Is this normal? do not fear

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In addition to my previous posts

 

I can say that I had movement of my skull or brain...was strong it was hard

time. I still feel sometimes some stings. That was uncomfortable (I thought

something wrong on my brain)

 

My vision was very blurred also and I was very scare about it. It came together

with amplified visions of auras and other visuals. Now I see less blurred..i am

more use to the changes.

 

In my case I decided that I only pray to God, Christ and Mary and sometimes

Michael Archangel. I do not wish to hear about weird philosophies, gurus,

healers or yellow or blue energies ! It is just my view on it after all what I

passed.

 

The thing stuck in the eye!! I also got that. I do not wish to get conclusions

of what it is. DO NOT ANALYSE IT. I thought was an entity , also aliens looking

at me..etc etc etc. DO NOT FEAR whatever it is. It was a time that I could

notice that very strong…now is less! If aliens or whatever is looking at me

through that…I don’t care anymore. You push those things away but keeping

loving and peaceful thoughts…in disappear I think those symptoms and things

get worse.

 

I understand your despair ! whatever happens…be strong.

 

You will learn to follow only what your feelings and heart says. Be aware that

all is part itself of your journey and spiritual learning.

 

blessings

 

 

 

De: marshallsontag <marshallsontag

Asunto: Re: Is this normal?

A:

Fecha: domingo, 17 enero, 2010, 7:47 pm

 

 

 

 

 

 

Last night I had a vegetable soup that contained tofu (spices though). I paid

for it with extreme fatigue, and pains throughout my digestive tract. This

morning, steel cut oats. No pain, but plenty of gurgling. (However, the gurgling

is frequently there no matter what -- when my attention is focused on my

abdominal area)

 

There has been a strong feeling of pressure in the right side of my head. It

encompasses my forehead, my right temple, right cheek, and right eye. My right

eye is sometimes blurred, sometimes cloudy, and sometimes feels like somethings

stuck in it. Often they will go away for a few seconds by rubbing it. There is

rarely pain, but it's often in my right temple and is typically a split second.

Today it last about 30 seconds, as a pulsing pain. In response, I laid down and

put my attention into the pressure. It moved around, buzzed, etc, did its thing.

Then I paid attention to the discomfort in my solar plexus, which pulsed as pain

and gurgling. Eventually I just laid there and relaxed. My girlfriend laid next

to me and fell asleep. Hey eyes started twitching, as did the rest of her body

(LOL), and all kinds of gurgling in her digestive tract.

 

So the pressure in my head and eye f***ery bugs the sh*t out of me. I start

researching into causes, which inevitably leads to brain tumors. But none of the

symptoms describe electrical pulsing or tingling sensations. Which sets me at

ease. At the same time, however, my ever-creative mind reminds me that I could

have a tumor that the Kundalini/energy/ spiritual- whatever is interacting with.

@#%@#$

 

I realize I could genuinely have a Kundalini activation, but I know that those

on this forum are K-biased. I think I have to rule out other causes before I can

truly surrender. The digestive stuff is really getting to me. I haven't really

been able to eat for about 6 weeks.

 

The school hasn't assigned my a private teacher yet, due to my prior pot usage

(they don't want drug addicts in their school). But they're going to assign me

one shortly due to me cessation. The acupuncturist I've been seeing is actually

a teacher in a sister school, and did not think that what I was experiencing was

Kundalini. But, he still said it was possible. He's not exactly an expert, as

this particular school doesn't deal with K activation. They integrate Object

Relations Theory with various eastern schools and engage in open-ended inquiry

in order to refine the ego-personality so one can realize Essence or True

Nature.

 

The weekend before this happened, we were studying a particular aspect of

Essence that they call the Red. It is the Strength essence, and fills one with a

sense of capacity and power, and provides the fire for spiritual work. They say

it's located on the right side of the body, and coincidentally, the majority of

my issues are on the right side of my body. It seems quite provocative, but who

knows?

 

Anyway, thanks for all the supportive emails.

 

Does the pressure in the right side sound normal? (My girlfriend just bent down

next to me to get something out of the drawer, and said that she suddenly felt

pressure behind her right eye, and in her right eyebrow.) These signs are

strange, but reassuring.

 

pardon the following rant:

 

WHAT THE F*CK IS HAPPENING TO ME?! WHY CAN'T I EAT ANYTHING?! I F*CKING LOVE

EATING. I CAN'T GIVE UP FOOD!!!!! FIRST WEED, NOW FOOD?! WHAT THE F*CK AM I

GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE!!!! WHY CAN'T I SEE CORRECTLY!!! ! WHAT'S WITH ALL

THESE WEIRD PAINS?! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?!!!! I DIDN'T SIGN UP FOR THIS SHIT!!!!

 

 

 

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