Is your Ego ready? -Moods

[Guest guest]

Hi All:

I'm wondering if others get the up and down moodiness with K. I've noticed that

after I experience something that rings so true and fills me with an amazing

love and light, the following day I'm down on myself, feel sad, mad...the

opposite of the near bliss. Often I spend a few days shedding tears, and then

something of Divine knowing happens again. Is that the work of the ego in the

unfolding; that of resistance to surrender? I think it seems more frequent now,

because the unfolding is more frequent, holds deeper meaning and is instantly

recognized by my heart as my truth, path etc. I just wonder if it's a

back-peddling of sorts? Once I get over being hard on myself and questioning it

all something most moving and blissfull and of truth occurs and the process

continues in this way. (Thankfully it seems that many layers have been peeling

away recently, and the overall movement is expansive, a higher frequency feeling

upwards and outward). I'm curious if others experience this in a similar way?

 

 

Love:

Danielle

 

 

--- In>

> " Saying and Being " ready for surrender are to very different states of being.

So be honest and clear with yourself. If you are ready then so be it, if not

there is no judgment merely some more work to be done.

>

> blessings to all! - chrism

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Danielle

 

In my experience, this is very normal. It often feels like 1 step forward and 2

steps back. What seems to happen is that as one experiences a higher or more

blissful state (higher vibration), then anything lurking in the basement of the

unconscious which is incompatible with the higher state gets knocked out, and

the knocking out process is one of coming into awareness and then being

released.

It seems to be a process of continual refinement, and after each 'higher then

lower' cycle, the entire body-mind exists at a slightly higher center of

vibrational gravity..

 

I am more and more always ok now, but for a long (seemingly neverending ) while

I used to dread the 'higher' states as I knew that hot on their heels would be a

little taste suffering.

 

 

enjoy the rollercoaster

love

Bruce

 

 

, " iamwaitingmoon "

<iamwaitingmoon wrote:

>

> Hi All:

> I'm wondering if others get the up and down moodiness with K. I've noticed

that after I experience something that rings so true and fills me with an

amazing love and light, the following day I'm down on myself, feel sad,

mad...the opposite of the near bliss. Often I spend a few days shedding tears,

and then something of Divine knowing happens again. Is that the work of the ego

in the unfolding; that of resistance to surrender? I think it seems more

frequent now, because the unfolding is more frequent, holds deeper meaning and

is instantly recognized by my heart as my truth, path etc. I just wonder if it's

a back-peddling of sorts? Once I get over being hard on myself and questioning

it all something most moving and blissfull and of truth occurs and the process

continues in this way. (Thankfully it seems that many layers have been peeling

away recently, and the overall movement is expansive, a higher frequency feeling

upwards and outward). I'm curious if others experience this in a similar way?

>

>

>

> Love:

> Danielle

>

>

> --- In>

> > " Saying and Being " ready for surrender are to very different states of

being. So be honest and clear with yourself. If you are ready then so be it, if

not there is no judgment merely some more work to be done.

> >

> > blessings to all! - chrism

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Normal moods can be severely challenged in comparison to blissful or " ah ha! "

moments of Kundalini clarity. I will invite you to understand this so that you

can place the moods in a context of not comparing them against eachother.

 

Yes the exalted moods and bliss will have the effect of almost a depressive

feeling when gone as they are so strong and good and encompassing. When they

leave the departure is felt!

 

This is normal. These are the " new " dynamics. Eventually you will have less of a

separation between these states of being. And in the new clarity where the

exalted is mundane and the mundane is exalted will your comprehensions come to

you with the grace that they are made of. A clear crystal of expanded

knowingness. This is what is coming. -

[Guest guest]

I've never cared much for the rollercoaster ride. I prefer the water rides, the

ones that are safe even for children. Where you get refreshed by the nice cool

water giving you a good soaking.

 

But alas, I do know that rollercoaster. Not so fast amd furious for me any more,

just short peaks and dips. If you get thrown out on the water rides at least you

have the cool refreshing water and not the hot hard concrete to deal with. The

water rides will get you there too. Right? Is your ego ever ready? Sometimes you

just have to buckup...like Mia/Deb says. Pull youself up by the boot strap and

continue on, that's the I advice I recieved once. I was in one of those very low

dips and it wasn't easy...had to do some muscle building first to get strong

enough.

 

Love

Linda

 

, " BruceO " <bruce_oom

wrote:

>

> Hi Danielle

>

> In my experience, this is very normal. It often feels like 1 step forward and

2 steps back. What seems to happen is that as one experiences a higher or more

blissful state (higher vibration), then anything lurking in the basement of the

unconscious which is incompatible with the higher state gets knocked out, and

the knocking out process is one of coming into awareness and then being

released.

> It seems to be a process of continual refinement, and after each 'higher then

lower' cycle, the entire body-mind exists at a slightly higher center of

vibrational gravity..

>

> I am more and more always ok now, but for a long (seemingly neverending )

while I used to dread the 'higher' states as I knew that hot on their heels

would be a little taste suffering.

