Sharing Lessons

[Guest guest]

I just wanted to say that I am sharing the things that come into my

awareness, that I need to learn myself, that help me along the way. Lessons

learned as I go along, so to speak. I spend a great deal of my time in fear

based thought - fear of sickness or pain, fear of being misunderstood, fear of

the future. Not only do I need to learn to surrender completely, but to also

trust completely that whatever happens, I will make it through. I base a lot of

my beliefs on past traumas and having put my attention on the negatives far too

much. These are the areas where I have much need for improvement.

 

Yesterday, I did a visualization (not a vision) where I brought a pile of

large stones, one by one, to the edge of a cliff. I decided to have Jesus with

me for the event. Each stone represented pains, fears, traumas and experiences

from the past. There were many. Then I visualized us pushing them over the

edge into a body of water to disappear forever. Next, I visualized a bed of

roses, which I took one by one to an alter, each representing the things I had

to be grateful for. Again, there were many.

 

But I also realized that those things I had to be grateful for still

invoked fear of loss. Fear that I will mess things up, listen to the misleading

voice of the ego. Which detours me a lot! Although the feelings of love were

permanent, the symbolic people and places were temporary, as I have come to the

point in my life where I realize that nothing ever stays the same in this

physical world of the temporary. Just as roses eventually wither away. Things

appear to be always changing. Yet, though much is lost along the way, much is

gained.

 

Trust that the exchange is for my highest good, this is what I still need

to understand. In some respects I already do, but really in the feeling of it,

the knowledge of it, I don't have a clue. How to ignore the worries... !!??!!

I can say it, but can I do it? I am learning, ever so slowly, that for every

physical concept lost, awareness of a bigger piece of the picture is gained.

One day I will " get it " that only awareness matters.

 

Also, wanted to wish a warm welcome to the newest members - I love learning

from such great wisdom on this forum. You are all my teachers. I am thrilled

when new teachers come along.

 

Sorry for the long ramblings this morning! Lucky for all of you, I usually

don't have time to blabber so much! Too busy dealing with ego security issues!

LOL!

 

Love to the K family.

 

GCDeb

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

HI

 

Hi Deb

 

This is inspirational to me.

 

I try to do visualizations and I don’t know why is so difficult for me. I

always try to imagine Jesus at home and try to draw his name on my mind! It is

difficult to have a form of a face or shape..

 

This is a beautiful experience. I tried to do it last night!

 

Love

Monica

 

 

--- El dom 31-ene-10, Deb111222 <Deb111222 escribió:

 

 

De: Deb111222 <Deb111222

Asunto: Sharing Lessons

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Fecha: domingo, 31 enero, 2010, 6:51 am

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I just wanted to say that I am sharing the things that come into my awareness,

that I need to learn myself, that help me along the way. Lessons learned as I go

along, so to speak. I spend a great deal of my time in fear based thought - fear

of sickness or pain, fear of being misunderstood, fear of the future. Not only

do I need to learn to surrender completely, but to also trust completely that

whatever happens, I will make it through. I base a lot of my beliefs on past

traumas and having put my attention on the negatives far too much. These are the

areas where I have much need for improvement.

 

Yesterday, I did a visualization (not a vision) where I brought a pile of large

stones, one by one, to the edge of a cliff. I decided to have Jesus with me for

the event. Each stone represented pains, fears, traumas and experiences from the

past. There were many. Then I visualized us pushing them over the edge into a

body of water to disappear forever. Next, I visualized a bed of roses, which I

took one by one to an alter, each representing the things I had to be grateful

for. Again, there were many.

 

But I also realized that those things I had to be grateful for still invoked

fear of loss. Fear that I will mess things up, listen to the misleading voice of

the ego. Which detours me a lot! Although the feelings of love were permanent,

the symbolic people and places were temporary, as I have come to the point in my

life where I realize that nothing ever stays the same in this physical world of

the temporary. Just as roses eventually wither away. Things appear to be always

changing. Yet, though much is lost along the way, much is gained.

 

Trust that the exchange is for my highest good, this is what I still need to

understand. In some respects I already do, but really in the feeling of it, the

knowledge of it, I don't have a clue. How to ignore the worries... !!??!! I can

say it, but can I do it? I am learning, ever so slowly, that for every physical

concept lost, awareness of a bigger piece of the picture is gained. One day I

will " get it " that only awareness matters.

 

Also, wanted to wish a warm welcome to the newest members - I love learning from

such great wisdom on this forum. You are all my teachers. I am thrilled when new

teachers come along.

 

Sorry for the long ramblings this morning! Lucky for all of you, I usually don't

have time to blabber so much! Too busy dealing with ego security issues! LOL!

 

Love to the K family.

 

GCDeb

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hey Monica - this is all just my opinion, but it sounds like you are more

auditory than visual, which would make you a better listener! I think I got in

the habit of tuning out a lot and reading a lot as a child, so I developed that

visual part of the brain more. I find it more difficult to listen when others

are speaking to me - my mind will wander a lot. So, I am trying to develop that

more by forcing myself to listen more. But, it is still harder for me and I

must really work at it.

 

We all have different strengths and it seems as though you have wonderful

auditory strengths. To strengthen visualization - I'm thinking to maybe look at

photos and practicing remembering those photos. If you are trying to visualize

a face, maybe spend more time gazing at a photo of that face if possible. And

then close your eyes and try to remember. I think that probably practice does

help develop these areas. But the areas that are better developed already will

be much easier and less challenging.

 

If you have trouble with visualization, you are probably also more " living

in the present. " I had a bad habit of daydreaming - and therefore leaving the

present! This got me in a lot of trouble! So I think that living in the

present and being a good listener are very good strengths that I definitely

would like to have! It sounds like K communicates with you in these areas where

you are most receptive.

 

Knowing the difference between the voice of the ego and the Voice of Spirit

is always a challenge for anyone! If I don't like the voice I'm hearing, I

purposefully take charge of the words by saying a prayer or mantra over and

over. I always pick soothing, comforting and peaceful ones. This really helps

me a lot and often puts me in a reflective, receptive, meditative state. This

is also called contemplative meditation.

 

Hope this helps! Love to the K family.

 

GCDeb

 

 

 

 

 

 

I try to do visualizations and I don’t know why is so difficult for me. I

always try to imagine Jesus at home and try to draw his name on my mind! It is

difficult to have a form of a face or shape..