Guest guest Posted January 21, 2010 Report Share Posted January 21, 2010 Hi Jonathon, yes, thanks for your empathy and carefuully considered perseptive, and thanks to all others who have responded. I am well balanced and at ease today, and yes, the seemingly greater the external challenge, the greater the inner transformation I am grateful for this process and see it as one of purification. I smile has been effortlessly working its way up my face all day .. I find the K. works in my life by engineering external circumstances to bring the inner resistances into awareness, and from that position they are able to be transformed. Each time I find an even deeper reliance and trust in God and His plan. The essential formula is (K + a good challenge = quick transformation)... love Bruce , " jonrow_2914 " <jrowland wrote: > > > Hi Bruce – in reading your post it appears that you are going or have been going through a rough patch – my thoughts are with you! Self doubt seems to be a regular `visitor' to those on this path. I used to get melancholy and brood on this, but now am conscious of those spells coming on and recognise them for what they are – invariably a test of sorts but possibly more of a review period forcing me to re-evaluate specific events or circumstances in my life to find understanding subsequently come to terms with what has happened. Just as you indicate they are a self-healing period. Maybe it is the mealie meal in Zim as you once suggested (I actually can't stand the stuff) but I now am aware of these spells being deliberately `time-tabled' into my linear existence and I actually relish them as they always result in definitive and positive changes within me even though the `review' period can sometimes be an unpleasant grind. It is akin to how you feel after running Comrades (I'm sure you will relate to this), but you know that the body damage after that race will take on average 6 weeks to heal during which the mood swings are extreme (mainly low) and life looks `dark'. After my 6th or 7th run I got to grips with the related physiology and then would expect those `dark' spells. Knowing that they would happen after the race put me into a very different frame of mind, and subsequently when my running friends were misery personified due to that body damage, I was full of the joys of spring due to that understanding and expectation and also that I knew that the effect would only last for a limited period. > > This path is similar – when those `dark nights of the soul' descend and we seem to be wandering in a void, if we expect them as part of the process and also know that they are healing or transition periods of limited duration, they no longer cause the angst or concern as they did before that awareness. In fact they become periods to look forward to as they signify transition points and you know that once one is over the path will become more interesting once again! > > Blessings - Jonathan > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 21, 2010 Report Share Posted January 21, 2010 Bruce- I wanted to thank you for your post; it was a really beautiful read. These posts move so fast these days, or maybe I'm in slow motion. I barely had time to process let along reply. (Ooh,I would love to Hang Ten in RSA.) I am by far not a mathmatician-I cannot even spell it...I think there is something missing from the equation however...surrender is in there somewhere. K + a good challenge x surrender = transformation. LOL. Love: Danielle , " BruceO " <bruce_oom wrote: > formula is (K + a good challenge = quick transformation)... > > love > Bruce > > > > > , " jonrow_2914 " <jrowland@> wrote: > > > > > > Hi Bruce – in reading your post it appears that you are going or have been going through a rough patch – my thoughts are with you! Self doubt seems to be a regular `visitor' to those on this path. I used to get melancholy and brood on this, but now am conscious of those spells coming on and recognise them for what they are – invariably a test of sorts but possibly more of a review period forcing me to re-evaluate specific events or circumstances in my life to find understanding subsequently come to terms with what has happened. Just as you indicate they are a self-healing period. Maybe it is the mealie meal in Zim as you once suggested (I actually can't stand the stuff) but I now am aware of these spells being deliberately `time-tabled' into my linear existence and I actually relish them as they always result in definitive and positive changes within me even though the `review' period can sometimes be an unpleasant grind. It is akin to how you feel after running Comrades (I'm sure you will relate to this), but you know that the body damage after that race will take on average 6 weeks to heal during which the mood swings are extreme (mainly low) and life looks `dark'. After my 6th or 7th run I got to grips with the related physiology and then would expect those `dark' spells. Knowing that they would happen after the race put me into a very different frame of mind, and subsequently when my running friends were misery personified due to that body damage, I was full of the joys of spring due to that understanding and expectation and also that I knew that the effect would only last for a limited period. > > > > This path is similar – when those `dark nights of the soul' descend and we seem to be wandering in a void, if we expect them as part of the process and also know that they are healing or transition periods of limited duration, they no longer cause the angst or concern as they did before that awareness. In fact they become periods to look forward to as they signify transition points and you know that once one is over the path will become more interesting once again! > > > > Blessings - Jonathan > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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