>

>

> enjoy the rollercoaster

> love

> Bruce

[Guest guest]

This is so interesting - the discussion on mood swings and ego struggles,

because I have been thinking about this exact same thing and was even going to

ask this same question yesterday morning but did not have a chance. I have also

grieved for the entire world and have always had more than my share of anxiety.

 

For awhile now, I have had spontaneous feelings of love come over me for no

reason - not something I can will to happen, but something that just comes over

me once in awhile. Mostly when driving because I think that is when I am most

relaxed. But lately, I have been having spontaneous feelings of peace - which

is all new to me and most appreciated. I first noticed it within minutes after

my father died five months ago, but most recently, it has been coming and going

spontaneously.

 

But then, I would go right back to anxiety and wondered - will I ever

transcend this anxiety? But the reason I was going to post a question yesterday

morning was because I had a strange experience of feeling the peace and the

anxiety at the same time! This confused me - I thought, " how can this be? " I

decided it must be a good thing - a transition beginning to take place.

 

Then I received a book, " Kundalini - From Hell To Heaven, " and I was going

to just flip through it yesterday morning, but got interested and read the first

50 pages or so. And I read a paragraph from someone who said they also kept

alternating between peace and anxiety. Then I get on here and - same subject!

What synchronicity!

 

But one thing I got out of that book that helped me was to recognize that

thoughts and emotions are like waves in the ocean - moving in and out. And to

know that when we can detach ourselves from the negative thoughts and emotions -

only peace is left because this is our true state of being. So, I am trying

that - to see those " not so pleasant " thoughts and emotions as waves and

watching them wash away. It helps.

 

Then I saw the statement below from and that pretty much answered my

question! Thanks Chrism! What a comforting thought.

 

GCDeb

 

PS to whoever it was that asked " Why spiders? " That book also said that not

only do our personal fears come into our awareness, but that with K awakening,

many collective archetypes for fear will come into our awareness as well. Such

as spiders! I thought that was interesting - I had not thought about it like

that, but thought it made sense.

 

 

 

Re: Chrism

 

 

 

This is normal. These are the " new " dynamics. Eventually you will have less of a

separation between these states of being. And in the new clarity where the

exalted is mundane and the mundane is exalted will your comprehensions come to

you with the grace that they are made of. A clear crystal of expanded

knowingness. This is what is coming. -

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hi ya Danielle,

 

I experience it in the same way. It's better... but as Aarni calls it the

pi-polar swing - I can get my swang really high and really low - we are not

alone in our swinging it seems - yet I never feel like talking when I'm in the

low swang.

Nice to read what everyone says and know it gets better - are you thinking when?

haha

many times i have/do too! (:(:

 

I know when I'm in the low swang I can feel all sorry for myself .. " Hey,

doesn't anybody care that my poor ego here is suffering? Where is the love? "

Gooooddd how can u make me feel so great one day and so low the next...what are

you trying to do to me??? We are gonna have a talk about this when I get there

and somebody is getting in trouble and its not me! " and then I quickly hide

under my covers - and of course there is always the jump into bed as soon

as you can with your favorite blanket and pillow and sleep it off until

tomorrow...

 

but if you wake up and still feel low then I start thinking I'm doing something

wrong too....so I think oh I'm not suppose to do this or that - I'm not

observing my emotions, I must still be IN them so today I'm going to just

observe them and not get IN them ... and still they can suck me in like the

highest powered vacumn cleaner in the world - and then I think I am soooo far

away from ever being enlightened - because I can't even observe my emotions and

detach and when I do detach then it seems I don't FEEL - so much and honestly

when I FEEL - my kundalini goes crazy - when I feel love and then I wonder if I

stop feeling and just stay in that now forever and ever will I ever feel such

beautiful feelings as I do now?

 

WOw - that was a bit more than you wanted I bet! - But at least you see you are

not alone in those moments of over analyzing and feeling low - been there so

many times on that floor not wanting to pick myself up anymore - if you ever

feel like this - you send me an email and I will call you at night and we can

talk about it - make God that list of things to get right - And the world will

thank us for setting em straight - no ego issues here! rofl

hahahahahehehehohohoho

 

We can play the If we were God game...(the one where everyone gets a free

jetpack) -

makes your ego feel oh such much better until...the next time

(You do know I'm totally laughing here right? buuhhhwaaah) (:

 

Wow - such words of incredible wisdom - bet you feel a lot better now that

you're not me!

 

 

Ok - I am on a high swang today - somebody throw me a rope tomorrow - ok????

Carla - I am counting on you to have plenty of rope handy - so many kundalites -

still looking forward to seeing you on youtube " How to Lasso a Kundalite in 3

easy lessons "

 

 

The last few days - a bit of strangeness ... I wonder Shaz if this is what you

felt in your stomach kriyas or anyone else...

 

so I feel these tubular maybe about 8 " long moving through my body - my stomach

- my shoulders - arms - whereever...guess it does feel like a snake but it feels

like its raised like that movie alien or something - hahahahahaha - listen

don't be watching scary movies .. its just by strange humor ok????

