Guest guest Posted January 15, 2010 Report Share Posted January 15, 2010 I sing out loud at work at home, i dont know all the words and i make the rest up but i dont care, i jest and joke and tap and make rythms. I laugh at things sometimes so hard that i end up crying and screaming like a girl rolling around the floor people think i have lost the plot. I like to draw and create pictures and patterns and let the artistic flow just come out of me. I never draw objects, just things that come out of me, shapes and swirls. Im not good at it i just enjoy it. I like to play the piano and guitar, not any songs just chords and noises and finding some flows and feelin it then i wail words over my patterns and sometimes, weeping for no reason. it feels good. I cry at episodes of lost when the emotional bits come on but thats ok, im not embarrassed. my problem is this: I seem to get negative thoughts in certain situations and my mind runs off with the pathetic negative what ifs. It allways takes the worst case scenario. Not just i better be carefull on this ice incase i fall, but i better be carefull incase i *worst case scenario here* happens. Its the same when driving my car and motorbike over a certain speed. or in situations with delicate procedures or handling cutting tools etc. I dont really want to entertain these thoughts but they seem to pop in. Im catching myself doing it now and even when my mind just wanders im snatching it back and saying NO! Ive allways been a daydreamer and letting my mind run off with me but it seems that fear thoughts are doing the same thing. Its not all the time and im not having any major kidney popping health panic scenarios like i had before LOL! but none the less im not sure how to deal with it. mark Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 15, 2010 Report Share Posted January 15, 2010 Hi Mark, I can relate to what you're saying about those worst case scenarios. Pesky thoughts. Sometimes I like to put them on a mental whiteboard, take a big eraser and just wipe them away, and replace them with a new picture of something lovely that I would like to see happen. Other times, to reel my mind back in from wandering into the past or possible futures, I just remind myself of what I'm doing and focus on that. Like, " Right now, I'm driving. " Or " Right now, I'm doing dishes. " If that's not enough to get me back in the present, I'll take an inventory of my senses. I'll pick a color and look around me for every object I can spy of that certain color, then pay attention to identifying all the sounds around me, the smells, the tastes, the sensation of coolness or warmth or roughness or smoothness on my skin. If that's not enough, I might put on music to change my focus, or do something physical like go running. A long run is usually enough to process through anything I'm thinking, then shift my focus to other things. But if I had all the art and music going on for me that you do, I'd probably jump up and do that, because it sure sounds like you're having a lot of fun! Peace, Shaz --- sinebyte wrote: Ive allways been a daydreamer and letting my mind run off with me but it seems that fear thoughts are doing the same thing. Its not all the time and im not having any major kidney popping health panic scenarios like i had before LOL! but none the less im not sure how to deal with it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 15, 2010 Report Share Posted January 15, 2010 Hi Mark I just wanted to say hi. I have enjoyed reading your posts and would just say it's good to to check in with whatever happens to be going on. This is kundalini related. I'm remembering several of your posts regarding synchronicities, the " funnies " and other phenomena. The Kundalini will amplify your sensitivity to sound, patterns and anything that stands out of the ordinary. I can relate to this ... I experienced racing thoughts and without any frame of reference I didn't put anything like the safeties to use. The great thing is that you know about them and can review them and let them bring you around into a higher level of clarity. All the best Mark, from your sharings I understand you've tried lots of things....Peace and joy - anna , " sinebyte " <sinebyte wrote: > I sing out loud at work at home, > I like to draw and create pictures and patterns and let the artistic flow just come out of me. I never draw objects, just things that come > out of me, shapes and swirls. > I cry at episodes of lost > > I seem to get negative thoughts in certain situations and my mind > runs off > Im catching myself doing it now and even when my mind just wanders > but none the less im not sure how to deal with it. > mark > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 16, 2010 Report Share Posted January 16, 2010 For me Mark, I try to catch myself whenever I turn to negative thoughts and negative imaginative situations.... I have a chuckle and turn back to more positive thoughts and thinking. Look to the safeties and find ways to implement them when you have time to let your mind wander. Consider things in your life you are grateful for (even what is immediately around you), do some forgiving, send some prayers and blessings to those around you or in your life, etc, etc... I also often go automatically into mantras or prayers when driving or walking... One that has given to us is " I am one with all that I am one with all that I am one with all that I am one with all that I am one with.... etc... " I like to make my own too and even make little songs about them as I go about my day doing whatever I am doing... (by the way if you are driving or operating equipment and Kundalini symptoms start, STOP what you are doing lol!) For me, the mind is somewhat like a computer that has a program running. The program has been created over quite a bit of time in our lives through our choices, through our environment, through the school system, our teachers, our families, television, radio, mass media, our society, etc... Some of our thinking is good and wonderful and helps us survive and operate in our society. Some of it is utter bollocks and limits us from the true reality and our true potential. Turn to the safeties to begin 'reprogramming' your thoughts. Love, service, inner joy, gratitude, tolerance... They will all reboot our systems and allow a pretty awesome upgrade to take place as well! peace, bradly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 16, 2010 Report Share Posted January 16, 2010 All excellent advice! I go a step above the reprogramming (though I use the same analogy about computers with my students)-- I also realize that the mind is a tool. It is not me! Silly little negative mind thoughts? I say: " Go away little thoughts! I don't need you! " Descartes said: " I think therefore I am " ... I say ; " He am human... " I say; 'I don't identify with my thoughts, therefore I am free. " Works for me! Stephen - curball2002 Saturday, January 16, 2010 10:18 AM Re: Mild anxiety ? For me Mark, I try to catch myself whenever I turn to negative thoughts and negative imaginative situations.... I have a chuckle and turn back to more positive thoughts and thinking. Look to the safeties and find ways to implement them when you have time to let your mind wander. Consider things in your life you are grateful for (even what is immediately around you), do some forgiving, send some prayers and blessings to those around you or in your life, etc, etc... I also often go automatically into mantras or prayers when driving or walking... One that has given to us is " I am one with all that I am one with all that I am one with all that I am one with all that I am one with.... etc... " I like to make my own too and even make little songs about them as I go about my day doing whatever I am doing... (by the way if you are driving or operating equipment and Kundalini symptoms start, STOP what you are doing lol!) For me, the mind is somewhat like a computer that has a program running. The program has been created over quite a bit of time in our lives through our choices, through our environment, through the school system, our teachers, our families, television, radio, mass media, our society, etc... Some of our thinking is good and wonderful and helps us survive and operate in our society. Some of it is utter bollocks and limits us from the true reality and our true potential. Turn to the safeties to begin 'reprogramming' your thoughts. Love, service, inner joy, gratitude, tolerance... They will all reboot our systems and allow a pretty awesome upgrade to take place as well! peace, bradly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 17, 2010 Report Share Posted January 17, 2010 Thanks for all your lovely replys, anna, bradly, Shaz, mastercondrey I will try to pick up some mantras or make one up myself ! It is just nice to share things in this environment. The night before last the energy decided to have a good go and filled my lower back and i could feel a fire soup in my belly. tingling around my lowers and my big left toe is going spastic on me, like a dolphin impression. I didnt sleep all night and was a bit worried because i work early shift and i was gonna be tired but i was not tired at all and it was like the energy that was in me gave me what i missed out on in sleep. Ive been reading jon peniel's book about the death of the seperate self and the song that has been comming from me lately is this: I want to break free I want to break free I want to break free from your lies your so SELF satisfied i dont need you I've got to break free God knows, God knows i want to break free. - freddy mercury. RIP. love to all mark Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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