What is important?

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A few days ago I thought how much apt dwellers are at the mercy of the others in

the bldg. What would I do if there was a fire - I am on the second floor - what

is important? And I even had a thought of me standing looking at the bldg on

fire with everything I have gone- what would I do how would I feel? A sense of

relief came over me... Knowing that to lose everything is to gain everything -

isn't that what all the surrender posts are about - losing all we are and know

to gain what we truly are and know???

 

Last night I woke up to the smell of smoke- it was very strong in my apt I

checked all about and then went into the hallway to see a haze down the hall- As

I called 911 I knocked on doors in my wing. OK - automatic mode sets in and

what do I go for - my computer - as I talked to the lady on 911 I packed my

computer grabbed my back pack and thought - what about all the KAS papers I have

- forgetting that it is all on the computer DAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

 

The lady kept saying evacuate - leave the bldg - and I just kept saying I am not

going without my computer. We did get everyone out and the fire dept came and

after about an hour of checking found a fella had been cooking apparently left

the pan on the stove -

 

As I lay down after the excitement there were lots of vibrations in the body and

my head filled with pressure. I was in a state of gratitude that it was not a

fire and all was well except for the awful smell.

 

I was spared more loss - a lesson perhaps in realizing how fortunate I am and

knowing that I am being cared for - how much easier it is to surrender when one

has nothing - does that make sense- if you have all taken from you as the folks

in Haiti did - it may be easier to surrender to the Divine will - there is no

other course- but to have " stuff " to have the physical items to have choices -

then it takes more of a letting go - more of an allowing to be - more of a

commitment to the path -

 

Surrendering ( a small part of surrendering )does not mean you have to have

nothing to me it means that I do not place value on anything and use what I

have enjoy what I have and not be hung up on wanting more - a dissertation could

be written about how our society has a need more want more have more attitude-

when as we look at the surrender on the path of Kundalini - need less want less

means having more - my thoughts.

 

Normally in any crisis I lose my sanity and act like a crazy woman - last night

was different. I handled the situation more calmly than normal - just did what

had to be done - there is a change occurring and I was given a change to see how

I have changed. I slept well after the incident - amazing.

 

Surrendering to what is and being grateful to all I have- especially my

kundalini was pointed out to me in a real life situation. Every event is a

lesson - every event has meaning - there are no accidents.

 

Surrendering is on my mind and in my soul. May I be given the grace to

surrender all that I am all that I have and all that I desire to the Kundalini

Shakti and may i " be " in the moment.

 

Blessings

e

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Dear eillen.

 

Wow, that was really amazing, almost like a dream lesson being given but

actually happening in the physical reality.

I too understand surrendering to accept things being given or things being taken

over which I had no control and have found surrendering " easier " than

surrendering to choices I must make myself. I guess ego has a bigger say in the

latter.

I think this is changing or about to change for me too.

I was saying to someone recently that sometimes I know something but as soon as

I try to put words on it I loose some of the knowing and I think it is because

the ego demands I think in a linear way where as my understanding was not linear

in the first place. something like that is going on for me now re surrender and

I can feel a shift that words find hard to explain, at this time anyway.

surrendering is on my mind and in my soul too.

love julia

 

 

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> Surrendering to what is and being grateful to all I have- especially my

kundalini was pointed out to me in a real life situation. Every event is a

lesson - every event has meaning - there are no accidents.

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> Surrendering is on my mind and in my soul. May I be given the grace to

surrender all that I am all that I have and all that I desire to the Kundalini

Shakti and may i " be " in the moment.

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> Blessings

> e

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