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Hi everyone,

 

This has been a strange time. I am sitting at my computer tonight, feeling at

ease and at peace, and slightly tired. My legs are tingling, and have been for a

while. There is a fair amount of pressure in my head, which rises and falls in

intensity. I feel the energy moving up and down my back and around my body.

There seems to be less radiating off my hands than before. I have been finding

surfing goes very well with K., and its been a blessing to live near a beach

with warm water.

 

I spent most of the morning crying, feeling sad. I have had gritty feelings of

failure and not being good enough the last few days, and today the sadness

underneath surfaced. It felt cleansing and healing, and good to let it be there,

without any effort to change my experience or shift my emotions. I felt a need

to be exactly as I am, just how I am, today, and to allow the different

experiences to pass through.

 

I have been experiencing healing relating to money. K. has bought to my

attention that its important to have a greater level of consciousness and

responsibility regarding money, so I am working on shadow elements and

integrating that awareness into my being. I am still not working and am trying

to create an income doing personal growth workshops, so this has been

interesting to stay both focused and surrendered on my goal. The learning has

been powerful, to teach me how to live a life of fulness and surrender without

material security.

 

I am dreaming prolifically, a lot about powerful animal energies, and several

dream-fear tests. I have begun to become the lion in my dreams. There have been

lots of synchronicity events. I am learning to trust and act on my inner voice,

and to trust the guidance of my heart and what it means to live in trust and

surrender.

 

I am picking up on peoples energetic fields with increasing ease. I will be near

someone and feel a wave of depression, or an egoic contraction, or frustration

or irritation. With some of the stronger experiences the energy takes a little

while to drop.

 

I still dont know where all this is going or what K's master plan for me is. I

have had several prohpecies over my life from people who's access to the divine

I trust yet dont have a clue if and how all this will unfold. I am exploring a

relationship with Jesus yet often find myself deeply confused after reading his

words. This just may be that the last few days have been confusing, and tonight

there seems to be the blessed grace of still clarity again. This state is my

natural state, and when I am in it, it feels that this is where and how I have

always been.

 

feeling sleepy.

love

Bruce

[Guest guest]

HI Bruce

 

I read your email with attention.

 

You are doing just great! There is peace, there is healing, there is strength.

You are indeed blessed.

 

I can read for your words how loving and  kind heart you are.

 

Many of us don’t know  either what is next or where this process is leading

us..but I think that it should not be of concern as long as we express “being

“ in peace and love with us and others.

 

Last night my uncle passed away (he was not close to the family) so I did not

really felt major pain. I felt bit emotional for my mom who cried bit. Then I

realised that in life everything is borrowed the only thing we really have is us

and what we make of it.

 

Hugs, peace and love

Monica

 

--- El mié 20-ene-10, BruceO <bruce_oom escribió:

 

 

De: BruceO <bruce_oom

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Fecha: miércoles, 20 enero, 2010, 10:56 am

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hi everyone,

 

This has been a strange time. I am sitting at my computer tonight, feeling at

ease and at peace, and slightly tired. My legs are tingling, and have been for a

while. There is a fair amount of pressure in my head, which rises and falls in

intensity. I feel the energy moving up and down my back and around my body.

There seems to be less radiating off my hands than before. I have been finding

surfing goes very well with K., and its been a blessing to live near a beach

with warm water.

 

I spent most of the morning crying, feeling sad. I have had gritty feelings of

failure and not being good enough the last few days, and today the sadness

underneath surfaced. It felt cleansing and healing, and good to let it be there,

without any effort to change my experience or shift my emotions. I felt a need

to be exactly as I am, just how I am, today, and to allow the different

experiences to pass through.

 

I have been experiencing healing relating to money. K. has bought to my

attention that its important to have a greater level of consciousness and

responsibility regarding money, so I am working on shadow elements and

integrating that awareness into my being. I am still not working and am trying

to create an income doing personal growth workshops, so this has been

interesting to stay both focused and surrendered on my goal. The learning has

been powerful, to teach me how to live a life of fulness and surrender without

material security.

 

I am dreaming prolifically, a lot about powerful animal energies, and several

dream-fear tests. I have begun to become the lion in my dreams. There have been

lots of synchronicity events. I am learning to trust and act on my inner voice,

and to trust the guidance of my heart and what it means to live in trust and

surrender.

 

I am picking up on peoples energetic fields with increasing ease. I will be near

someone and feel a wave of depression, or an egoic contraction, or frustration

or irritation. With some of the stronger experiences the energy takes a little

while to drop.