 

Anyway it feels really GREAT! (: Kinda buzzes or vibrates and I know Shakti

is doing her thing so I am ho hum about it - however if anyone has felt this

please feel free to shout out!

 

My body is swimming with snakes it seems....Hissssssss (thats suppose to be a

snake sound)

 

The other thing is that those tones above and behind and around my head are

getting stronger and my head starts BUZZING - I don't hear her humming to me

anymore as much lately just the tones...but the last couple days some of the

womans voice humming softly and sweetly has come back.

 

Heres is my high strangeness though - (no not the part above)

Sometimes I stick my head in the frig so I can hear it better! hahaha Now

thats crazy my kunda friends!!!

 

How good do you feel about yourselves about now?? Admit it....you do!!!

 

See Danielle ... if you ever are feeling low do let me call you - don't blame me

though if you go around sticking your head in the frig shortly after....

 

 

Okay Danielle and all you kundalites...lots of beautiful love to you -

i'm swinging and swanging high today - get the rope ready (:

 

Mia D (debs)

 

 

 

 

, " iamwaitingmoon "

<iamwaitingmoon wrote:

>

> Hi All:

[Guest guest]

Thanks for the post Deb

 

It is inspirational what you write.

 

I learn so much from your experiences.

 

big hug

monica

 

--- El dom 17-ene-10, Deb111222 <Deb111222 escribió:

 

 

De: Deb111222 <Deb111222

Asunto: Re: Is your Ego ready? -Moods

A:

Fecha: domingo, 17 enero, 2010, 1:59 am

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is so interesting - the discussion on mood swings and ego struggles,

because I have been thinking about this exact same thing and was even going to

ask this same question yesterday morning but did not have a chance. I have also

grieved for the entire world and have always had more than my share of anxiety.

 

For awhile now, I have had spontaneous feelings of love come over me for no

reason - not something I can will to happen, but something that just comes over

me once in awhile. Mostly when driving because I think that is when I am most

relaxed. But lately, I have been having spontaneous feelings of peace - which is

all new to me and most appreciated. I first noticed it within minutes after my

father died five months ago, but most recently, it has been coming and going

spontaneously.

 

But then, I would go right back to anxiety and wondered - will I ever transcend

this anxiety? But the reason I was going to post a question yesterday morning

was because I had a strange experience of feeling the peace and the anxiety at

the same time! This confused me - I thought, " how can this be? " I decided it

must be a good thing - a transition beginning to take place.

 

Then I received a book, " Kundalini - From Hell To Heaven, " and I was going to

just flip through it yesterday morning, but got interested and read the first 50

pages or so. And I read a paragraph from someone who said they also kept

alternating between peace and anxiety. Then I get on here and - same subject!

What synchronicity!

 

But one thing I got out of that book that helped me was to recognize that

thoughts and emotions are like waves in the ocean - moving in and out. And to

know that when we can detach ourselves from the negative thoughts and emotions -

only peace is left because this is our true state of being. So, I am trying that

- to see those " not so pleasant " thoughts and emotions as waves and watching

them wash away. It helps.

 

Then I saw the statement below from and that pretty much answered my

question! Thanks Chrism! What a comforting thought.

 

GCDeb

 

PS to whoever it was that asked " Why spiders? " That book also said that not only

do our personal fears come into our awareness, but that with K awakening, many

collective archetypes for fear will come into our awareness as well. Such as

spiders! I thought that was interesting - I had not thought about it like that,

but thought it made sense.

 

Re: Chrism

 

This is normal. These are the " new " dynamics. Eventually you will have less of a

separation between these states of being. And in the new clarity where the

exalted is mundane and the mundane is exalted will your comprehensions come to

you with the grace that they are made of. A clear crystal of expanded

knowingness. This is what is coming. -

 

 

[Guest guest]

Thank you all for sharing of your experiences, and thank you for how you

explained the after " near bliss " , love & euphoria as a feeling of loss is

exactly on target. Yes, that is what I experience...a missing and sadness. Debs

I tied that rope to a tree and made for a rope swing...it hangs over the creek

for Linda and all of us water babies to enjoy. I do find the whole process

beautiful although my writing may not always come across as this; I don't fight

it but it's not cupcakes with fancy icing on top. I learn something greater

every time and my rate of " recovery " has certainly sped up. I've taken notice

that there is so much contrast in the K process, and the contrast makes a mark

of empathy and greater understanding. The contrast is like an emptying to become

full.

 

Love:

Danielle

 

, " flowerpowers7777 "

<flowerpowers7777 wrote:

>

> Hi ya Danielle,

> > i'm swinging and swanging high today - get the rope ready (:

>

> Mia D (debs)

[Guest guest]

Mia,

You are HYSTERICAL. I love your personality. Thanks for this post.

Michelle

 

> See Danielle ... if you ever are feeling low do let me call you - don't blame

me though if you go around sticking your head in the frig shortly after....