What feeds you ?

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Hei everybody ..

 

I was reading a blog a friend of mine had written and came to think about the

different things that used to or still feed my identity/ego/persona and gives it

energy and a sense of " well-being " .

I thought for ex. relationships... when I think about it, I believe I used to

put a lot of importance in them before, and felt they defined a lot who I was

and my worth as a person... now, I'm still not beyond that and sometimes I wish

I was in this or that relationship because then I would feel this and that.

Theres a part in me that is aware of this and knows pretty well thats not a

solution.. and then I keep away from doing/thinking things that willnot help

me.... the question that arises in my mind is then... is it possible for me to

feel joy and a sense of wellbeing by getting myself a new car, girlfriend, job,

friends, etc. without feeling/thinking that those feelings are just " traps " of

the ego ? I ask this because during this process, which is very lonely, I've

been singel and not very outgoing, even though I used to do both before, and

sometimes I wonder if the loneliness is a necessary part of the process,or if

it's me that denies all this things to myself because I've already " realised "

that they will be ofno " good " ??? kind of like... what if I opened myself and

seeked more a relationship, maybe that would bring a positive change that would

help me feel better in my process ..... or is this more like... H*** No, K will

take away all these you thought you were... and when you get tired of thinking

you need it and even forget about it.. then K /Goddess will provide what you

need .. I think this question is also related to how much I trust that what I

need will be provided, and maybe even more the doubt of " what if I got it all

wrong in this process and I'm the one causing the pain/loneliness... )

 

 

Any comments ??

 

Light andlove to all,

 

Jonas