 

I still dont know where all this is going or what K's master plan for me is. I

have had several prohpecies over my life from people who's access to the divine

I trust yet dont have a clue if and how all this will unfold. I am exploring a

relationship with Jesus yet often find myself deeply confused after reading his

words. This just may be that the last few days have been confusing, and tonight

there seems to be the blessed grace of still clarity again. This state is my

natural state, and when I am in it, it feels that this is where and how I have

always been.

 

feeling sleepy.

love

Bruce

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

thanks for your shares ddar Bruce, I always enjoy reading your process.

love,

Jan

 

, " BruceO " <bruce_oom

wrote:

>

> Hi everyone,

>

> This has been a strange time. I am sitting at my computer tonight, feeling at

ease and at peace, and slightly tired. My legs are tingling, and have been for a

while. There is a fair amount of pressure in my head, which rises and falls in

intensity. I feel the energy moving up and down my back and around my body.

There seems to be less radiating off my hands than before. I have been finding

surfing goes very well with K., and its been a blessing to live near a beach

with warm water.

>

> I spent most of the morning crying, feeling sad. I have had gritty feelings of

failure and not being good enough the last few days, and today the sadness

underneath surfaced. It felt cleansing and healing, and good to let it be there,

without any effort to change my experience or shift my emotions. I felt a need

to be exactly as I am, just how I am, today, and to allow the different

experiences to pass through.

>

> I have been experiencing healing relating to money. K. has bought to my

attention that its important to have a greater level of consciousness and

responsibility regarding money, so I am working on shadow elements and

integrating that awareness into my being. I am still not working and am trying

to create an income doing personal growth workshops, so this has been

interesting to stay both focused and surrendered on my goal. The learning has

been powerful, to teach me how to live a life of fulness and surrender without

material security.

>

> I am dreaming prolifically, a lot about powerful animal energies, and several

dream-fear tests. I have begun to become the lion in my dreams. There have been

lots of synchronicity events. I am learning to trust and act on my inner voice,

and to trust the guidance of my heart and what it means to live in trust and

surrender.

>

> I am picking up on peoples energetic fields with increasing ease. I will be

near someone and feel a wave of depression, or an egoic contraction, or

frustration or irritation. With some of the stronger experiences the energy

takes a little while to drop.

>

> I still dont know where all this is going or what K's master plan for me is. I

have had several prohpecies over my life from people who's access to the divine

I trust yet dont have a clue if and how all this will unfold. I am exploring a

relationship with Jesus yet often find myself deeply confused after reading his

words. This just may be that the last few days have been confusing, and tonight

there seems to be the blessed grace of still clarity again. This state is my

natural state, and when I am in it, it feels that this is where and how I have

always been.

>

> feeling sleepy.

> love

> Bruce

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Bruce – in reading your post it appears that you are going or have been going

through a rough patch – my thoughts are with you! Self doubt seems to be a

regular `visitor' to those on this path. I used to get melancholy and brood on

this, but now am conscious of those spells coming on and recognise them for what

they are – invariably a test of sorts but possibly more of a review period

forcing me to re-evaluate specific events or circumstances in my life to find

understanding subsequently come to terms with what has happened. Just as you

indicate they are a self-healing period. Maybe it is the mealie meal in Zim as

you once suggested (I actually can't stand the stuff) but I now am aware of

these spells being deliberately `time-tabled' into my linear existence and I

actually relish them as they always result in definitive and positive changes

within me even though the `review' period can sometimes be an unpleasant grind.

It is akin to how you feel after running Comrades (I'm sure you will relate to

this), but you know that the body damage after that race will take on average 6

weeks to heal during which the mood swings are extreme (mainly low) and life

looks `dark'. After my 6th or 7th run I got to grips with the related

physiology and then would expect those `dark' spells. Knowing that they would

happen after the race put me into a very different frame of mind, and

subsequently when my running friends were misery personified due to that body

damage, I was full of the joys of spring due to that understanding and

expectation and also that I knew that the effect would only last for a limited

period.

 

This path is similar – when those `dark nights of the soul' descend and we seem

to be wandering in a void, if we expect them as part of the process and also

know that they are healing or transition periods of limited duration, they no

longer cause the angst or concern as they did before that awareness. In fact

they become periods to look forward to as they signify transition points and you

know that once one is over the path will become more interesting once again!

 

Blessings - Jonathan