this is k showing me these things to address

 

love to all

 

mark

[Guest guest]

Namaste Mark

 

I would say that the " food feelings " are a reflection of something that has

happened to you in the past, likely in the childhood. Pay attention to the

feeling you feel - describe it to your self in one word. It is the emotional

content that is important, the message.

 

Then ask yourself " When have I experienced this exact feeling before? " if you

are taken back to some old experience, great. If not, just leave the question

open and it's likely to come to you in some way. Don't say " I can't remember " ,

because then you can't

 

The eye contact thing I used to do, and still do sometimes. MAle dominance

it's pretty pointless though. I notice myself doing this sometimes when I'm

aggrevated, in your case it might have to do with stopping the vices.

 

Peace,

Aarni

 

 

 

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> I have become aware of an issue that keeps cropping up

> where i am getting very childish feelings about food.

> I am quite generous with money and food and we share

> things in our household but when i seem to look for somthing

> that i bought and find that its been eaten i get a really

> childish feeling of anger and a " THATS MINE " type of feeling.