Guest guest Posted January 28, 2010 Report Share Posted January 28, 2010 Hello all, I don't really know how or where to begin. I know that I am yearning for something and I'm not sure what exactly. I came across this website and group and felt the urge to join. I must admit, I feel lost and out of place. I don't have any experience with an awakening, nor do I really understand what it is. In the past I have tried to get into meditation, yoga, and Eastern philosophy, but was never able to incorporate it fully into my life. I feel like sharing some background information about myself: I am a 25 year old Lebanese Jew (born in the US to Lebanese parents). I grew up among traditional Sephardic Jews, always feeling like I did not belong. I have struggled with Judaism and completed detached myself from God and from any spirituality for that matter. I have always been a deeply emotional person, and for many years the prevailing emotions have been negative. I tried to force myself to live a life that I knew was not truthfully mine by marrying a member of my community, but this ended in divorce after three years of feeling like an alien in my own home. I am now in medical school, a path I chose instead of performing arts, as I did not have strong enough belief in myself that I could " make it " as a singer. The only way I am able to deal with my emotions and try to function " normally " has so far been with anti-depressants, occasional binge drinking, and m & riju & na. I always believed there was something unique and different within me, but could never explain it. Sometimes I brush it off thinking I'm just being delusional. But there is a nagging voice that does not want to let go and give up hope. I feel that there is a light and a potential somewhere, but I don't really know how to access it. This is my introduction. I look forward to reading your thoughts. I admire the respect and love you all show each other in this group. Jenny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 28, 2010 Report Share Posted January 28, 2010 Hello Jenny! Welcome to the group. This is a very safe place to come and share. I myself am 1/4 Lebanese(yummy food). The yearning you are feeling will lead you on the right path. Go inward. Let your intuition guide you. Love, Jennifer , " jmez123 " <jmez123 wrote: > > Hello all, > > I don't really know how or where to begin. > > I know that I am yearning for something and I'm not sure what exactly. I came across this website and group and felt the urge to join. > > I look forward to reading your thoughts. I admire the respect and love you all show each other in this group. > > Jenny > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 28, 2010 Report Share Posted January 28, 2010 Hi Jenny, so glad you made it! This is a good place to Just Beeeeeeeee as you balance medicine and music, body/heart/mind/spirit. The Safeties are key. Practicing them softly and diligently will loosen the bandages and unravel the pain. This is a safe place to explore what you find beneath the wrappings. Peace to you, welcome, and a gentle embrace, Shaz --- Jenny wrote: This is my introduction. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 29, 2010 Report Share Posted January 29, 2010 Dear Jenny, Welcome to the Family, your heart will be restless until it rest in the Divine... love & blessings, edgar ________________________________ jmez123 <jmez123 Thu, January 28, 2010 6:40:16 PM An introduction  Hello all, I don't really know how or where to begin. I know that I am yearning for something and I'm not sure what exactly. I came across this website and group and felt the urge to join. I must admit, I feel lost and out of place. I don't have any experience with an awakening, nor do I really understand what it is. In the past I have tried to get into meditation, yoga, and Eastern philosophy, but was never able to incorporate it fully into my life. I feel like sharing some background information about myself: I am a 25 year old Lebanese Jew (born in the US to Lebanese parents). I grew up among traditional Sephardic Jews, always feeling like I did not belong. I have struggled with Judaism and completed detached myself from God and from any spirituality for that matter. I have always been a deeply emotional person, and for many years the prevailing emotions have been negative. I tried to force myself to live a life that I knew was not truthfully mine by marrying a member of my community, but this ended in divorce after three years of feeling like an alien in my own home. I am now in medical school, a path I chose instead of performing arts, as I did not have strong enough belief in myself that I could " make it " as a singer. The only way I am able to deal with my emotions and try to function " normally " has so far been with anti-depressants, occasional binge drinking, and m & riju & na. I always believed there was something unique and different within me, but could never explain it. Sometimes I brush it off thinking I'm just being delusional. But there is a nagging voice that does not want to let go and give up hope. I feel that there is a light and a potential somewhere, but I don't really know how to access it. This is my introduction. I look forward to reading your thoughts. I admire the respect and love you all show each other in this group. Jenny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 29, 2010 Report Share Posted January 29, 2010 Welcome Jenny to the KAS family. I encourage you to read all you can on the sites and ask ?'s here. We have folks who are in different levels of the K process - all are willing to share and advise. We all move at our own pace and find what we need when it is needed. No hurry - slow is always good as per our guide. Know that you are in good hands here and with your inner guidance. Blessings e Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 29, 2010 Report Share Posted January 29, 2010 Jenny, Welcome to the group and I'm sure you will enjoy the posts and content of the group. It is a very safe place to be if you choose to explore the world as we do not know it...lol. How far down the rabbit hole you wish to go is totally up to you. For me, I believe that this group found me. All my questions were answered and feel much more grounded today as I did 2 years ago. Once again welcome and please ask anything you wish. Blessings, Ernie , " jmez123 " <jmez123 wrote: > > Hello all, > > I don't really know how or where to begin. > > I know that I am yearning for something and I'm not sure what exactly. I came across this website and group and felt the urge to Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 31, 2010 Report Share Posted January 31, 2010 Dear Jenny, Welcome.It is quite exciting to have a new introduction in ur form.Since u have decided to march a head on spiritual path through Kundalini ur destination is not far.Be dedicated, follow safeties given on the web site page of Kundalini-Awkening-System.com Once again welcome to K-family , " jmez123 " <jmez123 wrote: > > Hello all, > > I don't really know how or where to begin. > > I know that I am yearning for something and I'm not sure what exactly. I came across this website and group and felt the urge to join. I must admit, I feel lost and out of place. I don't have any experience with an awakening, nor do I really understand what it is. In the past I have tried to get into meditation, yoga, and Eastern philosophy, but was never able to incorporate it fully into my life. I feel like sharing some background information about myself: > > I am a 25 year old Lebanese Jew (born in the US to Lebanese parents). I grew up among traditional Sephardic Jews, always feeling like I did not belong. I have struggled with Judaism and completed detached myself from God and from any spirituality for that matter. I have always been a deeply emotional person, and for many years the prevailing emotions have been negative. I tried to force myself to live a life that I knew was not truthfully mine by marrying a member of my community, but this ended in divorce after three years of feeling like an alien in my own home. I am now in medical school, a path I chose instead of performing arts, as I did not have strong enough belief in myself that I could " make it " as a singer. The only way I am able to deal with my emotions and try to function " normally " has so far been with anti-depressants, occasional binge drinking, and m & riju & na. I always believed there was something unique and different within me, but could never explain it. Sometimes I brush it off thinking I'm just being delusional. But there is a nagging voice that does not want to let go and give up hope. I feel that there is a light and a potential somewhere, but I don't really know how to access it. > > This is my introduction. > > I look forward to reading your thoughts. I admire the respect and love you all show each other in this group. > > Jenny > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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