Getting angry and upset experience and a message for Bill

[Guest guest]

First of all, I wanted to write to express my moral support for Bill¡¦s kid. I

pray for his recovery.

 

I resonate with Danielle¡¦s comment ¡§You didn't act on your feelings...you

didn't harm others in return nor did you even wish harm upon them.¡¨. Place that

energy into your heart center; project the love inward and outward into healing

and recovery.

 

I resonate so much with this because.. probably I needed to hear also those

words this morning. I got angry last night

 

I know a poor girl in latinamerica that was jobless and had no money to study or

for food (a very poor person) so I decided that was good opportunity to help .

I made that like my own personal project (I was feeling good about it) so I sent

out some money for signing her into university in a subject she liked and made

arrangements to get her a job (humble one) so she could get some money in the

pocket. She accepted the university money but when she was supposed to go for

work..she did not showed up. She said she did not like it and was not interested

on that. My heart chakra went like crazy..I was upset..I complained about it and

she got upset with me. I said if you don¡¦t like the job get the money at least

1 or 2 months so you can help youself a bit¡Kshe rejected it and said that she

did not need my help and on and on!!

 

At the end my little project to do a kind service for someone turned into a

nasty negative energy ! K energy was quite activated. My mind went like¡K ¡§why

did you complained to her and get upset and angry?¡¨..she is a poor person and

she does not deserve your intolerance¡¨ I felt frustrated. I think also that I

cannot force anyone to receive any help or really force nothing, I think

everybody sees life with different eyes and what is good for me is not

necessary good for others.

 

Deep inside me reflected in the experience and faces of poverty . Poverty can

get so use to receive from others but it is not interested to do something to

start shinning the face of prosperity.

 

Peace and love

Monica

[Guest guest]

Monica:

 

Wanting to help another is admirable and service is a huge huge part of the

safeties for the KAS program. Learning to detach is not easy. I tend to think

of things ongoing and this does not work with learning to detach. Whatever I do

I analyze it and worry over it.

 

I am much better now after working on the healing group with the healing

conferences. There we do our healing and then we visualize all we did at that

time and put it on a piece of glass - then we see the glass fall and shatter

into the sun. We do this three (3) times.

 

I do this after I send healing to anyone and I am starting to see how other

detachments can be handled.

 

To me it all has to do with being in the now. When I have an encounter with

someone - a discussion the sharing is at that one particular moment and after

they leave it is over there is no need to rehash it. I am not good at this in

all situations but I am getting better. I sometimes find myself saying - ok

what just happened for I have moved on.

 

The person that has modeled this detaching for me is chrism. He reacts

sometimes like any of us do to situations then he reverses his response to the

situation if that is appropriate. He walks away. He no longer is part of the

situation.

 

It is amazing to see.

 

When chrism writes he is writing from the directives given by the Shakti

Kundalini expressing within him and often he does not even remember what he

writes until prompted then he can recall details.

 

Kind of like the info is stored until needed. I relate this to the dream

learnings some of us are experiencing - the knowledge is there and can be

recalled when needed.

 

I am being aware of doing a walking wakeful meditation. Being in the now -

allowing all thoughts emotions feelings to occur reacting if needed and then

moving pass it and moving on. This to me is a form of detachment.

 

That phrase sounds harsh and uncaring yet - if seen from the perspective of

being one with the universal consciousness - being in

the midst of pure love - why would anything else be of interest?? I envision

one floating above all the normal everyday hassles - the ordinary day to day

living we are so caught up in. Dropping in once in a while to do this or that

service then off again into the clouds of love.

 

It does not mean we do not feel or love or care- it means we can focus on the

love and the goodness and not get caught up with the outcomes or the pettiness

of life.

 

Monica - is this making any sense?? Service is a wonderful gift to offer

others. Give then remove yourself from any outcomes - allow the gift to be

given from your heart and allow the receiver to accept as he/she is able - do

not think about the what ifs or the whys- give and walk away - knowing that the

gift will be used as needed.

 

This learning is a big deal in my mind - to be in love to offer love and yet to

know that the love offered may or may not be received by the other and it not

matter - nothing matters -

 

Please know I am not fully into this state of being - I just know this is how it

needs to be to stay tuned into the physical world - oh how I look forward to not

being caught up in the pettiness of living. To rise above it all knowing that I

am giving and serving as I am able.

 

I am seeing more and more how difficult it is to explain things as chrism often

says to we in the linear thinking mode.– he does do a great job and perhaps

one day I too will have the gift of gab so that others can understand what I am

trying to say.

 

Monica -Use this as a learning – keep up the good service …

 

Blessings in service...

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