Is Your Ego Ready ? - Moods

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Dear Danielle, and All:    I can relate to the changing moods issue.  My

problem is that K interferes with my ability to work: I either can' t focus or

don't want to focus and feel stressed out about that, yet seem unable to change

it.. It scares me that I can't get the work done, and yet to a great extent I

don't care, and so I feel annoyed with myself or K at various times.  I too have

experienced deep grief in regard to the suffering of mankind, and especially in

regard to man's inhumanity to man, i.e. wars etc and now regarding the suffering

in Haiti.  Then I feel guilty if I spend money on myself for something I want

(as opposed to something I need) but I am going through a period when I seem to

need to be good to myself too as I have had heavy family responsibilities which

have resulted in  being able to take only one vacation in 26 years, and that was

do to last years economic stimulus package. We also made it possible for

someone close to us to go with us on that trip too. So I don't know if I should

be stricter and less indulgent with myself as I have in the past, or whether I

need to try to meet my own needs to the degree I have been committed to meeting

the needs of my loved ones.  So I vacillate between guilt and  feeling

that treating myself the way I treat others is appropriate. 

Chrism and others, your thoughts?

Peace and Love    Diane